Heartiest Diwali wishes to one and all!!!! May the glow of the diyas bring with themselves happines, peace and prosperity to you and your family! ENJOY!
Happy Diwali =D
Happy Diwali =D
Friday, November 5, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Upcoming Outings
Thanks to the last teacher we had, I realised that there are a lot of outings as per below to go on:
- Now till 7th Nov= ILights @ Marina Bay Area
- 5th Nov= Istana Open House
- 7th Nov= Guard Changing Ceremony @ Istana
- 11th Nov= WWII Memorial Service
- 20th Nov= Sunidhi Chauhan Memorial Service
Monday, October 18, 2010
Tots till Date
I know that I have been totally MIA for very long.... I dont know if it is laziness or what but despite wanting to, I cant bring myself to sign in and blog......
Hmmm: recently, Life has been rather interesting.
1) Ever since I have been in this industry, my interaction with him has totally increased. As compared to previously, we have been talking to each other so often and he constantly narrates his experience stories. This set me thinking that if I werent in this line, who would he be talking all those stories to???
2) I have been told really interesting words by ppl:
-You look so cute that I want to Eat You ;)
The other was told by my teacher which is really sweet but I feel so shy -_-
Life is totally heading towards an unknown direction....
Hmmm: recently, Life has been rather interesting.
1) Ever since I have been in this industry, my interaction with him has totally increased. As compared to previously, we have been talking to each other so often and he constantly narrates his experience stories. This set me thinking that if I werent in this line, who would he be talking all those stories to???
2) I have been told really interesting words by ppl:
-You look so cute that I want to Eat You ;)
The other was told by my teacher which is really sweet but I feel so shy -_-
Life is totally heading towards an unknown direction....
Monday, August 23, 2010
Construction in Progress....
I cant believe that I have ignored my blog for so many months. Goodness-so shameful :(
Nonetheless, Hopefully I would get back the habit of updating my blog weekly or occassinally. For the time being, I leave you with this family photo :D
Nonetheless, Hopefully I would get back the habit of updating my blog weekly or occassinally. For the time being, I leave you with this family photo :D
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
My life.....
These few days, the only thing running through my mind is-Is my life even mine or am I just a puppet that does what it is told to....???
1 moment-I am told to go stop doing RT and go for this interview and now, I am being told to stop this job and go to the next company>WTH is up with this?!?
My say and opinion to seem to matter even the bit..... What shit direction is my life headed in???
1 moment-I am told to go stop doing RT and go for this interview and now, I am being told to stop this job and go to the next company>WTH is up with this?!?
My say and opinion to seem to matter even the bit..... What shit direction is my life headed in???
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Relationships
I feel betrayed
Broken and bruised
A string that’s been frayed
Bended and abused
I feel all alone
Small and empty
No light being shone
Into the caverns of pity
When everything started
To seem right
The angel of happiness darted
Out of sight
And left me here
All alone in the dark
NO one of the dear
Just death: damp and stark
I want to just cry
But is it really worth it?
I might ask you why?
But I’m not gonna cry over this shit
And being alone in a cave full of depression
Makes you realize.
That life goes to show you
Trust someone, Love someone
Just know that they’re gonna hurt you too.
By Jennifer Whitton
Broken and bruised
A string that’s been frayed
Bended and abused
I feel all alone
Small and empty
No light being shone
Into the caverns of pity
When everything started
To seem right
The angel of happiness darted
Out of sight
And left me here
All alone in the dark
NO one of the dear
Just death: damp and stark
I want to just cry
But is it really worth it?
I might ask you why?
But I’m not gonna cry over this shit
And being alone in a cave full of depression
Makes you realize.
That life goes to show you
Trust someone, Love someone
Just know that they’re gonna hurt you too.
By Jennifer Whitton
The above poem totally describes the feeling being felt by me at this current moment. Seriously, it summaries the whole feeling that I am feeling right now. However, one thing is for sure is that I know that this whole thing is done with and completely over. Its OVER!
I know I have written or rather said all those shit before abt not wanting to care and such, but there was always a small tiny hope of things becoming better but now, it is completely being finished and all emotional attachments being cut, torn and thrown away.
THE ONES WHO ARE RELATED TO U, TURN OUT TO BE THE ONES WITH WHOM U R NOT MEANT TO BE IN RELATIONSHIP WITH. THE ONES WHO ARE TOTALLY NOT BLOOD RELATED WITH U, TURN OUT TO BE THE ONES WHO SHOWER U WITH THE LOVE AND CARE THAT IS SUPPOSE TO BE SHOWN TO U BY RELATED ONES. IN THE END-"KITNE DOOR,KITNE PASS"->THIS SENTENCE SEEMS TO BE SO DAMN TRUE......
Now, I find myself void of all the feelings, attachments that I had-be it for them or the niece and nephews.......Totally void of all sort of feelings...............
At this moment, I am totally missing my dearest niece , whom GOD graciously brought to me at a very crucial moment. I am missing TRISHA very badly.... Goodness-She came and went away like an ANGEL, who for a brief and short moment gave me lots of happiness that I deserve as a MAUSI. I can't wait to see that little angel again..... Hopefully its gonna be soon.......
I know I have written or rather said all those shit before abt not wanting to care and such, but there was always a small tiny hope of things becoming better but now, it is completely being finished and all emotional attachments being cut, torn and thrown away.
