It's been a long time since I updated.....
Slowly slowly, blogging is becoming an addiction ;D
It's nice to be able to just rant out one's thoughts and all that have happened. Also, the greatest thing about blog is that dear ones, who are far away are able to know what is happening with their relative :)
All in all, more than anything, LIFE IS TRULY INTERESTING... All the events and incidents that occur play a crucial role in shaping up our lives.....
Monday, June 13, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Thoughts
I walk down the lane, with nothing but music for company.
I look around and all that envelops me is loneliness.
At times like this, all I wish dearly is for someone to be there, walking by my side.
One with whom I can just share my thoughts for the moment.
One with whom I can just sit beside, lean my head and doze off / cry as I grumble my butt off.
With all those around me, its just painful that all the relations I have is just breaking by the moment. All the dreams and such that I had of things changing, all just disappeared in the air, without me even realising it..... I got made use of, as ever, also without realising it....
Its just painful with all that is happening, I look beside me, wanting someone to be there, one with whom I can share out all this thoughts but there isn't anyone there.
The worst thing about it all was that I actually thought of just running away and that was favourable to me and later, I was shocked at myself for thinking of just leaving it all.... What about those whom I leave behind....
Thankfully, despite it all, I have music for my company, music being what it is, is always there for me-something I can tune in to and just let it surround me as I block all other thoughts away....
Frankly speaking, I have no idea why I am feeling all these. Things are going smooth but it can be for the fact that the pain from ties being broken has never healed or it can be due to the confusion that has arised in me... Once again.
I have totally no freaking idea as to where my life is headed. I can no longer visualise what I would be doing in the future. The idea of being a HOUSEWIFE seems really really lucrative at the moment ;)
I look around and all that envelops me is loneliness.
At times like this, all I wish dearly is for someone to be there, walking by my side.
One with whom I can just share my thoughts for the moment.
One with whom I can just sit beside, lean my head and doze off / cry as I grumble my butt off.
With all those around me, its just painful that all the relations I have is just breaking by the moment. All the dreams and such that I had of things changing, all just disappeared in the air, without me even realising it..... I got made use of, as ever, also without realising it....
Its just painful with all that is happening, I look beside me, wanting someone to be there, one with whom I can share out all this thoughts but there isn't anyone there.
The worst thing about it all was that I actually thought of just running away and that was favourable to me and later, I was shocked at myself for thinking of just leaving it all.... What about those whom I leave behind....
Thankfully, despite it all, I have music for my company, music being what it is, is always there for me-something I can tune in to and just let it surround me as I block all other thoughts away....
Frankly speaking, I have no idea why I am feeling all these. Things are going smooth but it can be for the fact that the pain from ties being broken has never healed or it can be due to the confusion that has arised in me... Once again.
I have totally no freaking idea as to where my life is headed. I can no longer visualise what I would be doing in the future. The idea of being a HOUSEWIFE seems really really lucrative at the moment ;)
Monday, May 23, 2011
To my babies
I wrote the below story and I just decided to share with my Babies, whom I am totally missing terribly!!!
For you guys, love you lots=D
Min and Hyun were inseparable. They were always together ever since young. They both came into this world, within months of each other. They were introduced to each other when both were infants. They went to the same playschool. They went to the same nursery. They went to the same primary and secondary school. Both were following in the footsteps of their fathers, who were friends themselves. Both aspired to be boxers, legendary ones like their fathers. They trained hard day and night together. They were together all the time, except when they were spending time with their family or when they were sleeping or when they visited the washroom at school. Apart from these moments, they were basically twins stuck together at the waist.
Life is never a smooth flowing river, there are bound to be waves, small ones along with large tidal waves that are capable of destroying the surrounding.
Just like that, a strong wave hit them hard. One match, both the friends found standing at opposite ends as both stood at the other corner supporting their fathers who were in the ring, facing each other for the very first time. It was a tough fight as both were of the same level, which made the fight more intense. After a grueling battle, the friends turned into enemies. As Min’s father stood on the ring with his arms in the air, basking in the glory of victory, Hyun’s dad got out of the ring and walked away, without even congratulating his friend. Hyun followed behind his dad, not bothering to congratulate neither his friend nor his uncle.
Just like how they walked out of the stadium, the family later packed up everything and moved out of town. Min, though broken and lost without his friend, understood their reasons for doing so. Especially with every newspaper reporting about his dad’s winning, he knew that it would be painful on Hyun’s family. The only thing he wished was that Hyun could at least have said Goodbye to him. However, that was not the case and now, Min found himself all alone all of a sudden. His best buddy, his close friend was gone and Min knew no way of getting in touch with him. He tried to call Hyun’s cellphone but was informed that the number was out of service. Min tried all means and ways of getting in touch with Hyun but was met with a wall at every corner. He wasn't allowed to mention Hyun's name at home. His father never spoke of his friend ever. Just like that, they became enemies, one whom Min couldn't talk about, miss or even think of anymore.....
Just like that, Life’s wave had hit him and washed away taking his close friend along with it……
Ten years passed. Life moved on for them. Now, both were married with kids. Both Min and Hyun worked hard. They were now the best boxers in their regions. They both often heard of the other but they never came across each other. However, the saying that the world is small is very true and just like that, both of them came face to face with each other. Standing opposite each other in the ring, both now found themselves in the exact same spot as to where their fathers were years before.
As they shook hands and looked at each other, the memories spent together with each other flashed by their mind and both thought the same thing: I missed you.... I missed you so badly.... I miss the times we spent together. I missed not having you around when I graduated. I miss not having you around when I got a new girlfriend / when I suffered my first heartbreak. I missed not having you as my Best Man during my marriage. I missed you Min/Hyun.
However, they did not say a word to each other, they merely spoke through their eyes. Instead, they prepared for their fight. Having seen the opponent, both were fight an internal battle with themselves. Their were confused on doing their best to win or to let the other win, so as to be able to mend back their relationship??
"What if I win, then he feels bad about it and decides to just walk away like the other time?"
"However, what if I lose and he thinks that I lost purposely and I just lost as a mean of charity to him?"
Still fighting the internal battle, both started their fight......
At the end of the fight, both walked out of the ring, still aching and hurting from the fight. As Min started heading towards his room, Hyun ran after him and pulled him in for a backhug. " I missed you, Min." He whispered as he stayed in the hugging position, ignoring the whispers and the gasps of the people around them. Min continued walking and Hyun carefully balanced himself as he stared at the figure walking away.
When Hyun walked out of the centre, his wife and child beside him, he was greeted by a small kid, almost the age of his son, staring and smiling at him. As Hyun reached the end of the stairs, the kid ran up to him and started tugging at the hem of his shirt.
"Who are you, Little Angel?" Hyun said as he carefully picked the child up into his arms. The child stared at him before planting a kiss on his right cheeks. Hyun was startled by this action but was still happy. The child then started wrangling his legs and Hyun placed the child on the ground. Once his little feets were on the ground, the child got up and ran away. Hyun looked at the direction whereby the child was headed.
He looked as the child ran to the end of the road and his face turned into that of shock. There, the child ran to the man standing beside a parked car. As the man picked the child up, Hyun kept staring at him. Soon, he found himself walking towards the man, his wife and child following behind him.
Breaking into a run, Hyun ran to the man, who had placed the child down and tackled him with a Hug.
"MIN!" Hyun cried as he hugged his friend tightly. A good 5 minutes passed before Hyun finally let go of Min. They both smiled at each other.
After the hug, both then proceeded to pick up the bits and pieces of their life which had been destroyed by the wave which hit them years ago. As they went back home, both of them started to make their life turn back to they way it was before.... They started by introducing their kids to each other, followed by wife before they drove back to one of their houses.
Those who are meant to be in our lives, always manage to come back, after exiting. When they come back, the bond is strengthened despite the absence of the other from a certain portion of our life.... The string which connects us, stretches as far as it can and at the end of it, it pulls back and we see each other again.....
I miss you guys!
For you guys, love you lots=D
~
Min and Hyun were inseparable. They were always together ever since young. They both came into this world, within months of each other. They were introduced to each other when both were infants. They went to the same playschool. They went to the same nursery. They went to the same primary and secondary school. Both were following in the footsteps of their fathers, who were friends themselves. Both aspired to be boxers, legendary ones like their fathers. They trained hard day and night together. They were together all the time, except when they were spending time with their family or when they were sleeping or when they visited the washroom at school. Apart from these moments, they were basically twins stuck together at the waist.
