Happenings.....

Parde Ke Peeche Parda Re...

This is one song that seems to be so ever true in every kind of situations......I felt as if I would have so much to write but right now, My mind is totally blank.....

In the end, I chose to go wif her.....despite all tat I feel n say, she is mine and mine alone right?-in a way that is.... Hmmm...its scary to be growing up..

Videos Once Again

These two movie trailer look so awesome esp-MNIK...Why is it tat the actors seem to be getting better looking as they age?? Is it the magic of Make-Up?!? Nonetheless, both the Khans are really looking good in the movie...but, overall, Bobby Deol is the best looking-Saw the movie Ek recently n his look is WOW, though the make-up artist must have been crazed abt the whole guy n eye liner thing but he still looks-HOT!!!




Ok, I din know that there had been a portion of shooting for this movie done locally here in Singapore itself...WOW....but the song is cute...


This video totally ROCKS!!! Shahid Kapoor is an awesome dancer n the song is juz -Amazing!!! The line-Saala Pappu bhi naach ke dikhayega reminds u of JTYJN....Cute! SK looks very funny @ 00:49 and totally comedian n hilarious from 00:59-1:01 esp wif the lyrics, haha too cute.....Watch it:-

Grow Up!

Seriously.....S.R is something that would always be around as difference in opinions and thinking would result in clashes but to become so childish as to act so immature...seriously-time to act ur age..

You say to me, I keep quiet and juz take it in though it wasnt true.....When now, I say it back to you, whereby it applies to ur situation, you blow up?!? Think abt others as well before you speak next time if u gonna be so childish...

Damn Outdated

Well....My blog has totally been dead for quite some time...have always been putting off the idea of bloggin though I have had so much to blog about:-

->Well, I finally got my DL!!! Haha....I was so happy upon receiving it and after checking it for any mistakes and such and holding it in my hands for 10 mins, I just placed it back in the envelope and just resumed doing my own work...Seriously, though there is a sense of excitement and thrill, it soon dies down cos it not as if am gonna be driving soon or such...But I really wanna drive soon- I juz have the fear of forgetting all that I have learnt. I was so high whenI got the chance to reverse my dads van for juz 2 seconds. Soon la Soon eh....Hopefully :P

->Met up wif Mynah and her two niece on Monday when she called me and went to see the X'Mas light up with them....and it was oso nice chatting wif her and catching up and getting 'updated'. Also, we walked to PS whereby we juz dropped in Build-A-Bear and luckily, Van Baby was working there so got to meet her oso!! The way the Mynah was 'commanding' her nieces, was juz hilarious='Say Hello.', 'Got say Thank you?'...haha seriously this Mynah and her way of talking is one of a kind....Came home and when I read the papers, my horoscope said-A friend makes a request late in the day n u wud do well to respond quickly. Even if u r tired or stressed out, helping him/her in a small way is sure to pay off for u. Was really shocked, should I say, since it was so damn accurate....

->Met up wif Aisha after a damn long time. Turned out, she had wanted to see the Lights decorations along Orchard Road so we had met up there, also got to meet the Mynah and Starshea, she a totally pretty and a very nice person. Once again, we walked to PS and again dropped by and saw Van baby and then Aisha and me got ice creams and we sat and caught up wif one another...then Van baby came over once her job was over and then it was three ppl talking and juz crazily chatting away....Lo and Behold, saw Nisa and Starshea again, called her then she oso came over....'What are you still doing here? Your mother still haven call ar?'-This was how she reacted upon seeing me for the 2nd time in a day....n yea it was true, surprisingly, my mom din call until I called her up myself-reason being:she was too into the movie they were watching. This was a total crazy day whereby I met up wif 3 of my darlings and met a new fren....

->Went over to Van baby house and later, Mita oso came over and thats when we enjoyed the Ajab Prem Ki... movie. Thereafter, we were working on the cards as well as doing nonsensical stuffs and all of a sudden-it was 9 pm!! We went down to the bus stops, getting ourselves a Choc smoothie along the way, Vans recommendation, which was delicious!!!