THE ONES WHO ARE RELATED TO U, TURN OUT TO BE THE ONES WITH WHOM U R NOT MEANT TO BE IN RELATIONSHIP WITH. THE ONES WHO ARE TOTALLY NOT BLOOD RELATED WITH U, TURN OUT TO BE THE ONES WHO SHOWER U WITH THE LOVE AND CARE THAT IS SUPPOSE TO BE SHOWN TO U BY RELATED ONES. IN THE END-"KITNE DOOR,KITNE PASS"->THIS SENTENCE SEEMS TO BE SO DAMN TRUE......
Now, I find myself void of all the feelings, attachments that I had-be it for them or the niece and nephews.......Totally void of all sort of feelings...............
At this moment, I am totally missing my dearest niece , whom GOD graciously brought to me at a very crucial moment. I am missing TRISHA very badly.... Goodness-She came and went away like an ANGEL, who for a brief and short moment gave me lots of happiness that I deserve as a MAUSI. I can't wait to see that little angel again..... Hopefully its gonna be soon.......
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
FT Job
WOW-My dad got me a FT job. Frankly speaking, upon hearing this news upon just entering the house, my heart just hit the bottom. I can still remember the feeling I was feeling throughout the whole time from when I heard the news and till I reached the place for the interview. I guess it was just the disinterest that I had for the job being offered as I am more or less interested in Teaching jobs .... My poor poor Vandana baby patiently listened to my non-stop irritating whining and the cute cute things she said to give me moral support was so cute and very much appreciated. On the other hand, what Mynah said also made sense and seriously-I was in total turmoil.
However, I gave it a try and got the job and I guess its just interesting to try a new thing apart from what am always doing. However, I guess the happiest thing about this is that now I would be able to meet all my dearest friends for DINNER SESSION!!!! I am damn excited about this fact and also about starting a new job. All in all, as I was talking out things with her, I just had a terribly strong and positive feeling when I told her that I have a feeling I am gonna totally end up working for my Daddy.
In a way, he is someone I totally am starting to see in a new light as I am now able to see that though he does things at the 11th hour, he still does go for what he wants and ensures that in one way or another, he achieves it. I just have prayers and hopes that I seriously and happily can support him alongside happily with GOD showering his blessings on all the conquest that we set out to tackle.
I am so so so so so so anxious and curious to know what Life has in store for me......
However, I gave it a try and got the job and I guess its just interesting to try a new thing apart from what am always doing. However, I guess the happiest thing about this is that now I would be able to meet all my dearest friends for DINNER SESSION!!!! I am damn excited about this fact and also about starting a new job. All in all, as I was talking out things with her, I just had a terribly strong and positive feeling when I told her that I have a feeling I am gonna totally end up working for my Daddy.
In a way, he is someone I totally am starting to see in a new light as I am now able to see that though he does things at the 11th hour, he still does go for what he wants and ensures that in one way or another, he achieves it. I just have prayers and hopes that I seriously and happily can support him alongside happily with GOD showering his blessings on all the conquest that we set out to tackle.
I am so so so so so so anxious and curious to know what Life has in store for me......
Friday, April 2, 2010
Meeting Up
Goodness...lately I realised that it is some sort of difficult to meet up frens and loved ones [I dont think I have anyone under tis category]. I realised that its really kind of hard to get everyone to meet at one spot as there is surely something that would come up......... Nonetheless, the feeling that one feels after meeting a dear fren after a long long time is juz damn wonderous-the tight and long hug that u give each other and the feeling u feel.....
Nonetheless, there is still a need to maintain contact in one way or another be it just a little message saying Morning-the feeling of just keeping in touch is better than not being in touch and not knowing what is happening with them-it really hurts to remember that u do not know what is happening with them.....
Nonetheless, there is still a need to maintain contact in one way or another be it just a little message saying Morning-the feeling of just keeping in touch is better than not being in touch and not knowing what is happening with them-it really hurts to remember that u do not know what is happening with them.....
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Latest Baby
THIS IS MY LATEST BABY!!! WOOHOOO! I TOTALY LOVED THE FEELING WHEN I GAVE THE CASH AND RECEIVED THIS NEW TOY OF MINE!!!Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Emptyness
Ok Finally I realise the reason for all the moodiness I have been feeling recently and all-The house is too empty....From the three bros-now Only Chotu is staying at home most of the time.....
GOODNESS-Frankly speaking, I had never imagined myself typing these words........THAT I AM MISSING MY BROTHERS.... but seriously the whole feeling is so damn different especially now that Sonu Bhaiya is "Happily" enjoying himself in India for the past 5 months or so and Anshu is hardly at home when He books out...
GOODNESS ME!!!
GOODNESS-Frankly speaking, I had never imagined myself typing these words........THAT I AM MISSING MY BROTHERS.... but seriously the whole feeling is so damn different especially now that Sonu Bhaiya is "Happily" enjoying himself in India for the past 5 months or so and Anshu is hardly at home when He books out...
GOODNESS ME!!!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Children
Kids nowadays-They are totally Angels but also PURE Devils at times=I am sure I have said these words more than a dozen time but yesterday, the interaction that I had with my students just left me speechless and the only thing I thought to myself was=If only I had a camera with me, I would snap this moment and showcase it->It was seriously a moment that left me with a different impression of those lil ones.
