Moody

For some reason, I realise that I have become rather short-tempered currently. Seriously, I am very short tempered-am getting moody and angry very damn easily and I have no idea why=seriously....I find myself getting angry at her for the stupidest thing-Ok, stupid to me at least, crazy to u guys-haha....I have no idea what's with my moooooood.

-Scared of what's coming for the future
-Scared of letting go
-Simply plain jealous

Talkings

Ok, We were just talking today and it made me think as in seriously-WTH happened?
As seen from the pics, the zoo and the valentine's day celebration was the last largest gathering we had.

Anyway, we were just talking and then there was this part whereby both my mynah's pointed at me....At that point, I understood but after that, I pondered-is it really my fault? I know that has been the suckiest point in poly prior to TEP.....

But seriously, the whole IPP period was damned la-the whole day going off in a flash and having no life...and the worst part came whereby frens drifted away... I guess it was scary because school was gonna start soon adn I had the fear as to how it all was going to be-I still rmb I tried having a convo with Rac and the reply received was deserving yet painful at the same time......

But like what she said, the end result of the whole thing was great-I got to know who are the ones who actually stood by me and will continue to do so....only a handful of them....

Thinking about all these things, I really wonder when and how the whole thing is going to be at the end of it-I really hope it wud be good!

Video

I felt like I had to get this out of my system so I am gonna be complaining lots here-pls dont mind if u don get who I am talking about becos-U are not the one!

OK, I am seriously confused la-I have no control over my feelings. Whenever I hear those words from her-... .... .. .... ....., I just get into a crazily jealous mode-Seriously! And I don't get why She is supporting her. When it was hers, she herself said this would happen and now when it is her, she is saying something else when exactly the same thing is happening-I guess this is what they mean by sticking up for your family-oh well, stick up but I don't give a ....! Seriously am sick and tired, I don't get why she is supporting her, from my viewpoint-we are the same standpoint from both sides.......aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh-I mean come on, even lip service would be sufficient for me...but if you can't even do that, and then just come up with excuses on the phone-I give up la!-it hurts to say this but I really feel I am being made use of by her as well-Everyone is a dual faced ...!!!

As for other things, I am addicted to this video esp the part where the mom would say-Khair Churo and the ending=CUTE!




Compare this with the original-haha simply classic!

Sat Day

Plans were made to go IKEA wif Van baby for certain shoppin purposes. Due to an exhausting day, friday-I overslept and due to that, had to postpone but nonetheless, we met and had a rocking great time-I can't believe I spent the whole day with Van and it whizzed by so damn fast!!

Ok, Went wif Cuz and lil bro to Ikea-Met Van there and we looked around shoopping for the thing and as well as nonsense stuffs!! In the end, we completed our trip in 3 hours!! I was longing for Chocs but didn't get them-Sorry Mynah!!

Ok, then came home, changed and went to CP for Lunch-finally, Vana dn me had our SUBWAY date and it was a rather sweet one....Haha, while there, we both really had some mischievious tots in our heads, earlier we had while we were shopping at Popular-it was so not worth the money-luckily, we decided to explore our options...haha...we really did have some rather bad thoguhts!!

After that, it was back home and following which, we got to work while watching the stupid movie they had put on Vasantham!

PICTURE TIME:-

3 of Us-having nothing bettter to do then relaxing.......

My Bro, really made Ikea into his house like that, here he is cooking

And here he is bathing

And here, he is simply fooling around

Back home, we both got to business.....can't belive our whole afternoon was just gone in a flash-luckily, we managed to finish the thing by evening but our plans of passing it was kinda ruined-another time then, till then-it rests collecting dust!Van @ Work

Me @ Work-haha

Finally getting things done!!Van with the semi-completed product!

Presenting to You-Our final Product:-

This is how my bro wanted to wash his TK clothes-Ass right?? Its gonna come out crumpled anyway, so why bother putting it so nicely??

Happy Chinese New Year

Here is wishing One and all-A very happy Chinese new year: May the year of OX be an auspicious one for you and your family and bring you happiness, peace, prosperity and success !!