->Went to temple after so long, last time was for the Navaratri Havan, and it was a total horror!!! Seriously, I had to go alone as Mom and Chotu had went over to the fellas house and Anshu was gonna be coming over with his frens....I realised that I dun really have ppl wif whom I hang out upon gg to temple-Sonu, she's enjoying in India[she is my perfect partner, shes usually the one I am wif], Poonam n Ruchi were having night classes....Guddu was wif both her sis and they were sittin on the Level one wif 'HER'....I felt such like an ASS enterin the temple alone and not knowing what to do. I'm grateful to Ashok uncle's wife, this wonderful lady who is very lifely and lovable for having approached me to join her and her 'gang' when she saw me sitting alone. Frankly speaking, though I was sitting with them, I still felt so weird and it was a totally awkward feeling. When the 'Barat' came and all went out to see, I found myself gg to the second floor and all along, I was juz sitting there and watching the whole thing. Was thankful Van had the time and she actually called me and was there wif me for a while....took my lil bro's DS and started playing wif it then these two kids came over and started saying 'I want to Play, Give me-I want to play', they were actually almost gonna snatch from me...OMG Kids today are turnin out to be total HORROR!!! Well, slowly slowly, seconds slowly turned to minutes and soon, it was 10...Mom asked to go down n join her. Met up wif Nisha didi after so long and her daughter was so cute, she had to be bribed by me with a sweet to come and say hello to me...but
she was still cute and she entertained me for a while before running away........Finally, we left!
I juz realised that I am unable to actually open up and make frens. I am thankful to the Aunty for the fact that she came over and asked me to talk to the girls around her and not sit alone but I found myself unable to talk to them about anything. I was quiet after saying Hello...maybe, I am too used to the babes I hang around with.....But still, it was a totally weird experience....
I also saw that I am too attracted to kids and babies....I found myself playing wif this lil baby before he ran off...It was also amazing playing with Nisha didi's kid...she was so cute the way she was doing the opposite of whatever I would be saying to her but she was still cute and fun!! It was still nonetheless, very painful juz watching him and her run around and not be able to go and hug them or play with them....maybe, I am not blessed to be an Aunt who can actually be able to meet up wif her niece and nephew or even at least be able to form a relationship wif them whereby they can recognise that I am their aunt...It juz hurts, everytime I find myself feeling so excited whenever they are born and making plans of playing wif them or even bringing them out on outting and such in the distant future and yet, the whole dream shatters the same way everytime wif me not even being able to talk to them.....When can I actually be an Aunt and be able to do the duties and all of being an Aunt??!!??

I recently saw this phrase to which I feel that it is so true and can totally relate to:-

"IT IS VERY PAINFUL TO BE BETRAYED BY SOMEONE YOU TRUST. NO MATTER HOW COMMON IT IS IN THIS WORLD, IT STILL NEVER STOPS BEING PAINFUL."-Aihara Miki

WELL, finally my blog is UPDATED.....

Movies Watched

Finally, after so long, got to watch movies!! Well, though there is a stack of cds sitting-thanks to Deepak Bhaiya, only watched Dil Bole Hadippa as well as Ajab Prem Ki Ghazab Kahani at Van Baby's house....

Ajab Prem Ki Ghazab Kahani-
This movie is very damn cute...seriously the whole storyline is comical and very sweet....to think of it overall, the story in it is a rather common love story which sorta is like overused but still this movie-it was juz so capturing that though you know what is gonna happen next, you are nonetheless still stuck glued to your sofa till the movie ends!!!
It is really very very comical...there is this part whereby Jenny has been kidnapped and Prem goes to her rescue. So she is happy to see him and comes running down the stairs shouting "Prem, Prem, Prem' all the way...and when you expect them to embrace, she runs past him and out of the door, to his horror, then comes back running the same way as there are men chasing her. Seriously, the whole movie is very funny and sweet....the family love shown in it is oso-WOW!!!


Dil Bole Hadippa-
Yea, I know I am watching this movie like very way past the excitement for it has died away...but still, well the movie has a wide genre in it-gender bender, love n such.....
The movie is cool and all but the love story in it totally makes you go-AWWWW...and leaves you thinking that they should have had more romantic encounter moments...but seriously, after watching the lovey dovey parts, you seriously go AAWW-well, atleast for me as well as Van oso...hahaha..but it is still a movie to be enjoyed...

Suprise....

Today was a great day of suprise....shall post more abt it when I get the pics from Mita...so stay tuned!!

Well it seems tat I wud have to await for eternity before I can get my hands on the pics from Mita-she seems to be taking forever to upload them-Damn the Nurse :P So I wud attempt to narrate the situation:-

Ok-We had went to Pasir Ris beach to check out the place but apparently it seemed that the place turned out to be very spooky looking...there wasnt much lighting....but it was nice as in windy and all though it had a fishy smell....Well, we decided to sit around as it was windy and all and we kinda decided on the invitation cards and all...ok then all of a sudden, Van asked me if I wanted to go to the washroom which I dared not because of the surroundings and instead suggested to pack up and leave...to which Van said-Huh....