After the YT class yesterday, JX and Sanjay went off on their lil adventure before CT started. Within a few minutes, they were running back to the centre and asked me if there was anything that they could use to pick up rubbish. As I followed them back to the scene-it was a totally disgusting thing to see=RUBBISH galore.....they were everywhere, all over the place=apparently, it looked like some ppl had a by the sea party and had left the place filled with mementos of their presence-Plastics, Drink Cans, McDonalds wrappings all over the place.
As it was time for CT to start, JX and Sanjay had to abandon their project for the time being. During class, JX was totally busy thinking of ways to come up with machine that can help ensure that the whole of Singapore is clean and another machine that helps to sort out the rubbish into different categories to ease Recycling activity=>It was a totally brilliant sight to see.
After class, the two masters gathered up the rest of the students,Elysa, Shanna, Kira, Joey, and brought them to the area although it was raining! When I joined them, they were busy surveying the area to come up with a way whereby they can quickly clean the place up and sort them into respective groups. These kids were getting drenched in the rain just to think of ways to clean up the place. When I asked them to go inside and come back later as there was a lot of mess to clean up-Elysa said=Why cant these adults clean up aft themselves? How are we going to survive in a place like tis? I was juz left dumbstruck!
Seriously-the look of the place was very disturbing and yet, these 7 children ,Elysa`s lil sis had also join them, were willing to get wet in the rain and use their bare hands to clean up the place which had been left a mess by some irresponsible adults!?! At tat moment, these kids totally won my respect!
BTW-JX is oni a P2 student, Sanjay is an Autistic 10 yr old child, Elysas sis is P1, Elysa and Joey are P4 whereas Shanna and Kira are the oldest being in P5,11 yrs old. Comparing their age and attitude to the culprits=Apparently, the situation seems to tell that these kids despite being so young, are very much mature in their way of thinking!
After the YT class yesterday, JX and Sanjay went off on their lil adventure before CT started. Within a few minutes, they were running back to the centre and asked me if there was anything that they could use to pick up rubbish. As I followed them back to the scene-it was a totally disgusting thing to see=RUBBISH galore.....they were everywhere, all over the place=apparently, it looked like some ppl had a by the sea party and had left the place filled with mementos of their presence-Plastics, Drink Cans, McDonalds wrappings all over the place.
As it was time for CT to start, JX and Sanjay had to abandon their project for the time being. During class, JX was totally busy thinking of ways to come up with machine that can help ensure that the whole of Singapore is clean and another machine that helps to sort out the rubbish into different categories to ease Recycling activity=>It was a totally brilliant sight to see.
After class, the two masters gathered up the rest of the students,Elysa, Shanna, Kira, Joey, and brought them to the area although it was raining! When I joined them, they were busy surveying the area to come up with a way whereby they can quickly clean the place up and sort them into respective groups. These kids were getting drenched in the rain just to think of ways to clean up the place. When I asked them to go inside and come back later as there was a lot of mess to clean up-Elysa said=Why cant these adults clean up aft themselves? How are we going to survive in a place like tis? I was juz left dumbstruck!
Seriously-the look of the place was very disturbing and yet, these 7 children ,Elysa`s lil sis had also join them, were willing to get wet in the rain and use their bare hands to clean up the place which had been left a mess by some irresponsible adults!?! At tat moment, these kids totally won my respect!
BTW-JX is oni a P2 student, Sanjay is an Autistic 10 yr old child, Elysas sis is P1, Elysa and Joey are P4 whereas Shanna and Kira are the oldest being in P5,11 yrs old. Comparing their age and attitude to the culprits=Apparently, the situation seems to tell that these kids despite being so young, are very much mature in their way of thinking!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Oohhhhh Siblings.....
SIBLINGS!
Sometimes, they can just get onto ur nerves and climb all the way over your head!
Sometimes, they can just get onto ur nerves and climb all the way over your head!
As I was smsing my babe today, I realised that I am continuously complaining to her about my bros. Earlier on, it was the elder one and now it is about the younger one...... but seriously speaking, this younger one is getting way out of line.
For a person his age, he is really irritating......GOODNESS!
Monday, March 8, 2010
Reaching out
This weekend which has juz passed has been a totally awful one. I found myself being in a situation whereby I wanna reach out and give them a hug but am unable to due to the locations.....
Disappointment is something tat can really hit one hard and is always damn painful when it happens to us. Frankly speaking, I was very excited to know abt A's results but when I juz randomly msged her n got tat response from her, I was juz speechless. In one way, what she has to go through is worse than me because for me is juz waiting but for her is waiting plus repeating the whole process again which is nerve-wrecking, stressful and all...... so its gonna be a much more emotionally draining journey for her........
When I saw those words from her, I really din noe wad to do or wad to say. Lack of experience or rather not knowin anything abt tis whole thing is one major factor which renders me totally helpless and useless when she is in need .... the only thing tat can be done is to listen but wad else can I do? I know tat I wanna help to make her betta but if she does feel happy to juz tell me abt it, I am really glad tat atleast I can juz listen to her....
With all these things happening to the ones I love, I am seriously hoping to hear some kind of good news today-Please V=tell me a good news!