Happenings

With what they said and my reaction, I can safely say that I am a damn selfish person who wants all her near and dear ones to be by her side or close to her always.
-She just said it and its not as if it would be happening soon but am already feeling sad enuf abt it. Sad and scared about the time whereby it would become true!
-I mean seriously am just so scared, right now am scared abt graduation, scared about frens drifting away but I know this is the happening that no matter how much I want to stop it, it is inevitable. However, I am thankful for two dearies who I know would be there by my side, for what we have gone thru is too much to make the friendship be forgotten in a few moments of being apart, as well as a handful others.
Secondly, I sat and enjoyed the whole thing thruout, had lots of fun and everything, as well as other emotions over all the nonsensical things happening but only upon getting home did it hit hard that-IT'S ALL OVER!
For some reason, it really hit me hard when I came home and though about the whole event. I can't believe that I was still so joyous when Poonam, Beena, Ruchi and I were sitting and talking,esp abt her Punjabi package, and when I went for dinner wif the duo sisters. I guess I was just trying to convince myself, holding it back when I saw hers flow down. It was really painful but the pasted smile along with the unhearty laughter, made me last the whole event without a drop coming-It was just an illusion?!
It's really saddening, the mood swing as well as the tears flowing can't express the feeling in my heart. Despite the ups and downs, it was a place whereby I got the chance to go out of my natural self, I interacted with others and became more confident as well as met lots and lots of good friends and now, it has all ended-that also, in a bad way-"Jab tak tum apne aap ko hi dushro se aage rakho ge, unka kehna na sunna na hi unke feedback ya suggestions pe dehyain dena, tum kuch bhi dikh nahin karpaoyoge. Ek aadmi ka kaam 10 aadmi ke kaam se berabar nahin ho sakta!"

Seriously, with all the projects, my mood is really high, havin stayed for the whole night and in the end, having to do it myself-really took the icing on the cake. Like wad she says-In the end, hum hi unka kachera saaf karte hain!

Stunned

I am stunned at myself with wadever has been happening.
-firstly, I dont know why but I cannot help my feelings-I mean woh nahin aa rahi hai, uska life to main gussa kyun ho rahin hoon-I really don't understand it. Mujhe gussa bhi hona hai lakin main hi use sms karti hoon-jab use hi nahin koi parwa ki woh aaye na ne aaye, hame bataye ya nahin-to mere gussa honein se kya? I have alreayd said-I am damn extreme person....Even if I make frens, I go to the extreme-I went nuts during TEP and now..all this: but, now I wana take things how they are, leave it and move on-that's what I wanna do!!-And I am going to do it!!
-secondly, I am astonished she said that to me and at that point, I felt so ashamed of what I had wanted to do-I thank god that he did not gave me the chance!-I am really feeling so stupid and ashamed of not only thinking but entertaining stupid thoughts about it-Oh well, it's all over!!!!!

Mood Out!!

Ok, it's official-I go crazy and become a sensitive bomb during projects coupled with that time....seriously, I still rmb how short I was on friday that also with Nisa=So sorry girl. I "fought" with her twice!!! Haha


Today, even worse, they came over and upon hearing about it-my instant reaction is why? I don't know whyla but the moment I am seeing her nowadays, I am becoming very short. On one hand, I wanna be nice to her then on the other hand, I hate her smugness and am short with her because of all that-I know its bad to be bad to someone but for some reason, I can't help myself....I guys its because of the things I heard. I thing is for sure la-the Indian community has got nothign better to do then sit around and gossip and boast like just yest, heard tht the other P's sis got 6A's in her O's-ok, great for her! So why boast?? You have a clever daughter and she did well-ok, reward and all...why go around and announcing to the world-wad do u gain from it? Instead, there are some ppl getting reprimanded because of ur gloating!!!-S***s Big Time la!!Feel so much better getting it off my chest.....hmmm, as ending off-to HER: let it out since the distance is going to be long after a few while like what SHE says-it's better to go and tell! I Hope and Pray that things would turn out well for you cos I wanna see u smile once again like the mad smile u always used to have!!-ALL THE BEST!!
To S, I am sorry. I am going to try and make my attitude towards u better as I try and make myself a better person. I shall treat u like a lil sis no matter how u are cos only by being good, I can be treated well by you and this way, conscious would not eat me!!-Sorry and give me time!