Haha...well then Mita takes out a Four Leaves plastic and said that she had brought something for us....I was-India has Four Leaves and thats when the two suprised me wif birthday cake....this was followed by huggies, and then they both sang me a very fast birthday song due to the reason that it was very windy n we din want the candle to be doused.....and after that-My babes took out a very nice Mango bag for me.....

The whole thing was very sweet n awesome...The best thing was when Van said-Why is it that every time things have to be done in a rush for my b'day surprise...hahaha....this year was fast singing of Bday song and last year, the two attempted to quickly light the candles so as to surprise me b4 I entered my room-which I spoiled since I juz opened the door while they were still fretting=but my darlings are very cute whenever they rush n the way they wud react whenever I wud spoil it....WOW I am always spoiling my own surprise wif them eh.......

There was oso this instance whereby there was a cat roaming around the pit whereby we were sitting and Van was like chase it away, chase it away...So Mita decided to be the knight in shining armour and started saying-Bil bil bil bil bil.....Van n me were like-Bil Bil??? Then we told that Pagal tat this is Singapore and not India whereby the cat would respond to her Bil Bil...So Mita got up n all of a sudden shouted ROAR and started running after the cat! Imagine a skinny girl, her hair all straight n loose, running with her hands in an attacking manner under the trees in a very poorly lit place-There was a family of three walking by and when Mita shouted ROAR, the poor kid actually jumped before looking behind....=OMG-I can't believe that I am actually laughing so hard that am starting to tear up juz by recounting the whole incident....MITA MITA....seriously-This babe is the total joker among the three of us....

Seriously it was a great surprise n a great catching up wif the darlings.....

Cleared....

Finally.....I cleared it...couldnt have wished for anything other than that to end the Year in a good way......

I am just still feeling HAPPY and relieved!!!!

Exhausted

Frankly speaking...I have totally no idea as to why I am feeling this way but after coming back hom yesterday, I have been feeling very exhausted from then on...I even went to sleep early, a first after a very damn long time...I slept for nearly 91/2 hours and yet when I woke up this morning, I felt as if I have no energy at all......

Followed mom for the checkup and thankfully, today was the blissful day whereby they discharged her.....After coming back home, fell flat and when I woke up...was roaming around the house with a lil bit of headache.....Having nothing to do, was made to be the idiot having to go Compass Point to pass the meal and thankfully, it was a cool and refreshing short trip.......

I have seriously no idea as to why am I feeling like this right now...Having no enthusiasm, feeling tired and exhausted=All in all.....I am feeling very lifeless........

AM TOTALLY HATING THIS RIGHT NOW!!!!

Changes that Hurt....

With all that has been happening and that I have been hearing, frankly speaking it hurts to think that everything done and said can just be destroyed in a moment. To hear them talk about it and try to make fun of it, it can be seen that though they have laughter and smiles on their faces, in truth, they are really hurt. To have the same thing happen to the both of them-they are both really hurt........Everything said and done-if it was to be the case of anyone, I am sure it would be painful but to do this to ur own.....

When I used to see such things on the TV and Movies when I was young, I used to think how can people treat their on family like garbage but now I when I see the same type of things on tv or drama, I feel that this is so expected. In all, the conclusion basically is that TRUST NO ONE...be it some random stranger whom you bump into on the streets or your own child........

I remember that when I once heard him say that why would he depend on us for their old age, I found myself hurt and was really in disbelief but seeing the events that have happened this past few years, I am sure that now, he is even more unwilling to trust in anyone but nonetheless, I still find myself wanting to do things for them...be it now or in the future....at least the most I can do now is to accompany her which isnt really a big thing to me but means a lot to her-so am thankful that with my current lifestyle, at least I can do something for her....It feels nice when I am lying by her side or just sitting beside her and she opens up to me...though the things that are discussed are painful, I realised that both of us just try to laugh it off to ease the pain.....

I am kinda sad that I cant tell her abt things that are happening with him but even about that, I feel sad as to the difference in treatment...it really is painful when I sense the difference but there isnt much that can be done about it...atleast if I know about it, I can expect less and be less disappointed right??...if things are already going this way from now, what would happen in the future-I guess we can only wait and see for the future is an mystery gift which only opens itself when the right time arrives....

