Suprise....

Today was a great day of suprise....shall post more abt it when I get the pics from Mita...so stay tuned!!

Well it seems tat I wud have to await for eternity before I can get my hands on the pics from Mita-she seems to be taking forever to upload them-Damn the Nurse :P So I wud attempt to narrate the situation:-

Ok-We had went to Pasir Ris beach to check out the place but apparently it seemed that the place turned out to be very spooky looking...there wasnt much lighting....but it was nice as in windy and all though it had a fishy smell....Well, we decided to sit around as it was windy and all and we kinda decided on the invitation cards and all...ok then all of a sudden, Van asked me if I wanted to go to the washroom which I dared not because of the surroundings and instead suggested to pack up and leave...to which Van said-Huh....

Haha...well then Mita takes out a Four Leaves plastic and said that she had brought something for us....I was-India has Four Leaves and thats when the two suprised me wif birthday cake....this was followed by huggies, and then they both sang me a very fast birthday song due to the reason that it was very windy n we din want the candle to be doused.....and after that-My babes took out a very nice Mango bag for me.....

The whole thing was very sweet n awesome...The best thing was when Van said-Why is it that every time things have to be done in a rush for my b'day surprise...hahaha....this year was fast singing of Bday song and last year, the two attempted to quickly light the candles so as to surprise me b4 I entered my room-which I spoiled since I juz opened the door while they were still fretting=but my darlings are very cute whenever they rush n the way they wud react whenever I wud spoil it....WOW I am always spoiling my own surprise wif them eh.......

There was oso this instance whereby there was a cat roaming around the pit whereby we were sitting and Van was like chase it away, chase it away...So Mita decided to be the knight in shining armour and started saying-Bil bil bil bil bil.....Van n me were like-Bil Bil??? Then we told that Pagal tat this is Singapore and not India whereby the cat would respond to her Bil Bil...So Mita got up n all of a sudden shouted ROAR and started running after the cat! Imagine a skinny girl, her hair all straight n loose, running with her hands in an attacking manner under the trees in a very poorly lit place-There was a family of three walking by and when Mita shouted ROAR, the poor kid actually jumped before looking behind....=OMG-I can't believe that I am actually laughing so hard that am starting to tear up juz by recounting the whole incident....MITA MITA....seriously-This babe is the total joker among the three of us....

Seriously it was a great surprise n a great catching up wif the darlings.....

Cleared....

Finally.....I cleared it...couldnt have wished for anything other than that to end the Year in a good way......

I am just still feeling HAPPY and relieved!!!!

Exhausted

Frankly speaking...I have totally no idea as to why I am feeling this way but after coming back hom yesterday, I have been feeling very exhausted from then on...I even went to sleep early, a first after a very damn long time...I slept for nearly 91/2 hours and yet when I woke up this morning, I felt as if I have no energy at all......

Followed mom for the checkup and thankfully, today was the blissful day whereby they discharged her.....After coming back home, fell flat and when I woke up...was roaming around the house with a lil bit of headache.....Having nothing to do, was made to be the idiot having to go Compass Point to pass the meal and thankfully, it was a cool and refreshing short trip.......

I have seriously no idea as to why am I feeling like this right now...Having no enthusiasm, feeling tired and exhausted=All in all.....I am feeling very lifeless........

AM TOTALLY HATING THIS RIGHT NOW!!!!

Changes that Hurt....

With all that has been happening and that I have been hearing, frankly speaking it hurts to think that everything done and said can just be destroyed in a moment. To hear them talk about it and try to make fun of it, it can be seen that though they have laughter and smiles on their faces, in truth, they are really hurt. To have the same thing happen to the both of them-they are both really hurt........Everything said and done-if it was to be the case of anyone, I am sure it would be painful but to do this to ur own.....

When I used to see such things on the TV and Movies when I was young, I used to think how can people treat their on family like garbage but now I when I see the same type of things on tv or drama, I feel that this is so expected. In all, the conclusion basically is that TRUST NO ONE...be it some random stranger whom you bump into on the streets or your own child........

I remember that when I once heard him say that why would he depend on us for their old age, I found myself hurt and was really in disbelief but seeing the events that have happened this past few years, I am sure that now, he is even more unwilling to trust in anyone but nonetheless, I still find myself wanting to do things for them...be it now or in the future....at least the most I can do now is to accompany her which isnt really a big thing to me but means a lot to her-so am thankful that with my current lifestyle, at least I can do something for her....It feels nice when I am lying by her side or just sitting beside her and she opens up to me...though the things that are discussed are painful, I realised that both of us just try to laugh it off to ease the pain.....

I am kinda sad that I cant tell her abt things that are happening with him but even about that, I feel sad as to the difference in treatment...it really is painful when I sense the difference but there isnt much that can be done about it...atleast if I know about it, I can expect less and be less disappointed right??...if things are already going this way from now, what would happen in the future-I guess we can only wait and see for the future is an mystery gift which only opens itself when the right time arrives....

Seriously, I wish that I could just bring them with me go off to some other place whereby we could be free of all this but this is a totally impossible wish because try as you like, relations and bonds are something that you can never run away from......It S*CKS!!!

What can we take on trust
in this uncertain life? Happiness, greatness,
pride - nothing is secure, nothing keeps.
~Euripides, Hecuba

It's been long.....

It's been a while since I last blogged.....frankly speaking I guess the reason would be that my life is seriously going in a monotone direction currently that I an unable to find anything to blog about. I am spending everyday at home, doing nothing but housework...and that's all there is to it.

At times, it feels nice as I relaxed and such but at other times, it just gets too boring when there is nothing to do and nothing on TV as well...even my mom has started to feel bored nowadays....thinking of getting cable.....

At least previously, there were driving lessons that kept me occupied for a few days of the week-the day of the lesson and 2 days before and after the lesson. I still remember that I used to be scared going for the lesson because I didn't really like being scolded by him and I was kinda scared of driving the car but as the lessons progressed, I started looking for to driving and enjoyed it but still hated the scolding part as usually, I was getting scolded for repeating the same mistakes or going slow....and the scoldings would keep ringing in my mind for the days after the lesson...Hmmmm, but now that I have got my license[which I still am not able to believe and am totally over the moon for though I cant rent a car and drive it around], there seems to be not much fun things left to look ahead for.

As much as I would like to go out at the last minute, I am unable to do so for the following two reasons:
-Friends are busy working their ass off unlike me....
-Seating at home has resulted in my bank balance dipping like mad






Thankfully, there is at least the planning for Mita's part for which I can be a lil excited but even that is on hold currently as we are unable to do much without having her see and decide....so we have to wait for her to get back from her lil holiday.........

Seriously...it really is getting boring but though I have complained and yakked so much about it, at times, I am grateful for the lifestyle I am currently leading as I get to take life at a pace which otherwise, I would not be able to do so.....So I guess I am just gonna shut up and ENJOY IT WHILE IT LASTS......