Luck By Chance

I can only say one thing-HR is damn hot!!






This is what Friends do-When 1 gets saboed, the other laughs like nuts then supports and cheers like hell!!
I look like an idiot!

Projects

Am so tired, in pain and am damn exhausted. Projects are starting to get the better of me=am becoming so damn moody. Haiz, it has started with CAA, ongoing to HRM, PFP, IFT, QM and IB!!! Haiz, really tiring. Both mentally and physically draining but the worst thign is about us getting short at each other-I think this is why we should learn to keep personal and business life separate. So, I am hereby apologising in advance for the hurt that I may cause to any of you through this period thru my behaviour, words or actions. I know that in my anger, I would definitely be saying things which I would regret later on and moreover, words are things that once out can never be taken Back!! So-SORRY GUYS!!! I really value my relationships so I don't think I would find it fitting to lose any of you during this hideous course of projects-please forgive me for any thing that you find offending from me!!

Moreover, exam timetable are coming out in the midst of all these!!!!


http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090113/tap-lifestyle-australia-tourism-offbeat-5a1703c.html -Can I have this job???

Updates

Ok, I don know if there is an indication of bad patch happenings or whatever, but I have been damn unlucky over the weekend. On Sat, I was damn bored-the only good thing was that got to watch Sponge bob after like so long but Sunday was the worst!!

Went to NTUC Income at Harbour Front for project purpose. Needed to get info from the people there as I was only able to find minimal info online. So me and cuz went there and we waited before we were served by this lady, didn't get to get her name. So, I told her that I was a finance student doing a project on ILP products and needed to know more info about wad NTUC offers and
her F***ing reply was-"So why should I help you?"
I went-"What?"
She-"You are not buying any policies from me so why should I help you?"
I-"Because by helping me, you would be helping you company as..."
She cuts me and says-"Yes, but you are not buying anything from me, so why should I help you? The company doesn't pays me to give info to you when you are not buying anything from me."
Then she gets call and she answers it. Then she gets back to me and says
-"Look, you are getting all defensive right now"
I-"Yea, if you are to reply to me like that, of course I would be defensive. I need information about your company and I can't get it online so I tot if I would come down here, you would be able to provide me.."
Again, she cuts me and says-"We are a business centre, we sell policy so we can't just help you like that."Then she says-"I can only give you minimal info" and she starts talking about what an ILP is then I say-"I already know that but can you tell me more abt the type of ILP you offer?" Then she still continues talking about ILP then I say-"look, it's ok. I won't take you time. Continue selling your policies cos I don't think you are going to help me"

BLOOODY HELL F*** HER-BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ONMG-No wonder they say Singapore Service providers SUCK!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously-with all these, ofcourse they would suck!!!Stupid bitch woman.
You know what the irony is, today when we went to AMK branch, the fella laughed at the reaction she had given and he so willingly helped us!!-Turns out the problem is that since, I am using MF, I couldn't open the links given!!

And another stupid thing that cna happen is that I sprained my leg again-the same right leg somemore, with what he recently went thru, I am scared if this is an indication of wad I would also be gg thru-worse of all, even my mom suggests that!

Tall, Grande and Venti

For the second time, I have purposely missed lesson in my poly life-haha, this is the type of boring person I am. Anyway, the initial plan was to go home, get my Cals book and come back but instead, I went to Sengkang and did not come back and the worst thing is that, I even made Rac not come back-feel so bad abt it sia but anyway, the time spent with them was damn lots of fun!!!! Seriously speaking, I am very lucky to have found this Tall and Grande-it is said that friendship which comes out of a fight, comes out stronger haha but ours came out crazier..............haha seriously, if I have enjoyed my time in A'Team it is due to these two crazy mynahs!Just like the drinks standing together, I know we would be standing together, supporting each other along the steps of life!!!
Tall Mynah, Do what your heart desires for those who listen and follow others are big fools!!![-Can't believe I am saying this taking into consideration that I came to B&F thanks to my cuz sis=well, that's a diff matter] Anyway, look forward and just keep going, even though now the circumstances are unfavourable, they are bound to change!
Yo Grande, the same for you as well.....just do it!!Haha, just go for it as long as your heart desires cos that's the recipre for success! Go for your dreams no matter how high they may be cos the harder you struggle, the sweeter success it! People only try and demoralize you because they are simply jealous that they can't do it!-Go for it!!As for myself, all of a sudden, I find what I wanna do and now, I seem to be lost as to the road I should take-Help anyone???