Seriously, I wish that I could just bring them with me go off to some other place whereby we could be free of all this but this is a totally impossible wish because try as you like, relations and bonds are something that you can never run away from......It S*CKS!!!

What can we take on trust
in this uncertain life? Happiness, greatness,
pride - nothing is secure, nothing keeps.
~Euripides, Hecuba

It's been long.....

It's been a while since I last blogged.....frankly speaking I guess the reason would be that my life is seriously going in a monotone direction currently that I an unable to find anything to blog about. I am spending everyday at home, doing nothing but housework...and that's all there is to it.

At times, it feels nice as I relaxed and such but at other times, it just gets too boring when there is nothing to do and nothing on TV as well...even my mom has started to feel bored nowadays....thinking of getting cable.....

At least previously, there were driving lessons that kept me occupied for a few days of the week-the day of the lesson and 2 days before and after the lesson. I still remember that I used to be scared going for the lesson because I didn't really like being scolded by him and I was kinda scared of driving the car but as the lessons progressed, I started looking for to driving and enjoyed it but still hated the scolding part as usually, I was getting scolded for repeating the same mistakes or going slow....and the scoldings would keep ringing in my mind for the days after the lesson...Hmmmm, but now that I have got my license[which I still am not able to believe and am totally over the moon for though I cant rent a car and drive it around], there seems to be not much fun things left to look ahead for.

As much as I would like to go out at the last minute, I am unable to do so for the following two reasons:
-Friends are busy working their ass off unlike me....
-Seating at home has resulted in my bank balance dipping like mad






Thankfully, there is at least the planning for Mita's part for which I can be a lil excited but even that is on hold currently as we are unable to do much without having her see and decide....so we have to wait for her to get back from her lil holiday.........

Seriously...it really is getting boring but though I have complained and yakked so much about it, at times, I am grateful for the lifestyle I am currently leading as I get to take life at a pace which otherwise, I would not be able to do so.....So I guess I am just gonna shut up and ENJOY IT WHILE IT LASTS......

Videos...

Once again-m hooked to vids and these are the current ones on repeat:-

Paisa Paisa, De Dana Dan...tis movie was shot in Spore...so its cool to see familiar surroundings in the movie:-


Watched this movie Jaan-E-Mann and this three songs r so captivating....they r damn n nice n happenin.....:-







Am sure all tis vids are a treat for Rac as there is Salman Khan in every single 4 of them....hahaha

My Sexy.....

Ok can I just say for the nth number of time that I am totally in love wif my nephew-My Sexy Baby....totally head over heels in love with him....I guess the best thing was that when I went to his house n saw him after almost 3 months, he still recognized me and didnt cry when I carried him...the next time, when he came over-he didnt cry when I was playin wif him as well and the most best thing was today....I carried him when we went to fetch him n he stayed wif me thruout, occasionally gg to his mom n granny...but the most touching thing was tat he totally stayed with me....it felt so nice n comfortable....and thruout, I was talking to him n the best wud be when he shaked his head in response to what I said....I am seriously in love wif this Angel........

Babies are truly angels sent to Earth...their smallest action beings upon a smile to everyones face...their smile can melt the most stony hearts.......totally beautiful gifts.....

I got It!!!

Was so happy when he said you passed. I actually didnt hear him the first time and said-Sorry? -You passed. -OMG!! Thank You so much!! Kinda stupid response eh...but when he gave me the paper and I walked out, I looked like an ass smiling to myself...was so happy calling up and smsing dear ones to tell them abt it....A imp person was missin as shes abroad....suprisingly, while awaiting to watch the video-met up wif Sec school mate Ron...It was nice meeting someone unexpectedly.......

The TP ppl really know how to get to you....Just when you are on top of the moon, smiling and laughing non-stop, crying tears of joy, they send you to watch a video which shows you gory images...but I guess in a way, it is the right time to show you as its betta to learn early....

Am just so happy and thankful to GOD for being truly gracious to me and blessing you thoroughly!!! Am just still in disbelief tat I have got it and am now wondering-WHAT NOW??

Driving.....

Right now, I am so very freaking out about it all....the days are totally creeping up .....Yesterday was the most horrible lesson ever-got so much scolding, as if the scoldings from all the lessons got accumulated and were blown off at me yesterday.....haha well, at least today was much better, at least the car didnt have to die 3-4 times...haha I killed the car 3-4 times yesterday...haha........Well, am keepin my fingers crossed.....

Along with that, I hope to get it-I really want it!!! I mean this is something that can please both my parents and me-Please GOD!!!