Disappointment is something tat can really hit one hard and is always damn painful when it happens to us. Frankly speaking, I was very excited to know abt A's results but when I juz randomly msged her n got tat response from her, I was juz speechless. In one way, what she has to go through is worse than me because for me is juz waiting but for her is waiting plus repeating the whole process again which is nerve-wrecking, stressful and all...... so its gonna be a much more emotionally draining journey for her........
When I saw those words from her, I really din noe wad to do or wad to say. Lack of experience or rather not knowin anything abt tis whole thing is one major factor which renders me totally helpless and useless when she is in need .... the only thing tat can be done is to listen but wad else can I do? I know tat I wanna help to make her betta but if she does feel happy to juz tell me abt it, I am really glad tat atleast I can juz listen to her....
With all these things happening to the ones I love, I am seriously hoping to hear some kind of good news today-Please V=tell me a good news!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
WANTS or is it NEEDS?
I find myself craving/demanding for these 3 things:-
This is the first thing tat I really need damn badly. Reason being->When opp for picture taking arise, I find myself calling for my bro to take the pics=his phone cam is betta so since now he is using a non-camera phone, its totally difficult getting a decent pic wif my phone. I oso wan a camera to be able to take pics of the henna designs tat I do on Mom so tat I can start building up my collections.
This is the second thing I need-a new bed wif mattress.....My mattress is a gone case thanks to my bed frame which has spoiled the whole shape of it and the result of all this is tat I now have a major backache which hurts everyday n I feel totally like shit n like an old lady.....
A bag! This is something I can never get tired of and something which my mom is always after my neck for. I am till date, craving for a bag which can totally accomodate all the nonsense stuffs tat I carry around and something tat I can juz pick up n leave without having to ponder if it suits the outfit. For now, I have three choices but from the 3, oni Crumpler seems to be the one left..... Should I?!????
With all said n listed down, I wonder to myself do I really need all these things as in REALLY NEED them????
This is the first thing tat I really need damn badly. Reason being->When opp for picture taking arise, I find myself calling for my bro to take the pics=his phone cam is betta so since now he is using a non-camera phone, its totally difficult getting a decent pic wif my phone. I oso wan a camera to be able to take pics of the henna designs tat I do on Mom so tat I can start building up my collections.
This is the second thing I need-a new bed wif mattress.....My mattress is a gone case thanks to my bed frame which has spoiled the whole shape of it and the result of all this is tat I now have a major backache which hurts everyday n I feel totally like shit n like an old lady.....
A bag! This is something I can never get tired of and something which my mom is always after my neck for. I am till date, craving for a bag which can totally accomodate all the nonsense stuffs tat I carry around and something tat I can juz pick up n leave without having to ponder if it suits the outfit. For now, I have three choices but from the 3, oni Crumpler seems to be the one left..... Should I?!????
With all said n listed down, I wonder to myself do I really need all these things as in REALLY NEED them????
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Being Used
When I was juz sitting n chattin away wif Mita, I realised something. When she smsed me today wif tat request- it again made me realise the same thing. I hate the idea of being used and yet, I found myself turning to her oni at these kind of needs... I felt so bad-I seriously felt like shit and was disgusted at my own actions...... I guess I din look at it this way but when I told her and apologised to her, I felt so relieved=Seriously, just opening up and taking totally cleans the air and all becomes well again.....
I have no idea why but wheneva am walking down alone or jus somewhere whereby am by myself, I keep thinking of my prev. birthday and I get a very heavy lonely feeling.... The feeling intensifies when I look @ the MNG bag I got from my babes, which is currently sitting away in a corner waiting for the day whereby my mom juz bursts n it wud disappear...... Previous birthday was one whereby it was really very quiet and I myself din even get the feeling tat it was my birthday..... I dont know why I keep thinking back to that moment just like how previously I was thinking abt the moment whereby mom n I came back from India..... Both these situations give a very depressing feeling of being alone, of not seeing something whereby u had expected to see......... I donno why
I have no idea why but wheneva am walking down alone or jus somewhere whereby am by myself, I keep thinking of my prev. birthday and I get a very heavy lonely feeling.... The feeling intensifies when I look @ the MNG bag I got from my babes, which is currently sitting away in a corner waiting for the day whereby my mom juz bursts n it wud disappear...... Previous birthday was one whereby it was really very quiet and I myself din even get the feeling tat it was my birthday..... I dont know why I keep thinking back to that moment just like how previously I was thinking abt the moment whereby mom n I came back from India..... Both these situations give a very depressing feeling of being alone, of not seeing something whereby u had expected to see......... I donno why
Monday, February 15, 2010
Feeling down
Wheneva the topic comes up or whenever I see Indian family with babies in stroller.....I juz get into tat sad mode... Frankly speaking, its still a very sore wound that juz burns when the slightest thing brushes against it..... No matter how strong One pretends to be, the past is always there to come up and juz stab the person once again and weaken the resolve.....
SCREW TIS!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Moving On
Frankly speaking, it came as a terrible shock. However, upon being there with her today and hearing her talk about it, I realised that in a way, it was more or a less of a better option than if that incident hadn't happened. He was there at home with his children, and went without pain. This reminded me of when Baba had passed on-his oso was a sudden and painless journey but for him, he wasn't with his family and nor had he shown any form of moving on......to think that the simple dinner I saw him having after coming back homo from outing was to be the last time I would see him-The feeling of hearing the news the next day in school was damn terrible. However, I am thankful to the aunt, who sat and told us how lucky he was to move on without any form of suffering......