Life is never a smooth flowing river, there are bound to be waves, small ones along with large tidal waves that are capable of destroying the surrounding.
Just like that, a strong wave hit them hard. One match, both the friends found standing at opposite ends as both stood at the other corner supporting their fathers who were in the ring, facing each other for the very first time. It was a tough fight as both were of the same level, which made the fight more intense. After a grueling battle, the friends turned into enemies. As Min’s father stood on the ring with his arms in the air, basking in the glory of victory, Hyun’s dad got out of the ring and walked away, without even congratulating his friend. Hyun followed behind his dad, not bothering to congratulate neither his friend nor his uncle.
Just like how they walked out of the stadium, the family later packed up everything and moved out of town. Min, though broken and lost without his friend, understood their reasons for doing so. Especially with every newspaper reporting about his dad’s winning, he knew that it would be painful on Hyun’s family. The only thing he wished was that Hyun could at least have said Goodbye to him. However, that was not the case and now, Min found himself all alone all of a sudden. His best buddy, his close friend was gone and Min knew no way of getting in touch with him. He tried to call Hyun’s cellphone but was informed that the number was out of service. Min tried all means and ways of getting in touch with Hyun but was met with a wall at every corner. He wasn't allowed to mention Hyun's name at home. His father never spoke of his friend ever. Just like that, they became enemies, one whom Min couldn't talk about, miss or even think of anymore.....
Just like that, Life’s wave had hit him and washed away taking his close friend along with it……
Ten years passed. Life moved on for them. Now, both were married with kids. Both Min and Hyun worked hard. They were now the best boxers in their regions. They both often heard of the other but they never came across each other. However, the saying that the world is small is very true and just like that, both of them came face to face with each other. Standing opposite each other in the ring, both now found themselves in the exact same spot as to where their fathers were years before.
As they shook hands and looked at each other, the memories spent together with each other flashed by their mind and both thought the same thing: I missed you.... I missed you so badly.... I miss the times we spent together. I missed not having you around when I graduated. I miss not having you around when I got a new girlfriend / when I suffered my first heartbreak. I missed not having you as my Best Man during my marriage. I missed you Min/Hyun.
However, they did not say a word to each other, they merely spoke through their eyes. Instead, they prepared for their fight. Having seen the opponent, both were fight an internal battle with themselves. Their were confused on doing their best to win or to let the other win, so as to be able to mend back their relationship??
"What if I win, then he feels bad about it and decides to just walk away like the other time?"
"However, what if I lose and he thinks that I lost purposely and I just lost as a mean of charity to him?"
Still fighting the internal battle, both started their fight......
At the end of the fight, both walked out of the ring, still aching and hurting from the fight. As Min started heading towards his room, Hyun ran after him and pulled him in for a backhug. " I missed you, Min." He whispered as he stayed in the hugging position, ignoring the whispers and the gasps of the people around them. Min continued walking and Hyun carefully balanced himself as he stared at the figure walking away.
When Hyun walked out of the centre, his wife and child beside him, he was greeted by a small kid, almost the age of his son, staring and smiling at him. As Hyun reached the end of the stairs, the kid ran up to him and started tugging at the hem of his shirt.
"Who are you, Little Angel?" Hyun said as he carefully picked the child up into his arms. The child stared at him before planting a kiss on his right cheeks. Hyun was startled by this action but was still happy. The child then started wrangling his legs and Hyun placed the child on the ground. Once his little feets were on the ground, the child got up and ran away. Hyun looked at the direction whereby the child was headed.
He looked as the child ran to the end of the road and his face turned into that of shock. There, the child ran to the man standing beside a parked car. As the man picked the child up, Hyun kept staring at him. Soon, he found himself walking towards the man, his wife and child following behind him.
Breaking into a run, Hyun ran to the man, who had placed the child down and tackled him with a Hug.
"MIN!" Hyun cried as he hugged his friend tightly. A good 5 minutes passed before Hyun finally let go of Min. They both smiled at each other.
After the hug, both then proceeded to pick up the bits and pieces of their life which had been destroyed by the wave which hit them years ago. As they went back home, both of them started to make their life turn back to they way it was before.... They started by introducing their kids to each other, followed by wife before they drove back to one of their houses.
Those who are meant to be in our lives, always manage to come back, after exiting. When they come back, the bond is strengthened despite the absence of the other from a certain portion of our life.... The string which connects us, stretches as far as it can and at the end of it, it pulls back and we see each other again.....
~
I miss you guys!
Friday, May 20, 2011
LIFE
When I should be awake, I want to sleep.
When I should be sleeping, I lie awake.
When it's time to work, I want to play.
There is hardly a time when I want to work.
I studied something and am now doing something else,
but that does not mean I hate my job.
I get nothing on some days,
I get nonstop work on the next.
I am excited about their arrival,
I fear their arrival and the headache it brings.
I am happy whenever I get a confirmation,
I am even happier when they leave and I have to do the accounts -_-
I had different expectations from life,
I got other things from what I expected.
I craved for love and comfort of family,
in the end, I was given enemies.
I want to move forward and continue doing something I love,
I have no idea on what I should take to move forward.
I crave for longing and the warmth of a hug,
I am greeted with loneliness all around me.
I seek a place to call my own,
I am treated like a stranger, which makes me wonder = Where is home?
I have started a hobby, writing out thoughts in stories,
I ended up being addicted to it.
I hate myself for being too addicted,
as the addiction has to come to an end one day.
I wanna learn something new =New Language/Sign Language/Instrument,
but I have no idea on what step to take to start........
Finally, I feel relieved after writing it all out =)
When I should be sleeping, I lie awake.
When it's time to work, I want to play.
There is hardly a time when I want to work.
I studied something and am now doing something else,
but that does not mean I hate my job.
I get nothing on some days,
I get nonstop work on the next.
I am excited about their arrival,
I fear their arrival and the headache it brings.
I am happy whenever I get a confirmation,
I am even happier when they leave and I have to do the accounts -_-
I had different expectations from life,
I got other things from what I expected.
I craved for love and comfort of family,
in the end, I was given enemies.
I want to move forward and continue doing something I love,
I have no idea on what I should take to move forward.
I crave for longing and the warmth of a hug,
I am greeted with loneliness all around me.
I seek a place to call my own,
I am treated like a stranger, which makes me wonder = Where is home?
I have started a hobby, writing out thoughts in stories,
I ended up being addicted to it.
I hate myself for being too addicted,
as the addiction has to come to an end one day.
I wanna learn something new =New Language/Sign Language/Instrument,
but I have no idea on what step to take to start........
Finally, I feel relieved after writing it all out =)
Monday, May 16, 2011
Writing
In a bid to escape doing work, I came across the below post on the web and was really touched by what was written. I think that letters are now totally a thing of the long gone past, and yet, to actually sit and realise the importance and the impact of the letter is so much more touching and heartfelt as per compared to sms or even e-mail.... Though the same words and letters are used for all the trio, the act of having to sit down, take out the paper and write it out is I guess something in a different league.... Funny thing is that this is the second time I am coming across a post on Letters within a day.
The second one was on Mother-Daughter bond which was sweet and touching.
The links for the two posts:
Letters
Mother-Daughter Bond
I started writing out this post with some other intention and ended up writing about something else.... I am so easily distracted. I was looking for an image and ended up on the Letters link and I blogged about it..... Goodness me.
This whole addiction to write is overtaking me badly. Every second and minute, all I wanna do is sit and write the story further. The worst thing is that I have totally no idea on how to continue my current story and instead, am coming up with other one shots..... I am just getting my other leg stucked in the Mud to join the first leg.... Dammit, this is the first time an addiction is getting so damn bad... Like seriously, I have no idea on how to get rid of all the thoughts and such that come to me.
I don't know if its because of all that happened and such but I am now liking ANGST stories. Not that I wanna write that in my main story but I am totally becoming a sucker for Angst compared to normal kind of stories..... This coming from someone who can't watch sad movies from start till the end.... Screw it=this just shows how bad a writer I am, for not being able to properly express out the characters emotions....