LOVE YOU LOTS TALL AND VENTI!!!!!!!!!!!

PUNK'D

Some mynah, who has never anything better to do, played a prank on me-Since I cudn't sleep,I decided to sms her and after that, she asks me to call on a particular number, which she claims is her brother. OK, so I call the phone and at first, there was blurness and the second time I called, all I heard was vulgarities!! OMG-it was really a stupid stupid prank=sickening woman!!!

I am totally confused. Seriously, in one place, I have crazy runing emotions-I seriously dunno wads with me la but I am getting affected by the smallest to smallest thing-I seriously have to get over this feeling of insecurity. Seriously, whatever is to happen will happen, I guess shud get over this and concentrate on more imp things like education-That's another point of confusion. I have no idea as to what to do la-it's damn confusin. Either do this or that-I am unable to choose!!

SCREAMSSSS

Oh man, saw VEE's wedding video and photo and it was damn gorgeous la!! Totally damn nice-I guess when you see this kind of things, there is a desire in you-I guess its just the effect of the moment. There is also the bungy jumping video of Vee-OMG, it was like OMG-totally la....the point where they jumped, the reaction we gave: SCREAM!!!

Grande did a marvelous thing-Seeing her, I guess one should do what the heart desire if not would only be left with regret=Congrats to your darl!!!

Anyway, on our way home, Poonam and I were sitting and talking, looking through my cals paper [for the first time in Poly life, I got to bring back my paper home] and when we looked up, the bus had just passed by. We both just screamed la-like oMG, the bus went by before our eyes and we cudn't do anything! Haha....hilarious la....

Van Baby, I don wanna be a lamp post ;)

Hilarious moments make the whole thing relaxing, sometimes, making you forget about your pain and things that bring you down.

Gone Ald

Well, like finally it's over and its like over and gone ald! Well, jisko jo karna that, usne woh kiya-I mean like WTH la, since last group, uske bad ke sab itne eehhh hain............I mena seriously la, woh mile gaya to kya iska matlab ki tum sar ke upar chad jao! Like wadever la, before saying to others, have a DAMN GOOD LOOK at your own self first la-Damn Ironic!!

Jisko milna chahiye, use do hi mat or kaho ki there is always a next time. I mean, I have nothing with wadever has been done but you may say its personal or wadever la. Lakin-I seriously hate it jab koi mera aage aa ke, mera kaam le le or mera baat na sune-I hate it and feel like killing the person when they do it!-Mera gussa us din itna upar tha ki I was just about to explode but somehow controlled it. I mean, just because tumhare pass ek post hai to iska yeh matlab nahin ki tum ek mamuli member ka baat na suno esp when I was F***ing right!! F*** la.....you guys seriously destroyed the event for me that day!! You sya that the H******* shit nahin hain lakin hum normal log hi ko pata hoga ki hai ya nahin.....

When your work, effort is not recognised, it really sucks and the worst thing can be when someone, kinda responsible comes and says-try again! Really F*** la....stupid thing!! Appreciate the effort that has been put in by some ppl, even if not big recognition, then still acknowledge it!! It's that that counts, makes a person feel that the effort has been well worth it! If not, that' s it-the best of your lot would be gone and you would only be left with ones who would just further keep on and on destroying whatever is left to be destroyed!!

Whatever la, whatever is to happen, it has ald been done and it is GONE ALD!!

Seriously speaking, whatever was there the previous year, is all gone=I guys the people do play a part.

CONFUSED!!!

Once again, I am totally confused thinking about my future.. Sometimes, I really wonder what the hell do I want to do....once again, I seem to be constantly changing my mind over and over again...it's really getting irritating la!!!-How do I decide? to do something that's in my interest, something I love-Congrats to Grande: You discovered your love!!!

