I realise that I am such a weakling. I really break down completely whenever something happens.
-When my parents went India, I was a nerve wreck: breaking into tears anywhere and anytime. I was also sick and tired along with being moody.
-Work made me even worse....I was released at 7 and by the time I reached home[8.30-9], I got so sick of everything-basically being that I had no life!
-Then, apparently my sis and bro-in-law became hopping mad about us not attending their house-warming...-shit them!
-Then when the baby went away, it was even more worse...........
-Then, the next thing to happen was my friends becoming angry at me-and that really took its toll on me. I was really hurt and had a bag of mixed feelings....till now, it continues.

Looking at all this thing, it made me realise that the whole IPP period was a bad period for me. My life went through a whirlpool, I had to work so much extra on Saturdays and finally, what do I get?-A stupid grade!

Went to Sentosa on Friday....it was so cool especially the Sentose Luge & Skyride along with the Songs of The Sea.....the whole day was quite fun and eventful......sometimes, a lil incident makes a relationship change drastically!

Yesterday when Sonu Bhaiya was going away, the two of them like totally ignored me and I really hate when people do this to me especially when I am greeting u and u ignore me.......I shall hate you forever for that! At least, the only good thing was that I got to meet my niece and nephew-who are such devils....hardly being 5 and both are throwing vulgarities and everything....Haiz, Sonu Bhaiya is gone for 3 months...He's gonna so have "FUN" back home........Already missing him lots-like a piece of the family is missing and it is..............

Seeing him, even I was so so so so tempted to go along and I so really want to go but now that I think about it and how I am, I wonder if I would even be able to go beyond the airport myself...I don't really think I am a person who can travel alone and all by myself! We shall let time tell....

Somethings just happen and when it does happen, it happens so beyond our control.......When two people are close, the further they would drift away should they have a quarrel[which turns to the negative side]

"Dont worry about the ppl in your past..there is some reason why they didn't make it to your future.."

Understanding

Sometimes, some lil things just lead to miscommunications. Like the recent of apprentice watched-the girl was transferred to another team and all she wanted was for the guy to voice out. However, the guy did not and when she actually voices out, he fights with-the reason being: He did not understand what she meant. Basically, there was misunderstanding between them.
Frankly speaking, that seemed to be happening in real life. Sometimes, something happen and you want someone to actually speak up for you. However, when no one does-it actually hurts and hurts bad and that is actually the end of everything.

On another issue, sometimes, some people just want space. Seriously, someone should learn to get off the person's back especially if the person is younger. I mean seriously-whatever is happening to her is actually freaking me out about my future and the worst thing is that some touchy issues are being discussed.
Haiz, currently my life is just sucking really bad....with frens going away and all....I guess this is just a bad year yaar....even the IPP result was bad-the kutti gives the kutta an A and all I did went down the drain, I mean even the others got so much more of a better grade than me. Even if I were to say to her, what possibly can happen? Just give up-especially on the kutti...time to adapt and move on.......


~ When she went away, I felt less lonely but more of a distance...Feel like am treated as a stranger, someone whom people are taking pity on................I don't know wat is hapening....Seriously, even if I were to cry, would that change anything? Cos of wat I can see-no one bothers about anything at all: I wanna go home!~

Can't believe I actually went to do it but am glad to have done it though it's painful.....Particularly, I did because I had her for company. Still remember the way we fought as to who would go first....haha, She gave in and seeing her to do it-I was ready to give up but still went ahead with it and curse that lady and her counting-It's painful like mad and I guess I have to get used to it...But, I like it and like she says-she looks like a completed married woman now.......
Finally, today I got a chance to talk to him....so Happy but nothing can beat seeing him face to face....there is just something about talking to him that makes me happy thus the constant laughter be it on the phone or net.....Monu Bhaiya, seriously have missed you alot over these stretch of days and since there wasn't anything from you, thus the sms. Really can't wait to meet you face to face. It's been so long....

Hopefully, this maybe a sign for me to take things positively and however they are and to MOVE ON because whether they care or not, I have people who care for me, even though I don't know about it like Sonu Chacha....it was so sweet of him to have said it and notice it-was really touched....Can't wait to go back and see them all.......