The second one was on Mother-Daughter bond which was sweet and touching.
The links for the two posts:
Letters
Mother-Daughter Bond
I started writing out this post with some other intention and ended up writing about something else.... I am so easily distracted. I was looking for an image and ended up on the Letters link and I blogged about it..... Goodness me.
This whole addiction to write is overtaking me badly. Every second and minute, all I wanna do is sit and write the story further. The worst thing is that I have totally no idea on how to continue my current story and instead, am coming up with other one shots..... I am just getting my other leg stucked in the Mud to join the first leg.... Dammit, this is the first time an addiction is getting so damn bad... Like seriously, I have no idea on how to get rid of all the thoughts and such that come to me.
I don't know if its because of all that happened and such but I am now liking ANGST stories. Not that I wanna write that in my main story but I am totally becoming a sucker for Angst compared to normal kind of stories..... This coming from someone who can't watch sad movies from start till the end.... Screw it=this just shows how bad a writer I am, for not being able to properly express out the characters emotions....
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Light at the End of Tunnel
Finally, I am able to see the a bit of light after having traveled in this tunnel for the past 21days. Though, I would not be fully able to step out into the light till Thursday, it feels awesome seeing the little bit glimmer of HOPE, Happiness and Enjoyment...
Ok, I know that I am over-exaggerating but seriously, the past few weeks [21st Apr onwards] have been one hack of a roller coaster ride= Endless calls: Calls that serve as an alarm clock at 6am, Calls that still come though its 11.30pm at night, and the numerous calls throughout the day which kept coming one after another. I have never feared technology as much as I feared the Phone these past few days.... Moreover, the tension of vehicles=Vehicles which are not there, People who are not there, Vehicle which can't wait anymore, People who come out late and the whole list is endless.....
It was HELL. Really, totally one hack of a Hell ride. Though I learnt much from this whole period, there was still the downside of this which led to me being more forgetful, having to handle more than I can accomodate on my plate and the tears, on the days whereby it got too much, they would just come and linger around in my eyes before I had to blink them away, before they got a chance to fall....
Truly, this whole period was one hack of a ride, full with its ups[the stories and little jokes I got to hear from them] and downs [which there was a lot] and after it all, its finally gonna end......Am just so damn excited...
Btw, on a side note:
Ok, I know that I am over-exaggerating but seriously, the past few weeks [21st Apr onwards] have been one hack of a roller coaster ride= Endless calls: Calls that serve as an alarm clock at 6am, Calls that still come though its 11.30pm at night, and the numerous calls throughout the day which kept coming one after another. I have never feared technology as much as I feared the Phone these past few days.... Moreover, the tension of vehicles=Vehicles which are not there, People who are not there, Vehicle which can't wait anymore, People who come out late and the whole list is endless.....
It was HELL. Really, totally one hack of a Hell ride. Though I learnt much from this whole period, there was still the downside of this which led to me being more forgetful, having to handle more than I can accomodate on my plate and the tears, on the days whereby it got too much, they would just come and linger around in my eyes before I had to blink them away, before they got a chance to fall....
Truly, this whole period was one hack of a ride, full with its ups[the stories and little jokes I got to hear from them] and downs [which there was a lot] and after it all, its finally gonna end......Am just so damn excited...
Btw, on a side note:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
[First time he isn't here with us on his Birthday =( ]
[First time he isn't here with us on his Birthday =( ]
Monday, May 9, 2011
Travel
This is one industry whereby there is fun, which comes along with depression or more like stress. Though it is a known fact that every job comes with a downside as well.... I just feel that the downside for this industry is a bit too heavy......
It's a 24/7 industry. Literally. You get calls and orders for any time of the day and everyday.... It really gets tiring at times [this is just my viewpoint]..... Moreover, the bad thing is that majority of the times, we are the middleman and being that, is a BAD BAD thing... You receive calls on your right, and before you hang up, your left is already dialing up another number... Guests call you for vehicles,You check the location of the vehicle, you get calls for missing guests and it's a never ending cycle....
The worse thing is that we are the ones who always have to bear the brunt... Just because we are in direct contact with guests on one side and agents on the other.....
LAST MINUTE=oh this is one word an hating so much... There are lotsa last minute jobs. I still cant forget how horridly I was awoke yesterday, getting a call from the agent to tell me that the guests are already on the Bus from Malaysia to Singapore. The next thing I knew, my Sunday vanished with me making all last minute arrangements for the group, from Vehicle to Guide to Meal bookings....
On the other side, there are lotsa people entering this industry and despite all the grumbling above, I can totally relate to the interest of joining this industry. You meet lotsa different type of guests and despite the nasty ones, there are the nice ones, you would talk sweetly to you, patiently wait for the vehicles without making a big hoo-haa and at the end of their trip, give you a call to say Thank You before departing = these people are the reason that there is a smile on our faces at the end of the day.
Other than that, it is the nonstop endless stories that we get to share with others at the end of the day. I remember my Dad telling us his stories and truthfully, before getting into this line, I didn't really had much interest in them. However, after I started working in this line, the interest in listening to his stories grew and its fun to hear cause we get to listen and learn from the experience of tourists in our home country, things to learn on how to behave when we step into the shoes of a tourist in the future... I think the most interesting story I hear and feel is spooky and scary at the same time is the story of a newly wed couple who went onboard a Cruise and they didn't return... The vehicle waited 3 hours but they didn't show up at the Cruise Centre. We called the hotel numerous times and the guests had not checked-in even till 11pm that night... They didn't even show up for their Departure back home..... No idea as to what happened to the Couple.
Ok, it feels damn nice to have let out all the above thoughts from my system... Feel so free right now.. and Damn the weather .... I just bathed and within 30 minutes, am feeling so icky and sticky......
It's a 24/7 industry. Literally. You get calls and orders for any time of the day and everyday.... It really gets tiring at times [this is just my viewpoint]..... Moreover, the bad thing is that majority of the times, we are the middleman and being that, is a BAD BAD thing... You receive calls on your right, and before you hang up, your left is already dialing up another number... Guests call you for vehicles,You check the location of the vehicle, you get calls for missing guests and it's a never ending cycle....
The worse thing is that we are the ones who always have to bear the brunt... Just because we are in direct contact with guests on one side and agents on the other.....
LAST MINUTE=oh this is one word an hating so much... There are lotsa last minute jobs. I still cant forget how horridly I was awoke yesterday, getting a call from the agent to tell me that the guests are already on the Bus from Malaysia to Singapore. The next thing I knew, my Sunday vanished with me making all last minute arrangements for the group, from Vehicle to Guide to Meal bookings....
On the other side, there are lotsa people entering this industry and despite all the grumbling above, I can totally relate to the interest of joining this industry. You meet lotsa different type of guests and despite the nasty ones, there are the nice ones, you would talk sweetly to you, patiently wait for the vehicles without making a big hoo-haa and at the end of their trip, give you a call to say Thank You before departing = these people are the reason that there is a smile on our faces at the end of the day.
Other than that, it is the nonstop endless stories that we get to share with others at the end of the day. I remember my Dad telling us his stories and truthfully, before getting into this line, I didn't really had much interest in them. However, after I started working in this line, the interest in listening to his stories grew and its fun to hear cause we get to listen and learn from the experience of tourists in our home country, things to learn on how to behave when we step into the shoes of a tourist in the future... I think the most interesting story I hear and feel is spooky and scary at the same time is the story of a newly wed couple who went onboard a Cruise and they didn't return... The vehicle waited 3 hours but they didn't show up at the Cruise Centre. We called the hotel numerous times and the guests had not checked-in even till 11pm that night... They didn't even show up for their Departure back home..... No idea as to what happened to the Couple.
Ok, it feels damn nice to have let out all the above thoughts from my system... Feel so free right now.. and Damn the weather .... I just bathed and within 30 minutes, am feeling so icky and sticky......
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Updates
For the past few weeks, I was too engaged in writing out stories rather than writing out my thoughts... and moreover, I was figuring a way to revamp my blog and was going too crazy experimenting around that by the end of the day, I was left too frustrated to even write down anything.
Finally, today I am able to solve everything out. I moved my storied to LJ [Here] , so as to separate my hobby and my thoughts....