I guess more or less, this is a better option though it does comes as a shock.
I am happy that three of them are strong and are continuing to move on while having a goal of fulfilling his dreams. I am pray and hope that GOD would shower them with blessings and guide them on this path..... May they be Strong and move on with strength.
I guess more or less, this is a better option though it does comes as a shock.
I am happy that three of them are strong and are continuing to move on while having a goal of fulfilling his dreams. I am pray and hope that GOD would shower them with blessings and guide them on this path..... May they be Strong and move on with strength.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Singapore Airshow
Thanks to Starshea and Nisa, I got to go to the Airshow, make a new fren-Nasri and spend a totally blasting Saturday in the company of cool Friends!!!
We went to see the Airshow and it was very coool getting to see the planes close and directly in front of us but the aerial display show wasn't really that mindblowing fantastic as it was short and only a few fighter planes n helicopters... Yet, at the same time, seeing the stunts and everything, really have to salute the pilots for being so cool and capable of doing all the things....... The exhibition part oso was interesting and being indoor and air-conditioned, it was a huge and thankful relief after being baked like mad by the hot sun while watching the aerial display.....
I got to know abt the term "Doraemon Bag". Originally when I heard about it, I tot it was a bag with the Doraemon character on it, but when Nisa explained about it, I could do nothing but laugh at myself... Star is so cute with her Doraemon bag-all the things she had in it=Being totally prepared for the unexpected!
After that, we went off and whacked on food before going to T3 and trying out the Segway. Originally, I wasn't at all interested the least bit in gettin on that thing and trying out because I was damn afraid of falling flat on my face......Nonetheless, we went and while we were queueing and waiting, there were quite a few "accidents" which totally freaked me out. Frankly, I was totally getting the tot of running off after seeing the kids collide one aft another...... I did do it in the end and am now happpy that I did it because it was quite fun and crazy and totally hilarious..... Gettin on part was kinda scary but Star's laughter was really a very good distraction.... She was so cute as she kept going back and she was laughing so cutely....... All in all, it was fun "playing" wif the 3 of them!!
A very "interesting" phrase I heard in the movie U, Me Aur Hum :-There are 2 rules to keeping your Wife happy=
No. 1) Always fulfil all promises made to your Wife.
No. 2) Don't make any promises to your Wife!
Friday, February 5, 2010
Anshu gg for NS
Wow....Frankly speaking, the time is really passing by fast!!! Blink and its 2010, blink and its Feb already...... Well, just like that, the time for Anshu to go and train to serve his country arrived......As much as he had been preparing beforehand, the feeling really sunk in only when he started packing that=Oh Yea....He is gg off tom.......
This is a very suprising photo I must say so myself because being the type of person he is, this is considered to be very neat for his preparations for packing.....
I have no idea why but I just totally like/love this shot of him...... Haha His glasses ROCK dont they...... When we went to send him off, saw that everyone was wearing almost the same kind!!
Before setting off.....
And finally, off he sets.......Truthfully speaking, as much as I was looking forward to him going off due to the conflicts were having frequently, I am not really enjoying it so much now that he has really went off...It just feels weird....I don't know if its because we haven't got used to it or what but the house really does seem very much lonelier now...its just weird......Oh well, luckily for him, He can come back next friday due to CNY!!!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Weird.....
Ok, I have no idea why but for the past two days, I have been constantly remembering the moment whereby Mom and I returned to Singapore, ard August 2009....
I don't know why but I keep recalling, coming to the pick up area then picking up our bags then heading out and being in a dilemma while awaiting our family to come pick us up-We couldn't make a call becos we din have any local coins and also because the handphone battery was dead........ I seriously have no idea why I keep recalling this incident....
Am just hoping that this month goes well..... All I can see is the list of my wants as well as needs growing longer and longer without any form of income coming in..... I really need a bag now.... To think that the bag I fell in love with, broke!! That oso in front of the two sexies.... The worst thing now is that its so heart breaking to think of throwin it away but tats all I can do since it cant be fixed..... Shucks......
I don't know why but I keep recalling, coming to the pick up area then picking up our bags then heading out and being in a dilemma while awaiting our family to come pick us up-We couldn't make a call becos we din have any local coins and also because the handphone battery was dead........ I seriously have no idea why I keep recalling this incident....
Am just hoping that this month goes well..... All I can see is the list of my wants as well as needs growing longer and longer without any form of income coming in..... I really need a bag now.... To think that the bag I fell in love with, broke!! That oso in front of the two sexies.... The worst thing now is that its so heart breaking to think of throwin it away but tats all I can do since it cant be fixed..... Shucks......
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Mita's 21st
Ok, tis is quite overdue but since I was waiting for the pictures, here is the post....
Can't believe that the event which Vandana and I were going crazy and all and whereby curses and even vulgarities were flying is already over...
On 23rd Jan, we celebrated our dearest Pagal MITA's 21st birthday at East Coast Park.....It was quite cool and everything but cant believe that it is over so fast....... We din even get to whack so much and there we were talking and all....haiz....
Can't believe that the event which Vandana and I were going crazy and all and whereby curses and even vulgarities were flying is already over...
