Suddenly, as I walked, I was engulfed with a strange feeling-the feeling of being ALONE! At that moment, I freaked out, as in really freaked out and was unable to think properly.......I have no idea...Maybe I just realised that as I saw them around me................This feeling sucks-really sucks big time! I don't want to feel this way....Already, I am so scared of school and curriculum-I am so sucky and all the subjects are scaring the nerves out of me! I really wanna do well and pass properly but now, my confidence seems to be going away from me....I need a heart to heart chat desperately with a dear one but with who.....My sis-haven't been able to bond with her since she came all thanks to the lizard-seriously, that is making my overall mood even worse. I am becoming a very very moody person and yet at the same time, I am becoming forgiving to all those people who ignored me or whom I have ignored. Compared to last time, I don't mind their company at all....I guess it's because of the thing that happened-I realised...even if those whom you take as ur dear ones become strangers, why should u ignore others they way they are ignoring u?! I guess now I am listening to my mom-Don't do to others what others to do. I just can't wait for Sun-Finally, after the prayer, I would atleast get one private session with her.....I seriously need a shoulder to lean and cry on because that's all I want to do right now....

Well, ek thing to confirmed hai-Zookeeper ko Zoo mein se nikal hi gaya hai....Ouch, does it hurt......lakin phir bhi-for some reasn, mujhe is baat ka vishwas nahin ho raha hai-I don't know why.....Sabse dukhi part yeh hai ki....11 weeks 1 saal is bahut bahut bahut hi maina rakha hai...I mean-main us grp ki ek hissa nahin hoon and sadly for me, main is baat ko thik se nahin le rahin hoon-I mean, ab to hum ek room mein bhi nahin rah sakte kyonki mujhe wo sab paraye lagte hain, haiz-what to do....Let's just hope that Time would heal this would because it really is very deep..........

HEY GUYS, HAVE CHANGED MY E-MAIL ADDRESS....PLEASE ADD ME AT blue_pooj@yahoo.com.sg

P.S-Please don't open any mails received from blue_pooj@hotmail.com as of today! Thanks...

Sometimes, some things just happen and they test everything that you believe in things you didn't before.....This is the stage whereby my life is right now. After attachment, so much has happened....Basically-SCHOOL HAS STARTED. Frankly speaking, I was really very scared to go back to school on the first day because I was really scared to face the situation as in how they have changed.....However, nothing waits or changes for someone....The most memorable part was when I met Reka on that day....and I wanted to cry-the reason being: It finally felt as if I saw a friend.

But like said before, time doesn't wait for anyone nor would circumstances change for someone....so I have to adapt myself to how things are right now -Well, easier said than done.

Tuning back to reality, it has been a string of pain.....to be with ur close ones and yet no be with them. To feel a distance, a gap or a void among you guys.....to be confused as to how things have come to certain situation.....Well whatever be it, it is.

Things have really been tested to the max:
-Time is the true test of relationships: Yea, If you can't even survive 11 weeks, the future is a long and unseen stretch of road.
-Foundations are critical for relationships: If 11 weeks is enough to break everything that had been built over a period of close to a year, sufficiently, the foundation was a weak as a feather to crumble against the time of 11 weeks.

Well, it's always better to get things out of one's "chest".....well, I have done that part, now all is left is for me to accept this harsh reality and move on with the pain and so on........

Happy Birthday!!!

Here's wishing the CAMEL of our ZOO-A very Happy Birthday......May you be blessed with lots of happiness, peace and success as you celebrate the day whereby GOD sent an Angel to Earth-U! Very Happy Birthday Parvin :)

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