With Dad being away, I can feel that being in his shoes is TOO MUCH OF A RESPONSIBILITY. As for me, I am at home and handling the calls but he, he would be driving on the roads and getting all the calls along with personal calls in between.... I just don't get how he is able to handle it out...
The good point of this came that, I have managed to come up with a way so as to make his along with my life, a little simpler and that would leave him a little free...
But for the time being, the CALLS.... OH THE CALLS..... I feel like either banging my head or throwing away the calls... Now I totally understand when Reka said that She is not a phone person, because I am not one too and in the end, I cant let go the calls because the calls are business and that is what we cant let go.....
Oh .... I am just awaiting for 11th May.... Please come by Fast!!!!!
Finally, today I am able to solve everything out. I moved my storied to LJ [Here] , so as to separate my hobby and my thoughts....
With Dad being away, I can feel that being in his shoes is TOO MUCH OF A RESPONSIBILITY. As for me, I am at home and handling the calls but he, he would be driving on the roads and getting all the calls along with personal calls in between.... I just don't get how he is able to handle it out...
The good point of this came that, I have managed to come up with a way so as to make his along with my life, a little simpler and that would leave him a little free...
But for the time being, the CALLS.... OH THE CALLS..... I feel like either banging my head or throwing away the calls... Now I totally understand when Reka said that She is not a phone person, because I am not one too and in the end, I cant let go the calls because the calls are business and that is what we cant let go.....
Oh .... I am just awaiting for 11th May.... Please come by Fast!!!!!
Monday, April 11, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Thoughts
There are numerous thoughts running through my mind. Seriously, numerous things are running through but when it comes to writing them down here, I am unable to do so.... I don't even know where to start from... I badly need someone to just listen to me rant out.... However, though Jagiya had listened to me and it felt nice talking out to her, I am unable to get these feelings out... I think that the best way is to talk to them but I know that in the end, with the way things are going for them, I don't think that there would be any point.....
It's depressing to think that way but I know that there is no point. Even if I were to talk it out with them, in the end, no outcome will come out of it. -_- There's just this heavy feeling....
Moreover, to top that up, I have heard nothing about my application and I am getting news of them going for interview for the same thing. In this way, half of me is gearing up for rejection and that feeling itself is painful. I am just feeling scared once again... I don't get why every time I give my best shot, I get back nothing in return. Why can't my own Life move the way I want it to head towards.... Why do all my efforts result to zilch? It's just exasperating, really very exasperating....
At times, it just feels that my own life isn't even my own in a way. This itself feels tiresome, I can't seem to steer the car in the direction I want it to head in, instead, being on Auto, it is totally being controlled by someone else.....
The only good thing out of all these is that I have started writing stories after a long time and I am happy that I restarted that habit because, that is one way for me to live out my thoughts...... I just wonder if it wasn't for that, what would happen......
It's depressing to think that way but I know that there is no point. Even if I were to talk it out with them, in the end, no outcome will come out of it. -_- There's just this heavy feeling....
Moreover, to top that up, I have heard nothing about my application and I am getting news of them going for interview for the same thing. In this way, half of me is gearing up for rejection and that feeling itself is painful. I am just feeling scared once again... I don't get why every time I give my best shot, I get back nothing in return. Why can't my own Life move the way I want it to head towards.... Why do all my efforts result to zilch? It's just exasperating, really very exasperating....
At times, it just feels that my own life isn't even my own in a way. This itself feels tiresome, I can't seem to steer the car in the direction I want it to head in, instead, being on Auto, it is totally being controlled by someone else.....
The only good thing out of all these is that I have started writing stories after a long time and I am happy that I restarted that habit because, that is one way for me to live out my thoughts...... I just wonder if it wasn't for that, what would happen......
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
Children
CHILDREN
Out of the weirdest things to talk out, Me and Vand were busy talking about CHILDREN. Seriously, it was so weird for the two of us to be talking about this topic when the whole thing seems to be something of the distant future.
However, in one way, its nice to voice out as well the thoughts that we keep in us from watching the kids of the current generation.
Haha, it was funny how both of us had the same thought for one point:
=> We both want our kids to go and learn DANCING [Classical / Ballet].
As for the others, it is more of my thoughts,
1)Learn a musical instrument... I find myself funny when I told her how I want them to choose their instruments .... The method=I would lay out in front of them, cards with pictures and let the choose -_-'''
2)This point is for is they want, to learn Martials Arts... I find that this is another sport like Dance which totally flexes your body. Of course, the point that I am obsessed with this because of all the shows I have seen of Sungmin [of Super Junior] performing.
3)Thirdly, that is about Education. Haha, the most important education was what was talked about at last..... However, for this is that, we would not want the kids to be running around for enrichment classes... Hmm I think one point that I have learnt from conducting the enrichment classes at various CCs is that, what I teach them at the classes, are fun things which the kids should be learning with their family........
Names of Kids=We even talked about that ^.^
VAND: I can only remember her saying that she wants the Name 'DEV' for the guy.
As for ME: I could only think of 'TRISHA' for the girl.... It could be partially due to the reason that I am missing Trisha badly......
Ok, I really think its enough already... Enough of talking about this subjects.... Ok, enough... I think I can now ignore about this topic for a while.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Stories
I don't know if it is because of the reason that I have been reading too many stories or if its been too long since I last wrote but currently, I feel like writing the stories I used to all over again...
Sadly for me, as much as I love writing the stories, which I used to previously, when I read them now, I would always be thinking =" What was wrong with me, what was I thinking to be writing like this....." => Because seriously, all of them are one hack of the sad sad romantic kinda plots... Even now the One I am thinking, the starting itself is filled with tears....
But the cool thing about the stories I am reading now is that they are FANFICS, which is stories written by Fans with their Stars being their characters. The cool thing about this is that the need for us to imagine the characters is discarded and that in its way is cool.....
I remember reading the very first Harry Potter book, and I was never able to fully imagine the characters and their looks. It was such a grateful thing that the Movie was made cos then, it made the job of reading the other stories so much more fun and cool....
But more than anything, nothing beats reading Stories because they totally let you go full and out with your imagination =D
Maybe, I would get down to writing it soon because though it is a saddening starting, it is meaningful because there is the whole aspect of Friendship there which totally means alot =D
Sadly for me, as much as I love writing the stories, which I used to previously, when I read them now, I would always be thinking =" What was wrong with me, what was I thinking to be writing like this....." => Because seriously, all of them are one hack of the sad sad romantic kinda plots... Even now the One I am thinking, the starting itself is filled with tears....
But the cool thing about the stories I am reading now is that they are FANFICS, which is stories written by Fans with their Stars being their characters. The cool thing about this is that the need for us to imagine the characters is discarded and that in its way is cool.....
I remember reading the very first Harry Potter book, and I was never able to fully imagine the characters and their looks. It was such a grateful thing that the Movie was made cos then, it made the job of reading the other stories so much more fun and cool....
But more than anything, nothing beats reading Stories because they totally let you go full and out with your imagination =D
Maybe, I would get down to writing it soon because though it is a saddening starting, it is meaningful because there is the whole aspect of Friendship there which totally means alot =D
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
CitizenShip = DONE
Vand and I have FINALLY, FINALLY accomplished our whole 'CITIZENSHIP' thing after a whole period of almost 4months.... Not that we have been continuously running for 4months but it still took us this much period before we got the whole thing done.
I still remember the disappointment we faced on the first day we met to do it....
1st Trip = We went to the ICA and took the queue number and all and later, we are told that we need the renunciation letter. We tot of heading to HCI but that closes so much earlier than ICA [it closes @ 1130hrs-GOODNESS]. Hence, we went to Bendemeer where we slacked and whacked.....
2nd Trip = We went to HCI with the hopes that we brought enough things with us.... At that place, after ages of waiting without queue number, we are told that We need to fill up 3 forms, have 3 photos and we would need SGD $185 only, Cash only, no NETS. Since we aren't so rich to be caring so much, we had to leave and that was another disappointing day......