BTW, saw this article on MSN [courtesy of Poonam]. OMG-It's damn cute la...Love totally makes anyone and everyone do crazy things, haha !
http://news.sg.msn.com/oddities/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1980175

Projects

Seriously speaking, Projects are really in full tide right now and the worst thing that can happen is ki tumhare grp ke log tumhare pass aake, tumhe itne "badiya" sa kaam dein ki tumhari maan hi na lage use dekhene ko-I mean, woh kaam tum dono ko diya gaya tha khatam akrne ko, ko kya dono apna sar ek karne, use khatam karne dena chahiya, lakin nahin-main tumhe, so tum kar sako, karo uske baad dushroin ko de do karna ko! Thank God ki mera paas meri "bai" hai meded karne ka nahin to....woohoo="FUN"

Happenings

Ok, there is now an increasing pressure to study-something I can never do unless last minutes and I actually hate myself for doing it but I am accustomed to doing it-ok, confusing!! Well, projects are now going to start being in highest gear and talking about that, I really wanna learn d******, I get so excited and all when I see cars on the road-esp SUV!! Omg, I am in love with SUVs....well, that is still a few years to go......

[Lexus RX Hybrid]

[Mazda CX9]

Haiz, met with Van baby today-so excited!! Haiz, seriously love meeting with her and Am cos it would always be a session of mindless laughter, stress-clearance......can't wait for next meeting and moreover, there is something abt V baby which is really very funny to me la haha....serisouly, can't believe that she is being in tat way........haha=but she is still funny la

OK, anyway, the mynah treated the four ladies to drinks-haha...it's kinda nice working la...how I wish I was working but like my dad says, you have your whole life to work so enjoy the relaxation now-rather true yea?

Somehow, there is lots of confusions in me....I have no idea why am thinking this way, I just think have been rather affected by all the happenings-whatever la....I miss my niece and nephew-I want them to be with me so that their cuteness and innocentness can just rid of everything that is happening!!!

Confused

Just so confused, seeing others, I wanna change myself-but for?-For hope....why do I keep wanting something which I know is beyond my reach. The more I know it, the more I yearn for that something or rather .......

For some reason, whenever she does all this, I get these strong sense of emotions-I have no idea why I feel disappointed or gussa but these feelings just come over whenever I hear or read....I don't know la...

Song Videos

Ok...surprisingly, I passed my Cals!! Am so damn happy but today's test was a major disaster-I totally forgot whatever I studied. Haiz, anyway, leaving that aside...found these great song videos...Totally love them-Phir Milenge Chalte Chalte: Kajol looks so gorgeous-Can't wait for her movie with SRK! Marjaani: SRK is looking so gorgeous and the song is damn nice-I think am becoming a SRK fan-the fella is getting more handsome as he is aging!!....Chandni Chowk to China: kinda awaiting the movie to come out-haha excited!!!

Enjoy!

Latest Happenings + Pics

New Year's day was spent going to the temple-the best thing abt that was that I got to play with my niece and nephew. My heart really cried when they actually recognised me and even more when my niece laid on my lap drinking her water and my nephew asked me to make him a plane and race with him, though his mausi is a sucker at making good planes........

Well, on New Year's Eve-Some ppl came over and we had a mini party all the way till 2 plus a.m. It was truly lots of fun along with pain and suffering!!! Great day and way to end 2008!

My Bro-the great shuffler

This is how violent it got esp with my cuz and Poonam.....

This is basically someone being dragged.....

Here, is my bro being dragged-haha, whoever shouted Heart Attack, was in for it esp their arms!

Awaiting

My bor bring pressed...that ass would always jump on the mat, so in the end we decided to hit on himPoonam-away in a corner--hmmmm.....The game we had while awaiting countdown-4 cards

All of a sudden, she appears like a ghost-haha....

While we played 4 cards, the bros were engaged on Dota!

On my bro's b'day-rare to see the guys doing up the decoration....reminded me of my b'day in India

The mynah-she was so damn engaged watchin tv that she didn't realise me taking her pic nor my bro and poonam calling her-No wonder I call her: Pekak!