On 23rd Jan, we celebrated our dearest Pagal MITA's 21st birthday at East Coast Park.....It was quite cool and everything but cant believe that it is over so fast....... We din even get to whack so much and there we were talking and all....haiz....
Love this pic of the balloon.....
Things weren't really as smooth flowing and easy gg as Vandana and I had tot....the trees whereby we had wanted to tie the strings to, were surrounded by colonies of ant ...we were like mad screaming, jumping as well as cursing as we hanged the banner up.....
The Birthday Girl......Tis is a really nice pic of her....
Her family:-Sis, BIL, Bro n Sis...
The Cuzzies Gang...
Cute Lil Sanjana...
Adorable Darling Ria along wif Sandhya....
This part was rather comical....when the bottle was brought to her, she was so excitedly gonna open it straightaway but had to put it on hold to cut the cake...... Later, when she was gonna open it, every1 was backing away imagining the worst case scenario I suppose but when she did pop the cork open, it flew to God knows where and there was no fizz or anything....
Love this Pic!!!!!
Me wif my Mynah who is totallly bones...... Seriously.....Love the background...
This is the Mynahs attempt to break herself apart .... she did actually lift me up !!! I totally love how tis pic turned out.....
Me wif my Sexyyyyyy ...... It looks as if the behind is on fire.......LOVE IT!!!
The 3 Craazyyyyy Ppplllll....
Can't believe that its all over....meeting up wif sexyyy, going shoppping, planning to do something yet ending up doing something else....Seriously, this was a great idea and I am so happy that Sexyy and me pulled the whole thing of for that Pagal and she enjoyed it.....Haiz, it's over....What Next?!?
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Friends love
I realise that I really love, treasure and am grateful to the two of them....They both are truly Angels sent in disguises as themselves into my life...so that there are things worth looking forward to for me.....They are both totally tolerant of my nonsense and stupidity
Despite saying to stick together, she understood the me when I was away from her...... I realise that its with you that you and I both are able to do everything to the maximum because we are both the same in the case of the love we have towards the other two ...... I guess you truly are the person with whom I can go beyond boundaries created for myself...love you lots Darl!!!
Despite me not knowing what to do and all, she opened out her heart to me.....Thank you love for doing so....Frankly speaking, seeing you like tat made me look at you in admiration because you are a really strong person who is able to go on in situations whereby I feel that others are most likely to runaway in an attempt to avoid, or I might .... Be yourself love because thats why you are loved and thats whom we are used to having around in our life...... I just felt like hugging you the whole time .... If nothing much, I just hope to be there for you love like how you are always for me!!
Despite saying to stick together, she understood the me when I was away from her...... I realise that its with you that you and I both are able to do everything to the maximum because we are both the same in the case of the love we have towards the other two ...... I guess you truly are the person with whom I can go beyond boundaries created for myself...love you lots Darl!!!
Despite me not knowing what to do and all, she opened out her heart to me.....Thank you love for doing so....Frankly speaking, seeing you like tat made me look at you in admiration because you are a really strong person who is able to go on in situations whereby I feel that others are most likely to runaway in an attempt to avoid, or I might .... Be yourself love because thats why you are loved and thats whom we are used to having around in our life...... I just felt like hugging you the whole time .... If nothing much, I just hope to be there for you love like how you are always for me!!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
Growing Up!
There is a very very weird feeling in me right now...I don't really know what the feeling is but one thing is for sure, it's very DEPRESSING!!!
I find myself growing old....which seriously we are all... but being at home these few months has made me realise the whole process and I feel like there are so many things I wanna just take, twist and Change It!!
Yea there is a kind of bonding but there is also friction being felt so there are both the emotions of happiness and irritateness.......We both are similar in a lot of ways and yet, there are also vast differences such as:-We both are interested in trying new things but whereas I am the type to go online and find the recipe, She recalls the taste and does try-an-error...and it was actually delicious.....
The thing that we are back to back against each other for=HOUSEWORK!!! During this time, I have suprisingly come to LOVE doing Housework but the conflicting thing between both of us is abt getting the guys to do it. Whereas I want them to do a lil bit, at least nothing for the hse but atleast for themselves e.g making their own Milo. Though She oso expects them to be doing a bit but for that, she has to FORCE them, NAG at them and not make Milo from him before he even says it-I know I am being very whiny here but seeing their attitude towards her, they so do not deserve wad she does and all........
To add oil to the fire, going out of the house seems to spoil my mood even more!!
That day, on the way back home in the MRT, I had placed some plastics on the ground. Then when we were a station away, this lady[whose kid had been crying the whole way] gets up and takes the stroller with hr whining kid and heads towards the door. She had to pass by me, and when I realised that, I picked up the plastic bags. Just as I was doing so, she becomes so Impatient that she banged the stroller [the front wheels came up and down] and just tries to make her way through while running over my things!! - Fu*k=I know that you are irritated with your kid but why the hell are you showing your anger to others?? Even others are damn irritated with your whiny kid-She was crying the whole way and that woman couldn't even SHUT her Up!!
Then, another day, I went to Montip to get ear sticks...When I headed to the counter to make payment, the cashier started counting her cash...not wanting to interrupt [having to recount has an irritating sensation] I patiently waited. The damn woman, counted TWICE. I still waited patiently and then, she started counting again! Irritated, I juz said-EXCUSE ME, and I got ignored. Pissed, I literally screamed Excuse Me at her before I got her attention-WTF!!! This is SERVICE?!?