3rd Trip = We went to HCI with the Cash and everything, so for me, the submission was done. However, VAND baby forgot to bring her ICA letter.... However, mine was submitted. So after that, went to repair my phone, we slacked, whacked and later, we got involved in this donation scheme by this guy called Jeremy. I still rmb, we were happily exiting and he wanted us to write notes for the EARTH and later, made us seat and talked until we felt that we should really get into the Donation Scheme. Happily, we are accepted and we are still involved =D
4th Trip = Vand had to go down one day and submit her form. On this day, we both met up ahead to whack on our cravings. We meet up @ Novena, happily whacked, Vand became Santa Claus for her Friend and Sis and I was for myself =P
The Glorious Food which we whacked at SEOUL YUMMY, @ Novena.
After that, we both went to collect our forms from HCI, and then we cabbed down to ICA, being happy that everything would be done and all.... When we reach there, They were already close for the day, though it wasn't even 1645hrs..... Though disappointed, we went to indulge in more Gifts shopping [VAND Still being Santa Clause for her Friends and her Sis and me being for myself].
My Purchases for the Day
This flavour was just AWESOME [Cheesecake Flavour]
Though disappointed with not being able to accomplish the whole thing, we were happy nonetheless at having pigged ourselves the whole day=
5th Trip = We went again on MONDAY, and thankfully, we got EVERYTHING DONE! Oh the feeling of Happiness of coming out of that Office and knowing that am now a full-fledged Singapore Citizen, was just totally mindblowing!
In between, we even managed to meet up with Mita after a Long time. Of all places, we met at the Airport cos that was the most convenient for us at that time.....
This deco was totally awesome... If am not wrong, it depicted 600-700 flights which pass through Singapore Changi Airport DAILY.
Gifts from VAND baby, who so nicely managed to get 2 HEART Shaped pebbles for us =D
WOW, with that, the whole Issue is done and accomplished. =D
I still remember the disappointment we faced on the first day we met to do it....
MEMORY LANE:
1st Trip = We went to the ICA and took the queue number and all and later, we are told that we need the renunciation letter. We tot of heading to HCI but that closes so much earlier than ICA [it closes @ 1130hrs-GOODNESS]. Hence, we went to Bendemeer where we slacked and whacked.....
2nd Trip = We went to HCI with the hopes that we brought enough things with us.... At that place, after ages of waiting without queue number, we are told that We need to fill up 3 forms, have 3 photos and we would need SGD $185 only, Cash only, no NETS. Since we aren't so rich to be caring so much, we had to leave and that was another disappointing day......
3rd Trip = We went to HCI with the Cash and everything, so for me, the submission was done. However, VAND baby forgot to bring her ICA letter.... However, mine was submitted. So after that, went to repair my phone, we slacked, whacked and later, we got involved in this donation scheme by this guy called Jeremy. I still rmb, we were happily exiting and he wanted us to write notes for the EARTH and later, made us seat and talked until we felt that we should really get into the Donation Scheme. Happily, we are accepted and we are still involved =D
4th Trip = Vand had to go down one day and submit her form. On this day, we both met up ahead to whack on our cravings. We meet up @ Novena, happily whacked, Vand became Santa Claus for her Friend and Sis and I was for myself =P
The Glorious Food which we whacked at SEOUL YUMMY, @ Novena.After that, we both went to collect our forms from HCI, and then we cabbed down to ICA, being happy that everything would be done and all.... When we reach there, They were already close for the day, though it wasn't even 1645hrs..... Though disappointed, we went to indulge in more Gifts shopping [VAND Still being Santa Clause for her Friends and her Sis and me being for myself].
My Purchases for the DayAfter shopping, feeling tired, we went to whack on a gorgeous delicacy = ICE CREAM. It was heavenly and sinful at the same time, but it was totally indulging.....
This flavour was just AWESOME [Cheesecake Flavour]
Though disappointed with not being able to accomplish the whole thing, we were happy nonetheless at having pigged ourselves the whole day=
5th Trip = We went again on MONDAY, and thankfully, we got EVERYTHING DONE! Oh the feeling of Happiness of coming out of that Office and knowing that am now a full-fledged Singapore Citizen, was just totally mindblowing!
In between, we even managed to meet up with Mita after a Long time. Of all places, we met at the Airport cos that was the most convenient for us at that time.....
This deco was totally awesome... If am not wrong, it depicted 600-700 flights which pass through Singapore Changi Airport DAILY.
Gifts from VAND baby, who so nicely managed to get 2 HEART Shaped pebbles for us =D
WOW, with that, the whole Issue is done and accomplished. =DMonday, March 21, 2011
Friends
There is this current moment which is just leading me to wonder what I should be doing and its just leaving me feeling helpless. Though the two of us are talking it out and deciding to talk it out, it still remains a fear to do so.... Maybe because of the distant feeling which we are feeling off her......
Nonetheless, though it is still an issue to tackle, it remains scary to do so... After all that I know and see, I understand that matters of the heart are difficult but in her case, she had a chance to move out due to family but still choosing to remain in it, though she is confused, I feel that I cant support her for this and this decision is just screwing up with my feelings=Should I be supporting and encouraging her or should I just oppose and go against her decision, which I am scared of it leading to the distance between us increasing.......
I guess the only thing to do is wait and let time do its job?
Waiting just makes the whole thing a whole lot worse...............
[CR: http://orkutluv.com/images/Friends%20%28346%29.jpg ]
Nonetheless, though it is still an issue to tackle, it remains scary to do so... After all that I know and see, I understand that matters of the heart are difficult but in her case, she had a chance to move out due to family but still choosing to remain in it, though she is confused, I feel that I cant support her for this and this decision is just screwing up with my feelings=Should I be supporting and encouraging her or should I just oppose and go against her decision, which I am scared of it leading to the distance between us increasing.......
I guess the only thing to do is wait and let time do its job?
Waiting just makes the whole thing a whole lot worse...............
[CR: http://orkutluv.com/images/Friends%20%28346%29.jpg ]
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Vand + Moi= IMAGINATION Galore
It was such a fun time chatting with Vand after such a long time. It felt so cool that we were just slacking around and chatting.... The whole thing started with the Wild CRAVINGs that we always have whenever we chat online.... It proceeded onto the topic of "If only I had a Car" and how cool me having a car would rock....how it would be so fun that we could just drive over and meet up for meals/desserts and such and more... Whenever we talk about Food, our cravings would wildly vary from something to something else, it started with desserts, went on to Yummy yummy delicious hot steaming Korean food and finally, it ended up with us looking for dessert place to go for our next meeting =D
The more interesting topic came about when we started talking about the Bean Bags.... Seriously speaking, the 3 of us are one of a kind. It was really funny the way we imagined ourselves slacking away in the bean bags and how either of us weren't be willing to get up to do anything=that is something that I am sure if put into the real life, would definitely happen.....
However, since it was only the two of us, we decided to look for our Michin Yeoja, who is always going MIA. Though her scope of work is understandable, but still, her gg MIA is kinda painful and till now, no reply..........
The more interesting topic came about when we started talking about the Bean Bags.... Seriously speaking, the 3 of us are one of a kind. It was really funny the way we imagined ourselves slacking away in the bean bags and how either of us weren't be willing to get up to do anything=that is something that I am sure if put into the real life, would definitely happen.....
However, since it was only the two of us, we decided to look for our Michin Yeoja, who is always going MIA. Though her scope of work is understandable, but still, her gg MIA is kinda painful and till now, no reply..........
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Humans
Coming across the below picture made me realize that an Iceberg is something to which we can relate many theories to. Its used to teach about attitude and more. However, the below picture is totally an ideal about a Person as a Whole.
To me, the below picture is broken as per follows:Everyone has ego in themselves which is hidden within them, not shown to others, based on that, they have created an identity for themselves. However, what is utmost noted by others is their "superego"-in a manner, their outlook. We always judge a person by their first impression, from their looks and that is that creates everyone as a whole.
Everytime I hear someone say,"how can you not know that She/He is like that?", it makes me wonder if there is ever a way to know someone as a whole.
Do I myself even know myself Fully??
Thinking back, I realize that throughout my life, there are moments which have exposed me to myself, parts of me which I did not know I have. Thinking back to Secondary school, I think that was the moment whereby I was at my lowest. Recalling back all that I did, it was a time whereby I was very weak. There are still scars that remind of those moments. However, all in all, I am happy that I wasn't weak enough to succumb to my thinking. It was also at this point whereby I saw a tad bit into myself of Possessiveness and Jealousy with the whole episode with Amrita.