Life's Lessons

While thinking back on the sms that she had sent me, I decided to rethink why did I even type out such an sms to her in the first place. As I reread the sms that I had sent to her, I realised that whatever I had typed was exactly how I was feeling......to tell the truth, I dont feel it a bad thing actually since feeling this way actually made me feel better because this way, I stopped having the childish thought which I have had till now...In a way, I can say that I have matured...I have stopped having expectations and believing because they have led to nothing but disappointment and also because actually believing just lead me being in pain...all the expectations and trust that I had towards them lead to nothing more than them just turning their backs at me, stabbing me in the back, calling me a liar and such on......Thankfully, with the way that I am feeling right now, I can simply say-WADEVA without feeling a tinge of pain my heart .....

Life is said to be a bed of rose,
I have slept on this bed and experienced the most beautiful smells and dreams.
However, I have bleed as well on this same bed of roses,
as I was pierced by the thorns which had always been there but I chose to not look at.
Having gone through both the pain and joy, I feel myself becoming more matured along with armouring myself to prevent myself from being pierced again.

Will the protection that I am taking from being pierced lead me to becoming an unfeeling person towards them? This I do not know and frankly, I cant be bothered because I know that in the end, I am nothing more than a person for them to put the blame on as well as a person for them to ridicule....You laugh at me just because I am a quiet person who does not voice out, I say that its your stupidity to think this way because something that you do not expect can be just a time bomb ticking away before exploding....
I know myself the best and I know the reason why I choose to take it in myself instead of voicing out, an action which hurts a lot and yet I continue to do it....I realise the reason is simply because I love them and do not want them to be hurt because of me. However, just because I am quiet, I am not an idiot nor a simpleton...I take in all the things that are happening around me and this better helps me to figure out the type of person you are.....
In the end, I find out that even though the word is one whereby you should be feeling comforted, I find myself not being able to think about being there and fitting in with one and all....Instead, I feel like an outsider and I suppose-that is how I have been treated by them....Well, WHATEVER.....it is not like I am ever going to living there.........
Sometimes, I feel like whether I even want to here, where I am.....Well, if things go wrong with 'Him' as well, I guess I would really consider going off to a place where I can be free of all these things, though it would mean leaving my life behind.....
Words such as 'family' and phrases such as 'helping each other out in times of need' are nothing more than a few letters put together=MEANINGLESS!

Missing Home....

Wow-Cant believe that Bhaiya ald left for India...suprisingly, I did not shed a tear-I guess the reason is that I am holding onto the believe that he is going to be back in a jiffy, say a week or two.

I really miss India-it seems like everyone but me is going back....I mean-yea I had went there for a few days but come on, going back after 5 years...a few days isnt sufficient at all......
I keep remembering my family....Come to think about it, I guess I have the closest attachment to India Buas family of all, from dads side that is.....I seriously love this family of 5:
-Phufa and the sarcastic things that he says that just cracked us up sumtimes...
-Indu Bua and the way she wud be laughin at lil things when we were going out and the way she is always there......
-Monu Bhaiya~fav~...everything abt him from top to toe is loved by me!!! He is jus my dearest Bhaiya!!!
-Sonu Bhaiya~buddy~...apparently, my slacker buddy has currentl left n gone to India, it always felt nice when he wud sweep n I moped, he helped me to realise a dream of mine=sum1 helping me wif the housework
-Bittu Bhaiya~the cool dude~haha, BB is just CUTE!! Seriously...compared to the prev visit, he has totally grown up tis time and it always feels very nice chatting with him online...

He is Gg

I cant believe that Cuz is gg back to India-NOOOO!!!! It is gonna be such a diff feeling without our older bro ard. I hated myself for the weak form that took over me when I heard the news-the form whereby I was constantly on the verge of tears and I am really thankful for the words that he said upon coming back home..I am really hoping he comes back damn soon and am keeping my fingers crossed for tom....

I also hope that with whats gonna happen, history would not repeat itself and I pray that nothing like the two prev ones happen wif this one..

This year is really going bad......

Mehndi For Sheetal Di

Recently, had done mehndi for Sheetal Didi as she prepared to fast for Karwa Chauth. Jus got the pics from here....... Haha, I feel such an beginner:-





I messed up on her left leg as that was when Shushil was asking me to rush.....Haha...sucky eh...but personally, I like how I did for her right leg....

Videos...

