WANTS or is it NEEDS?

I find myself craving/demanding for these 3 things:-




This is the first thing tat I really need damn badly. Reason being->When opp for picture taking arise, I find myself calling for my bro to take the pics=his phone cam is betta so since now he is using a non-camera phone, its totally difficult getting a decent pic wif my phone. I oso wan a camera to be able to take pics of the henna designs tat I do on Mom so tat I can start building up my collections.

This is the second thing I need-a new bed wif mattress.....My mattress is a gone case thanks to my bed frame which has spoiled the whole shape of it and the result of all this is tat I now have a major backache which hurts everyday n I feel totally like shit n like an old lady.....

A bag! This is something I can never get tired of and something which my mom is always after my neck for. I am till date, craving for a bag which can totally accomodate all the nonsense stuffs tat I carry around and something tat I can juz pick up n leave without having to ponder if it suits the outfit. For now, I have three choices but from the 3, oni Crumpler seems to be the one left..... Should I?!????

With all said n listed down, I wonder to myself do I really need all these things as in REALLY NEED them????

Being Used

When I was juz sitting n chattin away wif Mita, I realised something. When she smsed me today wif tat request- it again made me realise the same thing. I hate the idea of being used and yet, I found myself turning to her oni at these kind of needs... I felt so bad-I seriously felt like shit and was disgusted at my own actions...... I guess I din look at it this way but when I told her and apologised to her, I felt so relieved=Seriously, just opening up and taking totally cleans the air and all becomes well again.....

I have no idea why but wheneva am walking down alone or jus somewhere whereby am by myself, I keep thinking of my prev. birthday and I get a very heavy lonely feeling.... The feeling intensifies when I look @ the MNG bag I got from my babes, which is currently sitting away in a corner waiting for the day whereby my mom juz bursts n it wud disappear...... Previous birthday was one whereby it was really very quiet and I myself din even get the feeling tat it was my birthday..... I dont know why I keep thinking back to that moment just like how previously I was thinking abt the moment whereby mom n I came back from India..... Both these situations give a very depressing feeling of being alone, of not seeing something whereby u had expected to see......... I donno why

Feeling down

Wheneva the topic comes up or whenever I see Indian family with babies in stroller.....I juz get into tat sad mode... Frankly speaking, its still a very sore wound that juz burns when the slightest thing brushes against it..... No matter how strong One pretends to be, the past is always there to come up and juz stab the person once again and weaken the resolve.....

SCREW TIS!

Moving On

Frankly speaking, it came as a terrible shock. However, upon being there with her today and hearing her talk about it, I realised that in a way, it was more or a less of a better option than if that incident hadn't happened. He was there at home with his children, and went without pain. This reminded me of when Baba had passed on-his oso was a sudden and painless journey but for him, he wasn't with his family and nor had he shown any form of moving on......to think that the simple dinner I saw him having after coming back homo from outing was to be the last time I would see him-The feeling of hearing the news the next day in school was damn terrible. However, I am thankful to the aunt, who sat and told us how lucky he was to move on without any form of suffering......

I guess more or less, this is a better option though it does comes as a shock.

I am happy that three of them are strong and are continuing to move on while having a goal of fulfilling his dreams. I am pray and hope that GOD would shower them with blessings and guide them on this path..... May they be Strong and move on with strength.

Singapore Airshow

Thanks to Starshea and Nisa, I got to go to the Airshow, make a new fren-Nasri and spend a totally blasting Saturday in the company of cool Friends!!!

We went to see the Airshow and it was very coool getting to see the planes close and directly in front of us but the aerial display show wasn't really that mindblowing fantastic as it was short and only a few fighter planes n helicopters... Yet, at the same time, seeing the stunts and everything, really have to salute the pilots for being so cool and capable of doing all the things....... The exhibition part oso was interesting and being indoor and air-conditioned, it was a huge and thankful relief after being baked like mad by the hot sun while watching the aerial display.....

I got to know abt the term "Doraemon Bag". Originally when I heard about it, I tot it was a bag with the Doraemon character on it, but when Nisa explained about it, I could do nothing but laugh at myself... Star is so cute with her Doraemon bag-all the things she had in it=Being totally prepared for the unexpected!

After that, we went off and whacked on food before going to T3 and trying out the Segway. Originally, I wasn't at all interested the least bit in gettin on that thing and trying out because I was damn afraid of falling flat on my face......Nonetheless, we went and while we were queueing and waiting, there were quite a few "accidents" which totally freaked me out. Frankly, I was totally getting the tot of running off after seeing the kids collide one aft another......

I did do it in the end and am now happpy that I did it because it was quite fun and crazy and totally hilarious..... Gettin on part was kinda scary but Star's laughter was really a very good distraction.... She was so cute as she kept going back and she was laughing so cutely....... All in all, it was fun "playing" wif the 3 of them!!

A very "interesting" phrase I heard in the movie U, Me Aur Hum :-
There are 2 rules to keeping your Wife happy=
No. 1) Always fulfil all promises made to your Wife.
No. 2) Don't make any promises to your Wife!

Anshu gg for NS

Wow....Frankly speaking, the time is really passing by fast!!! Blink and its 2010, blink and its Feb already...... Well, just like that, the time for Anshu to go and train to serve his country arrived......As much as he had been preparing beforehand, the feeling really sunk in only when he started packing that=Oh Yea....He is gg off tom.......

This is a very suprising photo I must say so myself because being the type of person he is, this is considered to be very neat for his preparations for packing.....
I have no idea why but I just totally like/love this shot of him...... Haha His glasses ROCK dont they...... When we went to send him off, saw that everyone was wearing almost the same kind!!
Before setting off.....

And finally, off he sets.......

Truthfully speaking, as much as I was looking forward to him going off due to the conflicts were having frequently, I am not really enjoying it so much now that he has really went off...It just feels weird....I don't know if its because we haven't got used to it or what but the house really does seem very much lonelier now...its just weird......Oh well, luckily for him, He can come back next friday due to CNY!!!

Weird.....

Ok, I have no idea why but for the past two days, I have been constantly remembering the moment whereby Mom and I returned to Singapore, ard August 2009....
I don't know why but I keep recalling, coming to the pick up area then picking up our bags then heading out and being in a dilemma while awaiting our family to come pick us up-We couldn't make a call becos we din have any local coins and also because the handphone battery was dead........ I seriously have no idea why I keep recalling this incident....

Am just hoping that this month goes well..... All I can see is the list of my wants as well as needs growing longer and longer without any form of income coming in..... I really need a bag now.... To think that the bag I fell in love with, broke!! That oso in front of the two sexies.... The worst thing now is that its so heart breaking to think of throwin it away but tats all I can do since it cant be fixed..... Shucks......