The Countdown is going to begin-Time for Madness

The days are flying by and soon, 5th March is going to come by....though the days would be whizzing by again[hopefully], I can visualise these upcoming 20 days plus to be HORROR esp with what he expects me to do[and if I don't do, I would die anyway]!! I know that it is to be expected of me with that kind of thinking but come on, be fair! I have attachment to go to, so does cuz and bro has to go to school.....all of us are gonna be gone for 3/4 of the day then why only me? Already I know that my weekends are going to be burned up with chores and everything, then he expects me to burn up my weekdays relaxing time also....I am so gonna die for these few days...already I am not going to be able to go out with the Zoo animals and anything then all these...............I am going MAD-Please HELP me, Someone!!!!!!!!

Separation of Ways

All these 10 years, my brother and I have been traveling the same path...we went to the same Primary, Secondary and even same Hindi School....however now, it is time for separation....just as a young animal sets out to make it in the world by itself, both of us have chosen a different set of paths....kind of sad actually.....all these while, could talk to him about the school and everything but now....he is entering JC and I am gonna complete my Poly education.....well, to my bro-Ash, Mano and sis-Ruchi-All the Best to you guys in your endeavor.

It's kind of sad now that our primary and secondary education days are all over.......but I am very happy with the schools I have been enrolled in and got posted to:-

Beng Wan Primary School: Though the school is no more there, it is a habit of mine to look over the area where my school used to be cause with it attached a lot of fond and interesting memories, a place where I experienced a lot of things for the first time.
Outram Secondary School: haha, it is such a treat to see my school again and moreover on TV! OSS is the shooting place for the School House Rocks [Singapore's first musical being shown on Kids Central currently at 11 a.m every Sundays]

Seriously speaking, OSS is the best secondary school to get posted to. It is the only Government School in Singapore to have a Swimming Pool as well as the best teachers for POA and English which anyone can ever wish for......Ms. You Kim Choo and Mr. DT [Derek Tan]-Just miss them a lot especially dear Mr. DT....the fear and everything he had instilled in us to teach us ENGLISH is one of a kind.....

Moreover, OSS has also produced notable alumnis like:

• Wong Kan Seng, current Minister of Home Affairs and Deputy Prime Minister of Singapore.
• Gurmit Singh, host and comedian in Singapore. Gurmit Singh is best known for starring in a Singaporean sitcom, Phua Chu Kang Pte. Ltd as Phua Chu Kang
• Irene Ang, a Singaporean actress and comedian.
• Dawn Yip, a singer turned entrepreneurer who is one of the founders of Jean Yip Group, one of the largest hairdressing chains in Singapore.
• Wee Kim Wee, former president of Singapore.
• Chua Kim Yeow, ran for first elected Presidency elections

And finally, Hindi School...a place where I just hated to go...seriously speaking, till this day I am awed at how I can have passed my Hindi all the way from Pri1 to O's.....cause till now, I can't differentiate between the vowels......haha well, GOD has been very gracious to me because Hindi School is where I found friends like Mita and Poonam......and also experienced a very strange experience for the whole 10 years!

Well, all said....everything has been done and is all over..no matter what-Time would never rewind itself ever again. Life is a journey whereby you have to walk and make choices along the way.....whatever choices you make, you have to bear with the consequences, face any storm and continue your journey because life is a never ending road...you keep walking on until the day comes whereby you have to leave the world.....Enjoy every moment of today because this time, second and moment would never ever repeat itself again no matter how much one would wish!

Weekends

OMG going to work on Saturday really makes one sad.....and to think that you have to come back to work on Sundays.....that is so much more worse....this office hours things are killing me-I so don't wanna be spending away my life going to work the whole day and the sight of crying children makes it so much more worse........at least for most us of this generation, we had our mothers sending us to school and all but nowadays is like so much more worse-the poor children hardly get to see their children.....instead of at least mothers sending them to school, nowadays it is either maid or the grandparent.............it's just sad to see them crying and all that.....Haiz, but this is life nowadays..............Saw Aetbaar on yesterday........OMG the movie was just so very nice....it was so sweet and everything....the love story was sweet but the way John Abraham was a mad maniac.....really very interesting but I guess it was the parent child relationship that was the best part of this movie....

Anyway, it's countdown to HOLI....am so excited about that-last year, wasn't able to go and the best part about the whole event was that I got to see "HER" on tv...the horror was really OMG and the thing is that I heard she is performing this year-that's another OMG.........
Anyhow, am glad that this year would be able to go-can be with the two sweeties and am trying to get my Zoo animals to come along but I hardly have any expectations except from them...some already have plans and I don't think the rest would be interested in the idea of getting all coloured and travelling in the public transport looking like a clown!
Still remember the holi celebrations in 2006-it was so funny.......an unknown guy just came around and put colour on us and ran away....haha and Beena's new found friend-OMG haha he and she were both so cute. Can't wait for holi to come and thankfully it would be on Saturday....haha. Sad thing is that Parents and lil bro would get to celebrate Holi in India....it's like getting the real taste...seriously I would love to celebrate one whole year in India to celebrate all the festivals.....hopefully that day would come..........
Haiz, anyway....today is going to be spent doing dad's work and after that, would spend a few hours and then, the new work week would start again!!!