In Poly, it was a time of Pure Jealousy..... I know that I am a easily jealous and possessive [to a limit] person, but all that I did during the whole period then, scared even me. I guess the whole period scared me so much until I found myself wanting to be alone, being ashamed of myself for even thinking that way but all in all, it was a time I totally recognized myself. I wont say that I am ashamed of myself of that period anymore, because that is me, that is also something that makes me as a person on a whole. Moreover, I did what I did then because I did not know how to express myself = totally hilarious now thinking about it...... Its funny how some instances become hilarious memories later on in LIFE =D
This also brings me to think that I have had some sorta negative experience at least once with all of the Ladies in my life, I guess that is what makes the whole Relationship more memorable.
Image CR=http://library.thinkquest.org/C004361/theoryfreud.html
To me, the below picture is broken as per follows:Everyone has ego in themselves which is hidden within them, not shown to others, based on that, they have created an identity for themselves. However, what is utmost noted by others is their "superego"-in a manner, their outlook. We always judge a person by their first impression, from their looks and that is that creates everyone as a whole.
Everytime I hear someone say,"how can you not know that She/He is like that?", it makes me wonder if there is ever a way to know someone as a whole.
Do I myself even know myself Fully??
Thinking back, I realize that throughout my life, there are moments which have exposed me to myself, parts of me which I did not know I have. Thinking back to Secondary school, I think that was the moment whereby I was at my lowest. Recalling back all that I did, it was a time whereby I was very weak. There are still scars that remind of those moments. However, all in all, I am happy that I wasn't weak enough to succumb to my thinking. It was also at this point whereby I saw a tad bit into myself of Possessiveness and Jealousy with the whole episode with Amrita.
In Poly, it was a time of Pure Jealousy..... I know that I am a easily jealous and possessive [to a limit] person, but all that I did during the whole period then, scared even me. I guess the whole period scared me so much until I found myself wanting to be alone, being ashamed of myself for even thinking that way but all in all, it was a time I totally recognized myself. I wont say that I am ashamed of myself of that period anymore, because that is me, that is also something that makes me as a person on a whole. Moreover, I did what I did then because I did not know how to express myself = totally hilarious now thinking about it...... Its funny how some instances become hilarious memories later on in LIFE =D
This also brings me to think that I have had some sorta negative experience at least once with all of the Ladies in my life, I guess that is what makes the whole Relationship more memorable.
Image CR=http://library.thinkquest.org/C004361/theoryfreud.html
Monday, March 14, 2011
Unpredictable
With the Japan Quake+Tsunami, it just reinforces the unpredictability of LIFE. Its totally scary and devastating, however, the glimmer of light in this dark situation is that it brings people together, as everyone comes together to pray for those affected as well as Countries send down their rescue teams to assist the affected nation.As for the rest of us, what we can do is to PRAY.
No matter to Whom,
Pray for those in need of a glimmering light in times of darkness.
Pray for those stranded to be able to find the path back home.
Pray for those facing uncertainty to be blessed with assurance.
Pray for them to find strength in this time of need.
You fall down, Only to be given the CHANCE to Get Up Again, Move Forward and Do Better to Prove Your Worth to Yourself along with Others.
Friday, March 11, 2011
BEAN BAGs-Reminder to Me
This is something I have always wanted as far as I could remember....
The desire grows stronger when I come across images with bean bags and I would really want to go online to search for where to buy from. However, later I would just cleanly forget about it.
Today, early in the morning I came across the image and saw where to buy from but in the end, the pricing just killed me.
I guess its gonna be a long time of saving before I can get one. But when I do, its so gonna be worth it =D
I realised that I love to save to buy something.
1st thing, it takes me a long time to save, so the item becomes meaningful.
2ndly, in the duration of saving, I can see for myself if I really want that item or not. Usually, I would want it but if I spent that money elsewhere, the item and me aren't meant to be :P
3rdly, I would have a wonderful memory associated with the item, which would basically include me thinking non-stop abt the item, saving to the max and in the end, going and withdrawing the money and buying it with a huge, stupid, non-stop grin on my face =D
The above totally applied for two of my babies = SONY MP3 & CANON CAMERA ;D
Though for the 1st one, I was in a mad rage to get it [I still cant believe my behaviour over getting that item-Seriously, I was MICHIN.... totally. I guess I have an addiction to my mp3 baby. I totally can't live without it! Thankfully to MYNAH-Now I have a backup incase, it dies when in transit =D
My mood over the days when my previous MP3 had given up on me was so bad that I was angry 24/7 and in the end, the anger was showered upon my bro and my cuz bro, who so sweetly went over and bought me the mp3, which I got without having to save but it still left a burn in the wallet ;l ].
However, more than anything, I am happy that I listened to my mom and patiently saved for the second baby. It gave me time to think if I really wanted it or not.... and in the end, I did want it and I got it..... Though the story involving the Camera and my dad is still funny, and it involves Mynah even till today :P
I guess this is one aspect of myself that I have grown to love :D
I realise that over time, I have stopped becoming someone who buys things on impulse ;) Instead, I am giving myself sometime to think over whether am I really into the thing or is it a just one-shot impulse thing.
Previously, I wanted to learn knitting and was really into it. However, the impulse died. I guess having someone with the same interest as you some-sort of inspires you to move ahead. More than anything, knitting is still something that I wanna learn and really hope to be able to do so one day :D
So all in all, Knitting as well as learning Korean and Sign Language are the 3 things I wanted and still want to do later in LIFE :)
So for the time that I am gonna be saving like an idiot, I am gonna share the links which would also serve as a form of reminder for me :l
Moreover, there are 2 links because I am unable to decide between the types @_@
Shop 1
Shop 2
This is another sweet link I came across. Though no one is in need of such items, no harm being prepared for the future =P
BABY SHOP
The desire grows stronger when I come across images with bean bags and I would really want to go online to search for where to buy from. However, later I would just cleanly forget about it.
Today, early in the morning I came across the image and saw where to buy from but in the end, the pricing just killed me.
I guess its gonna be a long time of saving before I can get one. But when I do, its so gonna be worth it =D
I realised that I love to save to buy something.
1st thing, it takes me a long time to save, so the item becomes meaningful.
2ndly, in the duration of saving, I can see for myself if I really want that item or not. Usually, I would want it but if I spent that money elsewhere, the item and me aren't meant to be :P
3rdly, I would have a wonderful memory associated with the item, which would basically include me thinking non-stop abt the item, saving to the max and in the end, going and withdrawing the money and buying it with a huge, stupid, non-stop grin on my face =D
The above totally applied for two of my babies = SONY MP3 & CANON CAMERA ;D
Though for the 1st one, I was in a mad rage to get it [I still cant believe my behaviour over getting that item-Seriously, I was MICHIN.... totally. I guess I have an addiction to my mp3 baby. I totally can't live without it! Thankfully to MYNAH-Now I have a backup incase, it dies when in transit =D
My mood over the days when my previous MP3 had given up on me was so bad that I was angry 24/7 and in the end, the anger was showered upon my bro and my cuz bro, who so sweetly went over and bought me the mp3, which I got without having to save but it still left a burn in the wallet ;l ].
However, more than anything, I am happy that I listened to my mom and patiently saved for the second baby. It gave me time to think if I really wanted it or not.... and in the end, I did want it and I got it..... Though the story involving the Camera and my dad is still funny, and it involves Mynah even till today :P
I guess this is one aspect of myself that I have grown to love :D
I realise that over time, I have stopped becoming someone who buys things on impulse ;) Instead, I am giving myself sometime to think over whether am I really into the thing or is it a just one-shot impulse thing.
Previously, I wanted to learn knitting and was really into it. However, the impulse died. I guess having someone with the same interest as you some-sort of inspires you to move ahead. More than anything, knitting is still something that I wanna learn and really hope to be able to do so one day :D
So all in all, Knitting as well as learning Korean and Sign Language are the 3 things I wanted and still want to do later in LIFE :)
So for the time that I am gonna be saving like an idiot, I am gonna share the links which would also serve as a form of reminder for me :l
Moreover, there are 2 links because I am unable to decide between the types @_@
Shop 1
Shop 2
This is another sweet link I came across. Though no one is in need of such items, no harm being prepared for the future =P
BABY SHOP
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Thoughts
SURPRISES!As much as they are fun and totally wonderful to receive, they are a heck of tremendously tiring part of planning for the planner..... This is being said with reference to planning for Birthday surprises.