{While being on the topic of shopping, there are hardly people using their own bags even on Wednesdays, despite it being BYOB .... On the other hand, I went shopping with Mom to Tekka and I see an Eurasian lady, going around with four of her own bags, two being filled to the brim wif veg, one being passed to the vendor to put in her purchases and the final was flat and dangling from her shoulders....Comparing her to ourself, there is so much difference! I can't even force my mum to bring the bag whenever she goes shopping, instead I get teases from her and even the two bros whenever I bring it on my own....With tis kinda attitude-How can I even complain abt other not bringing I am unable to FORCE my own family with this habit!!!}
Seriously, everything is so damn irritating!!! The best feeling is only felt when I get off work on Sat and walk through the field filled with groups of family and friends flying kites.....For some reason, seeing the kites in the sky and seeing the group of people, there is a feeling of calmness and happiness along wif a pang of jealousy[well, shall not even bother to go on about it cos I would only be writing lots and lots more vulgarities!]
I find myself growing old....which seriously we are all... but being at home these few months has made me realise the whole process and I feel like there are so many things I wanna just take, twist and Change It!!
Yea there is a kind of bonding but there is also friction being felt so there are both the emotions of happiness and irritateness.......We both are similar in a lot of ways and yet, there are also vast differences such as:-We both are interested in trying new things but whereas I am the type to go online and find the recipe, She recalls the taste and does try-an-error...and it was actually delicious.....
The thing that we are back to back against each other for=HOUSEWORK!!! During this time, I have suprisingly come to LOVE doing Housework but the conflicting thing between both of us is abt getting the guys to do it. Whereas I want them to do a lil bit, at least nothing for the hse but atleast for themselves e.g making their own Milo. Though She oso expects them to be doing a bit but for that, she has to FORCE them, NAG at them and not make Milo from him before he even says it-I know I am being very whiny here but seeing their attitude towards her, they so do not deserve wad she does and all........
To add oil to the fire, going out of the house seems to spoil my mood even more!!
That day, on the way back home in the MRT, I had placed some plastics on the ground. Then when we were a station away, this lady[whose kid had been crying the whole way] gets up and takes the stroller with hr whining kid and heads towards the door. She had to pass by me, and when I realised that, I picked up the plastic bags. Just as I was doing so, she becomes so Impatient that she banged the stroller [the front wheels came up and down] and just tries to make her way through while running over my things!! - Fu*k=I know that you are irritated with your kid but why the hell are you showing your anger to others?? Even others are damn irritated with your whiny kid-She was crying the whole way and that woman couldn't even SHUT her Up!!
Then, another day, I went to Montip to get ear sticks...When I headed to the counter to make payment, the cashier started counting her cash...not wanting to interrupt [having to recount has an irritating sensation] I patiently waited. The damn woman, counted TWICE. I still waited patiently and then, she started counting again! Irritated, I juz said-EXCUSE ME, and I got ignored. Pissed, I literally screamed Excuse Me at her before I got her attention-WTF!!! This is SERVICE?!?
{While being on the topic of shopping, there are hardly people using their own bags even on Wednesdays, despite it being BYOB .... On the other hand, I went shopping with Mom to Tekka and I see an Eurasian lady, going around with four of her own bags, two being filled to the brim wif veg, one being passed to the vendor to put in her purchases and the final was flat and dangling from her shoulders....Comparing her to ourself, there is so much difference! I can't even force my mum to bring the bag whenever she goes shopping, instead I get teases from her and even the two bros whenever I bring it on my own....With tis kinda attitude-How can I even complain abt other not bringing I am unable to FORCE my own family with this habit!!!}
Seriously, everything is so damn irritating!!! The best feeling is only felt when I get off work on Sat and walk through the field filled with groups of family and friends flying kites.....For some reason, seeing the kites in the sky and seeing the group of people, there is a feeling of calmness and happiness along wif a pang of jealousy[well, shall not even bother to go on about it cos I would only be writing lots and lots more vulgarities!]
Seriously, it gets tiring at some point.......
Sometimes, the loneliness gets to the point whereby one starts questioning their reason of existence.
At other times, though being alone, seeing a kid smile at you, makes one willing to go on...to witness the day whereby that happiness is blessed upon them oso!
And yet, at the same time, witnessing death scenes in TV or however, really hits one hard.....
Life is full of certainties, happiness, sadness and lots of other feelings....Everyone goes through different phases of Life and experiences different kind of happiness and challenges awaiting them in life.....In the End, whatever is ahead of us is unknown to one and all therefore, the only thing that we can do is to continue walking into the unknown future and take on all the challenges, problems and all boulders to get to the finishing point of our lives.....
Sometimes, the loneliness gets to the point whereby one starts questioning their reason of existence.
At other times, though being alone, seeing a kid smile at you, makes one willing to go on...to witness the day whereby that happiness is blessed upon them oso!
And yet, at the same time, witnessing death scenes in TV or however, really hits one hard.....
Life is full of certainties, happiness, sadness and lots of other feelings....Everyone goes through different phases of Life and experiences different kind of happiness and challenges awaiting them in life.....In the End, whatever is ahead of us is unknown to one and all therefore, the only thing that we can do is to continue walking into the unknown future and take on all the challenges, problems and all boulders to get to the finishing point of our lives.....