Am so sad and everything that the time for their departure is coming so soon...though it is for a short period, it is still very hurting and more sad is the thing that I can't go for her wedding at all-the one and only wedding I had been waiting for and that's the wedding that I can't go for at all.....but at least I am in another country,isn't it worse to be unable to go for your sisters wedding despite being in the same country as her?-Haiz, Didi....your wedding is at such a time where non of the sisters from your maternal side can attend-it's all a part of destiny.........

For some reason, I am just feeling so tied up, irritated, angry and freaked up............I am just so sick and tired of relationships and the way people are......
-She is just so distanced from us...Why so?-Ego of belonging to a rich family? And to think that I had so much expectation when I heard of your arrival....everything has been shattered and now, I only have HATRED for you....there are a lot of people I despise and all but no one like you....The tot just hurts that despite being in a small and accessible country, I, being an aunt, don't feel like-I couldn't even celebrate my niece's b'day and to think I was waiting for it.......
-I know that you were disappointed but I though you would understand me, instead even you thought of me to be weak before hearing my reasons....I tot we were close and all but you let one event just come stand in between....I apologise to you and that's all I can do....it's up to you to accept the apology and make things to normal...or we can just continue on as strangers this way-with an awkward feeling.......
-I regarded you as my dearie and yet this is how you were with me...it just hurt me so much whenever you are like tat.....I tot you would understand me but how can you,when you never listen to me....I know everyone is different and everything but the way you act with me, I guess that is another reason why I am still so not confident. I want to regain my self-confidence and yet with the way you treat me, my self-confidence just drops......I take you to be someone very close to me, a sister even but I guess I don't have that much of a special spot in your life do I?

With all these feelings and happenings, I am happy that at least I have my Rabbit-thanks so much for calling me and all-it just means so much to me..............I guess throughout my whole life, I have been so made used of that now I am scared and yet, it is happening again-When you need me, I am there for you but you don't really care about me when there is no need for is there?-Thanks a lot for that,my 'FRIENDS'.

F*CK, why can't I learn to let go expectations from you and everyone? Why do I think that people actually care about me as much as I care about them when in reality, I am just a tool being used.....Why can't I learn to become selfish? Why do I hang on to the tot that Help others and others would help you? Why am I like this?-Well, I am just gonna hang on to the tot that all this is happening to me because GOD definitely has something in store for me...........I HOPE and I PRAY......

Life keeps going........

IPP

I am so so so TIRED! This is really very exhausting and time is freaking slow at work yet it speeds up when am at home or when am sleeping. When I see the children, all I wanna do is CRY! I wanna be home. I wanna sleep on Saturdays and wake up to watch my Cartoons! Though I know that I would miss all this when it ends, for now, I want my REST! I feel as if I have no time at all! I have to cramp so many things. Got plans on friday to go out, get my brother's specs made, go to the airshow and make my dad's invoice-out of all this, I think I can only get my bro's specs fixed and make my dad's invoice! OMG this is so much of a headache and this is the result when I am keeping to office hours, I wonder what would happen when I would be like those office people having to work till late night........OMG, the day is growing shorter by the seconds.............haiz and going for lunch alone is very DEPRESSING. The only place I have been going to is the Round market. Saw KFC today and am still looking for Sweet Talk-Would find that tomorrow hopefully. Time seriously goes by very slow during office hours........Oh Wells, hoping for the best................................That's all I can do...............

Again, again and again....

I don't why it always happens to me........

I guess have been too mood up staying at home they whole day with this stupid swollen eye of a goldfish! It's not painful yet it hurts.... painful is the thought that I am already on MC on my second day of work.......and the stupid doctor's medicine isn't working at all...

Anyway, the more painful thing is the fact that she doesn't seem to understand me at all........anything she says-I am getting irritated with it....I mean-I think maybe it was stupid of me to suggest it to her[I should learn how to do things myself] and the fact that I just asked her a question and I get shot back at![Can't I even ask a question?-I mean it's just that One should always try new things isn't it? But NO!].....Seriously-now I am in a WHATEVER mood! I don't know-Maybe it could be the fact that I don't understand you till now and you know what, maybe I am not interested in doing so at the moment......I just don't know why-just the thought of it brings back all the old memories ....though I maybe quiet, I may still hold grudges.....this is the type of person I am...............

Haiz, I just don't understand myself!