Once again, I am hooked to watching Vids online and this r the few tat r jus on the repeat list, for now,...This is wad happens when U have nothing to do-U becum a com addict=

Songs of movies:-






Ajay Devgan looks so cool wif tis diff avatar:-


Wow-Seeing Preity Zinta after so long....


This is the movie tat was shot in Spore:-

Movie

For the very first time, we went for a movie as a family. Went to watch All The Best n this film is totally marvelous-its a nonstop laughter marathon...it was totally worth it......

Happy Diwali!!

Wow-so soon n Diwali is here....hmmmm well, no matter how we celebrate it here, truthfully speaking, nothing can beat celebrating Diwali or any festival for that matter of fact in India!!! I still remember celebrating Diwali in India 5 years ago and that was totally the best.....
Well, we still celebrated and for tat, wud let the photos do the talking....

Our very first whole family photo....

The fella who got soaped

Me wif missing hands?!? ... haha

The bacha party...

Pushover

Recently, due to whatever has been happening, I have been thinking and I realised that people actually take me to be a pushover esp over there-a person who wud do wad u tell them to do. Yea I accept the fact that if a family member or a fren asks me to do sumthing, I wud do it only if it is within my means. However, it seems that people, esp over there take me to be some sorta of an idiot given the fact that I dont speak up and such....
Take for example this conversation-
Me: How does A know abt this issue? I tot noone this side noes abt it?
M: I dont. Since she knows, sum1 must have told her.
The next day, on the phone-
M: P was asking how does A know abt this issue?
She: I dont know. Must be P who shud have told her.

Ok, like taking this conversation as an example-what wud u interpret from whatever has been said above?!? For me, the whole thing felt so stupid! I mean-Come On! If I had told her, why the F*** wud I be asking?!? Seriously Stupid thing......From this, I know that she is the one who told since only she knew abt it....and to push the blame on me???-Screw this......

I am glad that at least one person, apart from me is seeing the positive side of me taking a break. I was so happy when she said to me -take this time that you have to groom yourself-take care of your hair and yourself as well.....I was really happy when my dear said that...but the following thing she said instantly made me pass the phone back to my mom....Marriage!!

Ok-I mean wads up with that??!!?? I didnt really realise that once one matures, this becomes an constant topic. Ok-while we are at it...the K fast is coming up-the one whereby the wife fasts the whole day w/o water and food for her husbands longevity....Not that I am against this kinda fasting thing and all but thinking thru it....I realise that all this thing is backdated. I mean its ok to fast and all but why only the wife?? The same for Rakhi-I learnt this year that the sis must fast for her bro till the stated time..Ok-why only the sis??!!?? This is why I say that this thing is backdated. As compared to last time whereby the woman used to stay at home and take care of house thigns only, woman have now stepped out to work and are at the same level as the men.....so why do only the female gender need to fast and that oso, the females fast only for the males-son, brother and husband...there is no such thing whereby one fasts for their daughter....BIASNESS!!!!!

Seriously...I don really care that much abt all this things...but if I were to have to do it, I wud make sure that the other party, for whom the fast is, does it with me!!

What is ur opinion abt this????

Marina Barrage Outting

Ok apparently the flu bug seems to be spreading around the house esp wif Dad and Anshu catching it and passing on...Was feeling so tired and lethargic during tuition yesterday and I kept sneezing non-stop, and the dear student of mine called me a Devil!!!-reason being that I give too much homework?!?

Well, met up wif the Mynah and B***h at Marina Barrage. It was steaming hot-totally! Was perspiring non-stop! Well the one thing that I have learnt from India trip is to always have a hankie with you-it does a much more better job than tissue paper......
Well: it was cam-whoring time, which was more or less the reason that we went there apart from meeting up...haha ....well it was great fun taking the pics but being the stiff person I am, most of my pics turned out so bad that I look like an idiot in them......

After wandering around and all-we went off to see the movie-FAME! It is damn nice and very very sweet n inspiring kinda movie, I guess to me the main thing learnt from the movie is to discover what u r capable of and keep heading towards your destination no matter whatever obstacles you face, whether big or small-Just keep moving On!



The pics taken during Marina Barrage outting:-

scenery...
Well, turns out tat I love shots of water....so here are a few:-
love this fountain...

totally in love with this shot-wud be so perfect w/o the construction sign behind..

loves...

loves once again...

Well, turns out tat Nisa has some sorta obsession wif legs/feets, so here are pics of our feets....

Our shoes/sandals...

In the water...

Footprints of the 3 of us...