It's a different future that we had envisioned....but, it's Life's surprises that keep it interesting.
Learning how to make the most of the unexpected events make us STRONGER-Tsuda Masami
Thursday, January 14, 2010
The P got replaced by S ....
In the end, this is how life works. When there is a need for you, you become a thing that is tapped on at their disposal and when things turn over, you are cast to the side....left to dust/wither away....... Though it is a thing that should be accepted, why am I being reluctant/refusing to accept it??
I guess the whole concept has not sunk in yet..Nonetheless, you want things to be this way-then, I shall just wish you well. Period.
In the end, this is how life works. When there is a need for you, you become a thing that is tapped on at their disposal and when things turn over, you are cast to the side....left to dust/wither away....... Though it is a thing that should be accepted, why am I being reluctant/refusing to accept it??
I guess the whole concept has not sunk in yet..Nonetheless, you want things to be this way-then, I shall just wish you well. Period.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
-What Hurts The Most, Rascal Flatts
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
-What Hurts The Most, Rascal Flatts
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Weird Steps Being Taken.....
The only thing feels like a game being played around with all of us being the game pieces.......Each and every one is playing and coming up with tricks such tat others suffer downfalls....Wad a World.....Seriously speaking, there is no point in doing good nowadays cos even if you do it, situations are reversed in such a way tat you are the evil one ...... Screw this whole thing!
-Why must it be such that a place I think of as my second home becomes a place where she refers to me as GUEST?!?
-Why must it be such that despite wanting to help her, I become the one who runs here and there at her every beck and call??
-Why is it tat despite this being his maternal home, she cant bring my nephew here???
SCREW this whole thing and all....having craved so much of wanting to shower love and affection, the whole feeling disappears while anger and hatred creeps in bringing along with it indifference......
-Why must it be such that a place I think of as my second home becomes a place where she refers to me as GUEST?!?
-Why must it be such that despite wanting to help her, I become the one who runs here and there at her every beck and call??
-Why is it tat despite this being his maternal home, she cant bring my nephew here???
SCREW this whole thing and all....having craved so much of wanting to shower love and affection, the whole feeling disappears while anger and hatred creeps in bringing along with it indifference......
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Tired
Ah....it sucks to be falling sick...seriously-there is this stupid itchy sensation at the throats and all....Freak it all.....
Time is seriously moving very very fast right now...and it is really scary......
The position I am in right now is so EEWWWW...... Though in one way its fun and relaxing, there is tension over paisa.....Haiz-Money really makes the world go round...
I am in love with the job at the centre...the type of teaching used is so damn cool and interactive and the best part is that time always rushes by so fast...Seriously, it is interesting and the kids are so cute....
But nonetheless, I am still in love wif my adorable nephew...I so feel like running away with him every time I visit him...Haha...
I so wanna drive....I AM GONNA RENT and DRIVE-I dun care... haha, well-got person from one, now left wif the other....Fingers crossed.....
Time is seriously moving very very fast right now...and it is really scary......
The position I am in right now is so EEWWWW...... Though in one way its fun and relaxing, there is tension over paisa.....Haiz-Money really makes the world go round...
I am in love with the job at the centre...the type of teaching used is so damn cool and interactive and the best part is that time always rushes by so fast...Seriously, it is interesting and the kids are so cute....
But nonetheless, I am still in love wif my adorable nephew...I so feel like running away with him every time I visit him...Haha...
I so wanna drive....I AM GONNA RENT and DRIVE-I dun care... haha, well-got person from one, now left wif the other....Fingers crossed.....
Videos Once Again
Ok, watched a few movies and I have to say, unexpectedly, PAA is a very sweet and touching movie....It just damn nice yaa and the acting is very cute and would definitely bring a smile
I wanna watch this movie...it looks so comical and cute:-
I wanna watch this movie...it looks so comical and cute:-
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Being Forced....
Currently, seeing all the situations and how everything is going and all, all that I can say is that it is F**KING painful...So painful that upon thinking about it, the tears refuse to stop.....Why must this happen all over again??
Even then, the happiness I was feeling was totally drowned and just when I tot I can recover and achieve that happiness again, once more-it is being snatched away from me, forcing me to succumb and let go no matter how tightly I attempt to have a grip on it....It hurts, it hurts very badly.....this is one thing for which I really cant forgive-for depriving me of this happiness-SCREW U!
Even then, the happiness I was feeling was totally drowned and just when I tot I can recover and achieve that happiness again, once more-it is being snatched away from me, forcing me to succumb and let go no matter how tightly I attempt to have a grip on it....It hurts, it hurts very badly.....this is one thing for which I really cant forgive-for depriving me of this happiness-SCREW U!
Once more, I find myself looking out and searching for the happiness which I feel tat I am not blessed to have at all.....It hurts nonetheless to see the happiness on others faces and to see my plans juz fading away........
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Tired......
Its just the start of the year but for some damn reason, I am feeling damn exhausted.... Be it complaining or talking abt my interest, it feels like I am talking to the air....
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year!
WISHING ONE AND ALL A VERY VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!
May the new year bring wif it lots of happiness, love and success for one and all :)
May the new year bring wif it lots of happiness, love and success for one and all :)
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