Relationships

I feel betrayed
Broken and bruised
A string that’s been frayed
Bended and abused

I feel all alone
Small and empty
No light being shone
Into the caverns of pity

When everything started
To seem right
The angel of happiness darted
Out of sight

And left me here
All alone in the dark
NO one of the dear
Just death: damp and stark

I want to just cry
But is it really worth it?
I might ask you why?
But I’m not gonna cry over this shit

And being alone in a cave full of depression
Makes you realize.
That life goes to show you
Trust someone, Love someone
Just know that they’re gonna hurt you too.
By Jennifer Whitton

The above poem totally describes the feeling being felt by me at this current moment. Seriously, it summaries the whole feeling that I am feeling right now. However, one thing is for sure is that I know that this whole thing is done with and completely over. Its OVER!

I know I have written or rather said all those shit before abt not wanting to care and such, but there was always a small tiny hope of things becoming better but now, it is completely being finished and all emotional attachments being cut, torn and thrown away.

THE ONES WHO ARE RELATED TO U, TURN OUT TO BE THE ONES WITH WHOM U R NOT MEANT TO BE IN RELATIONSHIP WITH. THE ONES WHO ARE TOTALLY NOT BLOOD RELATED WITH U, TURN OUT TO BE THE ONES WHO SHOWER U WITH THE LOVE AND CARE THAT IS SUPPOSE TO BE SHOWN TO U BY RELATED ONES. IN THE END-"KITNE DOOR,KITNE PASS"->THIS SENTENCE SEEMS TO BE SO DAMN TRUE......

Now, I find myself void of all the feelings, attachments that I had-be it for them or the niece and nephews.......Totally void of all sort of feelings...............

At this moment, I am totally missing my dearest niece , whom GOD graciously brought to me at a very crucial moment. I am missing TRISHA very badly.... Goodness-She came and went away like an ANGEL, who for a brief and short moment gave me lots of happiness that I deserve as a MAUSI. I can't wait to see that little angel again..... Hopefully its gonna be soon.......