Photos of Us: Tall, Grande and Venti

Ok, I so don look like myself here....posing and all, haha...

Me and Rac under the water...

Us two again...playing wif water..

Finally, the three of us....

Pics of Jus Me:-

Me, wearing the Mynahs shades....

In the water :D

After having got splashed at by the Mynah-Rac took this shot of me....hmmm the drop from the nose looks stupid....

Kicking and getting myself wet...

Splashing and getting myself wet...

lazing around....

This looks stupid I guess??? haha.....

My fav pic of the lot of myself.....totally love this pic!!!!

Photos for BB

Bittu Bhaiya-my very first cuz bro for whom I tied Rakhi in India, which I also celebrated there for the first time ever. Haha, frankly speaking as compared to the prev trip, BB has matured and grown up alot becos all I can rmb of the prev trip is that he used to bully me a lot but this time, he was very much nicer and very brotherly.......


He came down to Reyav and was the first one to whom I tied since he did it early at ard 2....Haha worse thing was when he asked me to sing!-I tot he was joking but apparently not and luckily for me, I had my S. Mausi-who became my rep and sang for me......haha the song which Rosy so cutily sang and danced to at night....

Bittu Bhaiya-these r all the Rakhi pics that I have.....I am awaiting to receive from u-Which I hope had better be SOON!!!!!!

Other pics wif BB in it....

Cant believe tat I look like so dumb in this pic......

Hmm the single pic I took wif him turned out to be corrupted.........only the one wif him turns out this way...haha....I still cant forget the way he and Gollu Bhaiya went to buy the tea cups and they came back so happily wif the huge ones and had to go and make another round....



Frankly speaking, its really cool tat Buas house has internet now. At least we can chat and best of all is webcam and in this way, the missing feeling is less painful as am able to see them, smiling and running about and even got to see MB being made into a cook and his chowmin, which he didnt make for me-humph! Haha, at this times, one is really thankfully to technology.....

Miss u guys lots!

Suprised!

Mita is going India! WOW-this is totally sudden and what is even more surpising is that she actually stays in Barhalganj, Gorakhpur!!! The reason for this being suprising is that my dear fren of 13 years actually stays in the same city as me and at the same town as the place where I am familiar with and I get to know it only now......cool eh? Haha...but cool thing is that she is gonna go during the chilly time....November!

Hmmm...my two dear frens not being ard for my bday....I wonder if this actually indicates sumthing......haha...

Ok well, Navaratri has started and once again, my -it- has coincided and am unable to pray but atleast wud be able to attend the haven........

I have no idea as to what is it with it but its my third time within 2 mths.....hmmmm, I wonder wads up with that....

Birthday Wishes

Happy Birthday to Nan Shi!!
Am missing my partner so much..have yet to see her ever since I came back from India..have to meet up soon and go out, k? Jurong Point is waiting for us, haha!

Birthday Wishes

Birthday Wishes to the Mynah who turned 21!! Wow......the key to freedom..haha finally attained by the doink eh.....

Haha-Happy birthday Girl!!!

Moving On.....

In the end-I can just and always only remember this saying=No matter how much you do, in the end, it always falls short! Reason being, this saying totally applies to my life in a perfect way..I always plan or rather hope for my life to go one way and another thing happens that forces it go another totally different and unexpected way....

-I had planned to go JC. However, I ended up doing Poly.
-I had planned on going to India while awaiting the Olevel results. However, I ended up staying here and working.
-I had planned on doing the early edu course. However, I ended up doing Banking n Finance.
-I had planned on going Uni. However, I ended up having to apply for it next year.
-I had planned on going to India in Nov and enjoying myself all the way till Feb. However, I ended up going in Aug and staying only for a month, that also following her around, having to listen and bear with it as she said whatever she wished to others without caring abt moi feelings.....marvelous, aint it-nothing changed despite the fact that I actually followed her cos she was being depressed n worried each day-so abt the thing that I want=Who gives a F*** abt it na?

With all that has happened and all, I guess I am now just to scared to even think or imagine about my future....I really have totally no idea as to what tom holds for me because anything that I am hoping to happen, isnt happening at all-WHY???!!???

I worked so hard and in the end, it all came to naught. The reason being that in the end, all that matters to them is:-
-the fact that I am totally wasting a year, when I shud have worked myself hard enuf to be able to secure a place in Uni
-the fact that other peoples sons are able to get admission letters from two unis and I am at home
Amazing isnt it that now, they are different ppl popping up for them to compare me to whereas last time, there used to be the other Pooja and the reason that she is no longer being dragged into the picture is because she is working?!?