Anyway, great news is that BRO is back.....haha Finally-it's gonna be time for Pictures!!!

Malaysia Outing

Woohoo.....went to Malaysia today with Mom, Lil Bro and Reka. Met then took bus together. Quite a smooth and fast journey there. Upon reaching, bro started with his nonsense. Went to City Square and the first shop he goes is Action City and then after that, he goes to the arcade to play the snowboarding game.....after that, Reka and I checked out the shop to find out that it wud be 'opening' at 12 noon. So, we go to Kota Raya Shopping Centre. We looked around, walked around and all that and bought lots of stuff.....Then we went to eat at Ayya Restaurant. Great and delicious food at very reasonable price-all four of us ate the plain rice set [huge amt of rice wif 2 veg, dhal and a sweet drink] with three side ordering of chicken caused us oni 26RM. After eating lunch, went to buy sweet and then we made our way back to City Square. After that, mom and bro sat at Marry Brown while Reka and I made our way to the hairdresser. Once again, REDS was closed. So, we went to FOX instead. It was quite an interesting experience.It felt so totally weird to have someone else washing my hair for me! Seriously, wanted to say-'Hey, leave it, wud do myself!' haha....after that, was the drying part! OMG the way he pulled-OUCH OUCH! Anyway, after that he cut my hair and then pulled and blowed it straight! Oh Man...anyway, after that was watching Reka get her hair cut haha. Her Cuz had come over and it turns out the guy working there was the cuz of that cuz-literally small world yea? haha. Anyway, Reka's transformation was like-WOW.....her Maggi mee was straight mee! LoL.....seriously-the way they pulled and made it to the end outcome-Power.....haha ...after that, Reka went shopping wif her cuz while Mom,Bro and me went shopping for toys! Then we made our way back and the CROWD! OMG-HORROR....haiz seriously it was like a scene from fishmongers!After all that, was HOME SWEET HOME!

At the ArcadeBro on the swing at Marry Brown-Just experiencing it

Reka's Hairdo and makeover!Mom and Bro at Marry BrownMe-haha....can't believe i took such a photo but ya!hahaReka's Hairdo........Us-Camwhoring...hahaReka wif Bro

Letter For MB[Monu Bhaiya]

Hello Bhaiya, really hope you are reading this.....haha can't imagine you sitting and reading my blog while being in school.....haiz, anyway, ab to letters or sab stop ho gaye.....phone bhi utna nahin hota hai or whenever phone hota hai, hasane ke siwa, mujhe aur kuch aata hi nahin hai. Kabhi jab chalti hoon ya tv dekhti hoon to sochti hoon ki next time aap se baat karungi, to yeh ya woh kahun gi lakin jab bhi baat hota hai, sab kuch bhool jati hoon-haha I don't know why it happens like this but it happens everytime and always! Anyway, it's been so long since I met you and miss you so much!! Haiz, seriously almost going to be 4 years already and even now, there seems to be no meeting in sight. Anyway, like I always have been saying, fast saadi kariye taaki aane ka bahana mile to! Haha, lakin woh bhi to aabhi nahin dekh raha hai aapke liye, aabhi to aap study kar rahe hain uske baad 1-2 years ka kaam....toh yeh bahana aane ka to main bhool hi sakhti hoon,na? Anyway, remember celebrating my 15th brithday and deepavali with you guys. Haha, the joke u played and everything is like memory mein hamesa ke liye printed hai....seriously bhaiya, mere nazer say-life bahut hi ajib hai, so karna chahein, woh ho nahin sakta, so paana chahein, woh pa nahin sekte or jo chahein, woh to kabhi nahin milta.....lakin jo na chahein, woh milte hai or use ke hisab se yea life chalti hai na? haha, ok bahut hi philosophical ho rahin hoon.....ok, aur kya kahun? hmm, aaj kal aap baat bahut karte hain phone par-haha poor sonu bhaiya...woh phone aap ko kiye aur aap mujhse 30-45mins baat kiye....haha guess, naya surroundings to saab kuch naya aur ajib ho ga na? Actually, aap log lucky is baat mein ki aap logo ko different places aur akele rahne ka experience milta hai....haha ok, aab or kuch hain aa raha hai likne ko-SO, Take care, Get well soon and All the Best for you Exams!!!

Bluffmaster

Saw the movie-Bluffmaster today. The thing about this movie is that it is seriously very nice in the manner that it teaches about the reality of life. It tells about how life works-with people being out there just waiting to con us! The thing about all of us being like FISHES is like so true.....we are always swimming around and are occasionally caught 'Conned' by the attractive fish line lying in front of us! Also, we know how many days we have lived but no one knows how many days we have left to live but once we do know, all of a sudden it feels like there is so much left to do.