[I had been meaning to blog abt this on V Baby's birthday last year. However, procrastination took over me and just left me and that is why I am now writing this damn Overdue post after almost a few months short of a year.... GOODNESS ME~]
Me and Mita had behaved totally crazily and planned crazily for that Loving day only to be to told by Vand that she expected, which in a way can't be blamed. However, the hilarious thing was that while we were at the Restaurant, DOME@DEMPSEY HILL, there had been 2 blackout and both the times, the 3 of us were only praying one thing="Please, please, please, please. I hope that the employees don't come out with the cake right now.", and thankfully for us, it was a real blackout both the times. Though it would have been dramatic, I think the 3 of us would have died of embarrassment. However, the extent of our preparation was so drastic until Mita had to go there ahead of us, find a place to hide [behind cars=the poor thing] and all in all, I would say it was a success though Vand expected it.......
[I had been meaning to blog abt this on V Baby's birthday last year. However, procrastination took over me and just left me and that is why I am now writing this damn Overdue post after almost a few months short of a year.... GOODNESS ME~]
Me and Mita had behaved totally crazily and planned crazily for that Loving day only to be to told by Vand that she expected, which in a way can't be blamed. However, the hilarious thing was that while we were at the Restaurant, DOME@DEMPSEY HILL, there had been 2 blackout and both the times, the 3 of us were only praying one thing="Please, please, please, please. I hope that the employees don't come out with the cake right now.", and thankfully for us, it was a real blackout both the times. Though it would have been dramatic, I think the 3 of us would have died of embarrassment. However, the extent of our preparation was so drastic until Mita had to go there ahead of us, find a place to hide [behind cars=the poor thing] and all in all, I would say it was a success though Vand expected it.......
Nonetheless, even if I were to complain nonstop about how it is taxing, tiring and irritating.... I am sure everyone would agree about the feeling of the receiver. Being the one who is receiving the surprise, especially @ a very non-expected time definitely brings about a glow in our heart and face and bring a HUGE smile on our faces. In the end, whether a successful or unsuccessful surprise, they definitely remain as MEMORIES that are always there in us.
Examples:
The 18th B'Day I celebrated in Poly where a bunch of friends pretended to be busy but surprised me in the end at the Meeting place.For my 19th B'Day, My 2 babies collaborating with my brother to make me go out of the house as they came over to my house. Till day, Vand would still say that I spoiled the surprise by opening the door~However, they were in my room, of course I would open na: But it was one hack of a surprise:D
Shitz, for my 20th, The only thing I remember is that My dear Ones were away... Nisa @ Turkey, Mita @ India.... OK Talking abt India, I recalled it= The FOUR SEASONS from INDIA. Goodness, that was a total embarassment! Haha... Gosh21st was sweet with a tinge of sourness which still lingers..... Celebrated a small one @ Home with Sonu coming over ;D However, the celebration my Mom wanted to hold, got pushed and pushed until it was totally eliminated, I find it funny that she still mentions it. My 2 Babies made it a totally memorable 21st~with Us Celebrating @ the streets which Have to say was totally remarkable....
SUPRISES totally are one part of life which are totally fantastically mind-blowing =D
However, more than anything, The below ladies are one who fill colours in my LIFE:
Thank You Babes for all that you have done for me. I know I am the type of person who is shy and unable to express out my thankfulness but more than anything, I love you and am thankful for having you in my Life. The completion of my Life is because of all of you below =D
~Saranghae AGI (s)~
I Love it how I began writing about surprises and ended up writing about my dear girls who have come into my life as a form of surprise showered upon me by GOD, to whom I am thankful for, for their entrance in my LIFE =D
More than anything, I am thankful to these ladies for coming into my Life and Staying despite all the Mood swings and shitz I have done and all.
~THANK YOU~
I Love it how I began writing about surprises and ended up writing about my dear girls who have come into my life as a form of surprise showered upon me by GOD, to whom I am thankful for, for their entrance in my LIFE =D
More than anything, I am thankful to these ladies for coming into my Life and Staying despite all the Mood swings and shitz I have done and all.
~THANK YOU~
CONFUSED
No matter how often I post about this, I cant get rid of this Confusion. All in all, I am so damn totally confused more than I was before, If I were standing @ a crossroad earlier, now I have so damn totally lost sight of even the crossroads...... Can it get worse than this?!?I think am gonna try to word out my thoughts....
At times,it feels as if everything is just going so totally against U,@ these moments, the only way to pull through is to close your heart n Pray :D
It hurts the most when the 1s closest to you just move on and U get left behind with nothing but the images of their back, which also diminishes from sight gradually....
The pain is one that stays and in the end, scars U.
However, what we don't realize at this point is that there are hands at our backs which are pushing us to hold us up.
This is what we are unappreciative of= We look ahead but aren't grateful for our friends who stay behind us and hold is in support to prevent us from falling and having to feel more pain. These pair of hands push us up instilling in us hopes, motivation and determination to get back up.
To these pairs of hands who have supported and are supporting me, I THANK YOU with all My Heart!
LOVE YOU AGI(s) =D <3
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
LIFE
The word Life can be broken down as per below:
Live it up to the max because
In an instant, unexpected things can happen which we do not know about as
Fog surrounds the future which only clears when its expected to and all in all,
Everything would come to an END one day.
Wow I cant believe that I totally described my state of mind with the above phrase :D
Seriously, LIFE is so damn totally SCARY to me at this moment. It feels as if I am standing at this crossroad and I am unable to see the roads in front of me at all.....Moreover, out of fear, I am not risking taking any steps from where I am standing!!! AAARRGGHHH~this is really damn scary right now~....
I know that I have been constantly grumbling to my friends all that I have wrote above.... But truthfully, I DUNNO WAD TO DO!
Moreover, above all this confusion lies another headache.
Can someone please just tell me what is listed in the near future for me..... I AM BLUR!!
Live it up to the max because
In an instant, unexpected things can happen which we do not know about as
Fog surrounds the future which only clears when its expected to and all in all,
Everything would come to an END one day.
Wow I cant believe that I totally described my state of mind with the above phrase :D
Seriously, LIFE is so damn totally SCARY to me at this moment. It feels as if I am standing at this crossroad and I am unable to see the roads in front of me at all.....Moreover, out of fear, I am not risking taking any steps from where I am standing!!! AAARRGGHHH~this is really damn scary right now~....
I know that I have been constantly grumbling to my friends all that I have wrote above.... But truthfully, I DUNNO WAD TO DO!
Moreover, above all this confusion lies another headache.
Can someone please just tell me what is listed in the near future for me..... I AM BLUR!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Fogged up....
The meaning of the title is basically that my mind is in a FOGGY State... Frankly speaking, I have no clue as to what the future has in store for me .... and this thing is making me AAARRRGGGHHHH.......
I am blurred out over this........
What to Do........
I am blurred out over this........
What to Do........
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
We Are Family
This movie was a damn bad TAERJERKER.... Gosh. I seriously had no idea that I was that weak to start tearing up so badly over a film.
I totally started tearing only 30mins into the movie... Unfortunately I wasnt able to stay n finish it as much as I wanted to... But still, the movie was AWESOME + HEARTBREAKING.
There were the below few awesome factors about it:
1= Having Arjun Rampal as a Husband, or rather Ex-Husband-As Shreya said, is just such a cool thing to imagine and drool... M sure even if no 1, Vand wud agree with me over this.....
2=Kajols, Maya, Character was just heartbreaking and the whole time, one could feel the pain and sadness all through her portrayal.
3=The kids acting was totally awesome... One could understand the reason for the eldest rebellion, the only guy was so cute, esp their Father Son moments and the youngest one is totally adorable.
4=The whole time whereby Maya and Shreya are over the kids and naturally, there is competition but the parts whereby the kids are more into Shreya and Maya is left with a sad face, just made me feel to go in and give her a hug.... Arrgghhh The whole thing is sweet n painful at the same time.
