Monday, April 11, 2011

Love tis Song



I totally love this song= it's lyrics are damn damn touching.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Thoughts

There are numerous thoughts running through my mind. Seriously, numerous things are running through but when it comes to writing them down here, I am unable to do so.... I don't even know where to start from... I badly need someone to just listen to me rant out.... However, though Jagiya had listened to me and it felt nice talking out to her, I am unable to get these feelings out... I think that the best way is to talk to them but I know that in the end, with the way things are going for them, I don't think that there would be any point.....

It's depressing to think that way but I know that there is no point. Even if I were to talk it out with them, in the end, no outcome will come out of it. -_- There's just this heavy feeling....

Moreover, to top that up, I have heard nothing about my application and I am getting news of them going for interview for the same thing. In this way, half of me is gearing up for rejection and that feeling itself is painful. I am just feeling scared once again... I don't get why every time I give my best shot, I get back nothing in return. Why can't my own Life move the way I want it to head towards.... Why do all my efforts result to zilch? It's just exasperating, really very exasperating....

At times, it just feels that my own life isn't even my own in a way. This itself feels tiresome, I can't seem to steer the car in the direction I want it to head in, instead, being on Auto, it is totally being controlled by someone else.....

The only good thing out of all these is that I have started writing stories after a long time and I am happy that I restarted that habit because, that is one way for me to live out my thoughts...... I just wonder if it wasn't for that, what would happen......

Saturday, April 2, 2011



For my Jagiya =D

Friday, April 1, 2011

Children

CHILDREN

Out of the weirdest things to talk out, Me and Vand were busy talking about CHILDREN. Seriously, it was so weird for the two of us to be talking about this topic when the whole thing seems to be something of the distant future.

However, in one way, its nice to voice out as well the thoughts that we keep in us from watching the kids of the current generation.

Haha, it was funny how both of us had the same thought for one point:

=> We both want our kids to go and learn DANCING [Classical / Ballet].

As for the others, it is more of my thoughts,

1)Learn a musical instrument... I find myself funny when I told her how I want them to choose their instruments .... The method=I would lay out in front of them, cards with pictures and let the choose -_-'''

2)This point is for is they want, to learn Martials Arts... I find that this is another sport like Dance which totally flexes your body. Of course, the point that I am obsessed with this because of all the shows I have seen of Sungmin [of Super Junior] performing.

3)Thirdly, that is about Education. Haha, the most important education was what was talked about at last..... However, for this is that, we would not want the kids to be running around for enrichment classes... Hmm I think one point that I have learnt from conducting the enrichment classes at various CCs is that, what I teach them at the classes, are fun things which the kids should be learning with their family........

Names of Kids=We even talked about that ^.^
VAND: I can only remember her saying that she wants the Name 'DEV' for the guy.
As for ME: I could only think of 'TRISHA' for the girl.... It could be partially due to the reason that I am missing Trisha badly......

Ok, I really think its enough already... Enough of talking about this subjects.... Ok, enough... I think I can now ignore about this topic for a while.