Like how Ah Meng, the poster girl of Singapore Zoo died so unexpectedly, it makes one wonder that life is just so freaking unexpected. When we went to the Zoo on 17 Dec, she was so active and poor Charlie was the one we felt sorry for and it turns out that she dies......only at the age of 48 some more.

Haiz, seriously, all these happenings seriously freak me out and make me wonder-If I were to die all of a sudden [touch wood], would I be happy or would I be leaving with regret? I guess, as I always have been saying, am gonna do whatever my heart desires.....From now, I am gonna live for myself-I don't care if that makes you think that I am weak or whatever, if it leaves you disappointed-I am sorry. Though life is full of choices, there are also opportunity cost for everything-One can't be happy with whatever they do because the opportunity cost would always be pulling them down......

Would leave you with this saying-"How many special days of your life do you remember? Life tastes the sweetest when death is at your doorstop."

Did a photo collage of myself-to show that my life revolves around myself with my family in the middle [Thanks a lot to Inspiration from Reka's gift by Dhinesh-hope u don't mind Rabbit]

Family Outing

Today, my family and I went out to eat lunch. After long deliberation and everything, we finally went to Jalan Kayu! It was so freaking crowded. We had to wait a while before we got seats and after that, it was indulging into the food......then after that, on the way home, Dad brought us to see the Seletar Airport! It was so fun seeing the mini sized airplanes but it was also so COOL! Then after that, we were at this place where on the right hand side was clean and green water and on the left hand side was the expected murky sea water...It was just so amazing....After not being able to decided where to go, we headed home....then suddenly, Dad turned and brought us to see the Haunted House at Punggol. It was really freaky and still not having recovered from the haunted story from Priya, I was really freaked out....seriously it was just so spooky.........Anyway, after that was Home Sweet Home!

On the way to Seletar Airport:Saw Mini Planes......behind is one which was getting its hind tail repaired

Get a look of this....on the right hand side was the reservoir and on the left hand side was the sea....

Pictures of Right Hand Side

Pictures of Left Hand Side

Pictures of "Haunted House" at Punggol

The way the world is becoming complicated.....just look at the tracks.

Finally, Home Sweet Home-Which is so deserted [for now]

Send-Off

Went to the airport to send Ophelie off....haiz, always sad to see someone going off especially her since we won't even know when we might see her again.....so anyway, all the best to u Ophelie and take care of yourself girl[haha if not the strict boss would fire u.....]......Here are some pics....Miss Ophelie herself.....

Some RANDOM Shots:-Final Group Pic?!Miss Rabbit wif her Husband, who is so pretty and gave us ice-cream!This is how the Monyet sits.....haha-Expected

As for my Malaysia trip.....woohoo-haha I went to Malaysia by myself[actually wif Reka and her Cuz but...]...It was so FUN!Seriously so FUN!......Waited for Reka and her cuz at Kranji then we took bus 170....at the checkpoint it was so....haha no words to describe....after that, we reached Malaysia and ..... [that's what I have to say]...We went to City Square and then it is like -erm, this is just like Singapore......anyway, after that, we went to check out the shop and turns out they had closed-WOOHOO.....U know the feeling you have...U are so excited about something and can't wait for it.....then all of a sudden, the thing doesn't happen. Haiz, this always happen to me...tell myself not to get excited as it always ends in disappointment ..but I just can't contain my excitement....haiz,there is always a next time! Anyway, after that, we went around to look at shops then after that, decided to go and have lunch at Marry Brown! OMG-SWINGS.....eating while you are seating on a SWING! It was so cool and fun! Sat there and swinged while eating then after that, we went to Kota Raya Shopping Centre[I think that is the name] and we looked around...Bought a earring and a thing for the doink and kangaroo.....then after looking around, we made our way back. Went over to Reka's house before going to Airport......her Dog, Snow scared me today! Reka opened the door and she came running out.....It's just so scary esp when she was showing off her teeth but I felt so bad tat she was scolded and had to be locked up becos of me[Sorry SNOW!].....watch Miss World 2007-haha got to say.....great source of laughter....the finalist, the types of things they did, it was just do funny!
Eg.
1) "I want to be the line between.....[she stares at the emcee and then says-] link between
XXX and the Olympics"
2) "Good Night Ladies and Gentleman" [She says this at the starting of her sentence]
3) The emcee drops her paper, says oops and waits for the contestant to pick it up-she literally
WAITS!
4) The expression of Miss China when she wins!-haha Like Reka said, very FAKE!
5) The guy emcee lays onto Miss China's shoulder
6) Miss China takes such a walk that she drops her tag-"Miss World 2007" all the way to her
legs......

Reka wif her Cuz...he is seriously very PATIENT!
Haha the words he said and everything....haha just very funny fella.
-Irresponsible
-Insensivitive....haha


Overall: A great but lil disappointing day!