Have to say that after so long did I watch such a painful movie...........
The below song just is totally the cherry on the cake! Totally beautiful and painful....
It just sums the whole movie and makes you cry non-stop!
Frankly, I hated Shreya.... Maybe the reason was that I dont know the reason for Aman and Mayas separation... but in this clip, all that she does is so damn sweet. With the whole pictures and the kids and the hubby.... was so sweet.... But the sequence leading to this moment was the best, the youngest kid goes up and tells her mom that she wud grant her 3 wishes....
The whole element of motherhood,how Maya single-handedly handles her 3 kids after being separated, being a mother along with a careerwoman-how Shreya has to struggle to learn abt motherhood while having to juggle her career which is depicted by her having allnighters and making mistakes at work, having the need to be dependent in sad times-how Maya needed Aman when she finds out her illness-however, I feel that this point is because of her love for her kids, she needs him because she doesnt want her kids to be left alone....... I just feel that this movie portrays these elements of WOMAN so beautifully...
I totally started tearing only 30mins into the movie... Unfortunately I wasnt able to stay n finish it as much as I wanted to... But still, the movie was AWESOME + HEARTBREAKING.
There were the below few awesome factors about it:
1= Having Arjun Rampal as a Husband, or rather Ex-Husband-As Shreya said, is just such a cool thing to imagine and drool... M sure even if no 1, Vand wud agree with me over this.....
2=Kajols, Maya, Character was just heartbreaking and the whole time, one could feel the pain and sadness all through her portrayal.
3=The kids acting was totally awesome... One could understand the reason for the eldest rebellion, the only guy was so cute, esp their Father Son moments and the youngest one is totally adorable.
4=The whole time whereby Maya and Shreya are over the kids and naturally, there is competition but the parts whereby the kids are more into Shreya and Maya is left with a sad face, just made me feel to go in and give her a hug.... Arrgghhh The whole thing is sweet n painful at the same time.
Have to say that after so long did I watch such a painful movie...........
The below song just is totally the cherry on the cake! Totally beautiful and painful....
It just sums the whole movie and makes you cry non-stop!
Frankly, I hated Shreya.... Maybe the reason was that I dont know the reason for Aman and Mayas separation... but in this clip, all that she does is so damn sweet. With the whole pictures and the kids and the hubby.... was so sweet.... But the sequence leading to this moment was the best, the youngest kid goes up and tells her mom that she wud grant her 3 wishes....
The whole element of motherhood,how Maya single-handedly handles her 3 kids after being separated, being a mother along with a careerwoman-how Shreya has to struggle to learn abt motherhood while having to juggle her career which is depicted by her having allnighters and making mistakes at work, having the need to be dependent in sad times-how Maya needed Aman when she finds out her illness-however, I feel that this point is because of her love for her kids, she needs him because she doesnt want her kids to be left alone....... I just feel that this movie portrays these elements of WOMAN so beautifully...
Monday, January 24, 2011
K-POP Addiction
All thanks to my dearest Baby-VANDANA, I am totally addicted to Korean Songs now. I am totally addicted.
Gosh I seriously cant accept this fact as of now......
I still remember that early / mid last year, we had gone to Hougang to met up with our dear Pagal and we went NTUC for shopping. There, our dear Baby had wanted to get the 'TEEN" magazine because it featured the Korean Group, 'SHINee' that she liked. She was so cute the way she was talking about the group as we were seated at Hougang Interchange. Frankly speaking, though she showed their photos, the 5 guys all looked the same to me, at that time, and now, I cant believe that I myself am totally into the songs of the group...... The way the addiction started-I was listening to 96.3FM and after the Hindi slot finished, the Korean slot started with one of the groups songs, which I got addicted to [LUCIFER]. At a later date, when I wanted to Listen to Baby's iPod out of curiosity, she had that Song and with that, the whole ADDICTION story started......
But seriously, I am totally going NUTs for the GROUP, they are all so young [89,90,91&93] but they are so GOOOD! The youngest [Magnae TAEMIN] is so AWESOME at DANCING-its just totally spell bounding, the Oldest [Leader ONEW] is a Funny Machine, always doing things that make people Laugh=Falling, Tripping, Slipping......, The Lead Singer [Bling Bling JONG HYUN] has a totally POWERFUL voice and the two 91er's....... are FANTASTIC in their respective FASHION [Almighty KEY] + COMPETITIVE [Flaming C. MINHO] sense........
FUNNY...... The way LIFE Works.....
Thanks VANDANA!
Gosh I seriously cant accept this fact as of now......
I still remember that early / mid last year, we had gone to Hougang to met up with our dear Pagal and we went NTUC for shopping. There, our dear Baby had wanted to get the 'TEEN" magazine because it featured the Korean Group, 'SHINee' that she liked. She was so cute the way she was talking about the group as we were seated at Hougang Interchange. Frankly speaking, though she showed their photos, the 5 guys all looked the same to me, at that time, and now, I cant believe that I myself am totally into the songs of the group...... The way the addiction started-I was listening to 96.3FM and after the Hindi slot finished, the Korean slot started with one of the groups songs, which I got addicted to [LUCIFER]. At a later date, when I wanted to Listen to Baby's iPod out of curiosity, she had that Song and with that, the whole ADDICTION story started......
But seriously, I am totally going NUTs for the GROUP, they are all so young [89,90,91&93] but they are so GOOOD! The youngest [Magnae TAEMIN] is so AWESOME at DANCING-its just totally spell bounding, the Oldest [Leader ONEW] is a Funny Machine, always doing things that make people Laugh=Falling, Tripping, Slipping......, The Lead Singer [Bling Bling JONG HYUN] has a totally POWERFUL voice and the two 91er's....... are FANTASTIC in their respective FASHION [Almighty KEY] + COMPETITIVE [Flaming C. MINHO] sense........
FUNNY...... The way LIFE Works.....
Thanks VANDANA!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
2010
Ok though I had said that I would be updating more often, my laziness got in the way and I did not update at all...... Haiz.
Nonetheless, as a way of ending off 2010, I posted some pictures below, basically of my 21st Bday celebration.... Though it used to be a big Wow Wow thing, I didnt really feel anything that special upon turning '21'.
And after my bday, I finally for the chance to rent a CAR..... I finally drove, 1 Year after attaining my License. However, It was AUTO, and it was such a breeze to drive though..... and now I am scared of driving AUTO.
And for the ending, my two babies celebrated my Bday with me, in Orchard.... I cant believe we were just sitting outside Takashimaya and cutting Cake... It was definitely one of an unforgettable experience.... I also got to meet with my Biatch after a terribly Long Time......
I just LOVE my two babies to the max.... Seriously Love them to the Max..... There is always such a thankful feeling I feel whenever I get their morning messages.....
With that, 2010 chapter is closed.... Seriously cant believe that the years always pass by so fast......
2010 was truly a 1-of-a-Kind year...... the reason I say this-It has totally left me uncertain of my future.... I cant imagine/see what I am doing in the future anymore. Right now, I just feel and pray that 2011 would clear up the misty/foggy path of the future for me......
Nonetheless, as a way of ending off 2010, I posted some pictures below, basically of my 21st Bday celebration.... Though it used to be a big Wow Wow thing, I didnt really feel anything that special upon turning '21'.
And after my bday, I finally for the chance to rent a CAR..... I finally drove, 1 Year after attaining my License. However, It was AUTO, and it was such a breeze to drive though..... and now I am scared of driving AUTO.
And for the ending, my two babies celebrated my Bday with me, in Orchard.... I cant believe we were just sitting outside Takashimaya and cutting Cake... It was definitely one of an unforgettable experience.... I also got to meet with my Biatch after a terribly Long Time......
I just LOVE my two babies to the max.... Seriously Love them to the Max..... There is always such a thankful feeling I feel whenever I get their morning messages.....
With that, 2010 chapter is closed.... Seriously cant believe that the years always pass by so fast......2010 was truly a 1-of-a-Kind year...... the reason I say this-It has totally left me uncertain of my future.... I cant imagine/see what I am doing in the future anymore. Right now, I just feel and pray that 2011 would clear up the misty/foggy path of the future for me......
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