Seriously, why must there be competition, where must there be the talk that this persons son/daughter is doing this, this and this etc.??? I mean, everyones life is different, why just two totally different people be compared with each other? Why cant the fact that the person himself/herself is working hard enuf be a thing to consider???
Why is it that they can look at all the above mentioned things and yet forget about how I used to study to ensure that I cud get thru my ICAs and Exams, why cant they look at the matter that I used to score good marks that placed me the top in class sometimes and congratulate me for that? Why cant they look at the matter that I used to do projects until I wud just totally lose it and start snapping away? Why dont all this things matter to them?
Why can they only see that I am wasting away a year and make me out to be a bad example to the two of them? Why cant it be viewed as an opportunity for me to be able to take a step back and relax? Why cant I be able to do and get wad I want? When I wanted to go for a break, they made me work and when he wanted to work, they sent him on a break-wheres the fairness in this???
All this just because of us belonging in a society which has nothing better to do than to compare one another and bad mouth those who dare to step out and life their own life........Screw this......

Frankly speaking, I am seriously and really damn sick and tired with this whole thing-I guess the reason that I have been whining to my friends about going back to India is because I desire, crave and want a break from all this thats currently going on....I really want a break-GIVE ME A BREAK! This is why everyday, I keep thinking about India and craving to go back....I really wanna go BACK!!!


I jus wan a person with whom I can just blabber out everything and let it all out....I jus want a good cry....

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Ok.....its been a while since I blogged...its been 2 weeks since I came back to S'pore and yet my mind and soul is still back in India, my home......I have no idea why but I seriously seriously wanna go back-it cud be due to the fact that I met all my relatives after 5 long years or it cud be due to the reason that my whole family is there except the two cuz sis and cuz bro...........

Frankly speaking, I can still remember the amount of excitement I had for the wedding of my cuz sis's as this meant for the both of them that they got to come to Singapore and for us, it meant having another family member here and yet, they came, got settled and the years went by and yet, there felt no difference that I now have two cuz's here...it felt no different from them not being here....maybe it cud be due to the reason that I was expecting things from them....was I expecting too much??
The happiness of having an older sister or brother is really marvelous-I was so excited about them that I would now have someone older then me, we can go out for movie, dinner or just outtings together......the days, weeks and even months passed by and no such thing happened....

At least thankfully, Sonu bhaiya also came over and at least now it's kinda better as compared to him not here.....we have another sibling with us...it feels nice.....

I really miss home:-

>I miss Nana scolding and the way I fed him the cashew nuts [he's so cute]
>I miss Nani getting and grinding henna for us, and her always asking me to put oil on my hair as well as the way she wud always say abt how we siblings leg is the same as our dad and not our mom's....
>I miss Sabitha Mausi naggin us about housework and the way she wud be calling and saying "Ae Bai/Ho"
>I miss Bala Mausi scolding Pullu {having ganged up wid Golllu as the poor girl literally sat in between} as well as her laughter and the way she played wif the doll
>I also miss my Mamas and Mamis......
>I miss my darling sis Pullu, who was my partner thruout the trip, I miss eating from the same plate as her, I miss the sisterly love I had for her as I "protected" her
>I miss the noisy Bulbul as well as the nonstop talker Rosy..I miss these two dearies who nonsense wud get on our nerves sometimes as well as bring a smile onto our faces
>I also miss Puru for the cute moments he had as he wud purposely tease me and act innocent.....
>I miss my lil cuz Sebbu, Ayush, Nikki and the newest addition-Baby bro=playing and just doing nonsense stuff wif them
>I miss my INDU BUA!!! I miss the way she put oil on my head and gave such a heavenly massage and I just miss her!
>I miss my dearie MB!!! I miss the way he was teasing Pullu, I miss watching or rather channel surfing the TV wif him, I miss his saying "Teri To" and most of all, I miss riding on the bike with him
>I also miss Bittu Bhaiya and his nonsense talking and the way he was constant busily running about the whole day
>I miss the adorable Gollu Bhaiya, and him having come down all the way from Patna to meet us, even missin his lessons for it and the way he tried to make me stop calling him Bhaiya..for tat I still have some getting use to do....well-time would tell>I also miss my Aunty, Uncle and not forgetting the dearie Babita Bua!! It was nice meeting and all..

Seriously, I really feel going back.....is there anyway for that happen...I WANNA GO HOME.............