Jaane Tu ya Jaane Na

Finally, I got the chance to listen to the full song of JTYJN [Kabhie Kabhie] and I realise that I love it.....didn't really pay attention when was watching the movie so now I am so gonna rewatch the movie over the weekend, if time permits.....Really love the whole meaning behind the song-it is so simple and loving......Just imagine a guy singing that to u in Fantasy World that is but it is still awesome....No wonder Nisa is so so so addicted to it..........Seriously just love the whole thing the lyrics are so sweet.....and yet so TRUE........

All of a sudden, I am feeling so enlightened today! I have no idea why but I feel so good and I love it! I guess the song really has great effects..Or was it that I talked with the both of them especially the heart to heart with her? I don't know but am just happy that life is moving on and hopefully the way things are looking, it would be to the better direction..but I just realised that in the action they had, there was love for me-haha, I guess=THANKS.....-OMG-I so relate totally to the song.....The bold part are the best part of the song though the whole thing is awesome!!!!!

Kabhi Kabhi aditi Zindagi ,
Mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi Kabhi aditi woh bichad jaye to
Ek sapna lagta hai

Aise mein koi kaise apnne aasun ko behene se roke
Aur kaise koi soch de
Everythings gona be ok

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi na khushi aur na maza
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din muskhil Aur har pal ek saza

Aise mein koi kaise muskuraye kaise hasde kush ho ke
Aur kaise koi soch de
Everything gona be ok

Soch zara janejaa tujhko hum kitna chahte hai
Roote hai hum bhi agar teri aakhon mein aasun aate hain
Gana to aata nahi hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hain

Hey aditi maan kabhi ,kabhi sare jahan mein andhera hota hai
Lekin raat ke baad hi to savera hota

Kabhi Kabhi aditi Zindagi ,
Mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi Kabhi aditi woh bichad jaye to
Ek sapna lagta hai

Hey aditi hasde hasde hasde hasde hasde tu zara
Nahi to bas thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura

Tu Kush Hai to lage ki jahan mein chai hai kushi
Suraj nikle badlon se aur baate zindagi
Sunto zara madhosh hawa tujhse kehne lagi

Ki Aditi woh ko bichadte hain ek na ek din phir mil jate hain
Aditi jane tu ya jaane na phool phir khil jate hain

Kabhi Kabhi aditi Zindagi ,
Mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai
Kabhi Kabhi aditi woh bichad jaye to
Ek sapna lagta hai

Hey aditi hasde hasde hasde hasde hasde tu zara
Nahi to bas thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura

Hey aditi hasde hasde hasde hasde hasde tu zara
Nahi to bas thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura
[lyricsmasti.com]

Moving ON

OK, life's moving on in one way or another. Whether friends or family or loved ones are by your side or not, it keeps on moving on and on. I realised-maybe I am just to soft to survive in this way. I mean, sometimes when I say something, it's just goes away along with the wind......There's no trust in me....and worst of all, not willing to help me at all...........that's the worst thing as in seriously, I don't mind helping people-not at all......and frankly speaking, I don't expect you to return my favour but do u have to be so competitive with me? I mean, come on-what can i do to you:kill you and take away your marks????Seriously, here I am asking you for help and what happens to you.......well, this is life ain't it?

Sometimes, things happen so suddenly and the whole thing turns upside down! The happiness she had on her face....and all of a sudden, I realise I am such a doof....OMG-I don't know how to be a sister...I don't know what's sisterly love at all.....the awkwardness we had when she was going to go in....I was so disappointed with myself........I sometimes don't know what I do and why I do...........

Current Happenings

Ongoing Projects, Exams Coming and the Usual things -All these things mean one thing = I miss MM!!!! I really need him to inspire me to continue moving on but I guess this would not be possible as his exams are around the corner and the "Studious"[act only] MM would be busy studying to come online........I am really becoming stressed! The projects are driving me up the wall esp CMFI-though its over....it's still not over cos exam is coming................

Projects-rush through 5 project within this month and as if it is not enough, I cannot sleep either because I am rushing report or I am dreaming about me rushing to complete my project in my sleep!!!-See, the darn projects are not even leaving me in the time when I should be resting and calming myself down-But, NO! I am also panicking and thinking of figures in my dream-OMG OMG OMG!!!

But the worse thing is that what is even more worse than this is that I am not able to bring myself to move forward-I don't know why but I keep thinking about the whole issue....like the song goes-"what hurts the most was being so close, having so much to say and watching you walk away" I really have to get a grip on things and just move on-It's so freaking in the past yet I am not able to do so....I really hope going "HOME" would make things better....am so looking forward to going back there just for the break...get away from this fast moving life before starting another new chapter of my life......

I am so in the middle of a deadset....why can't things just be normal for me...why is this happening with me and why am I this type of person??-Why don't i just accept it and move on, damn it?-The reason because: I cared too much and the whole thing is just too painful to accept it and move on.......See-I know what is my problem and yet I can't solve it......WHATEVER-it's not as if they give a damn shit......................Well what to say-LIFE IS SUCH!!!!

I am so gonna get better and move on.......-"Bahar koi haste, andar koi rota hai?"....Mujhe bahar aur andar dono aur hasna hai...............I am going to do it-I am proud that atleast in some way, I am just like how I was but still, the small bit that's left-I would get rid of it soon.....

MM-What you said was so damn true......and I am gonna do what U said, I just you wish were here beside me, someone for me to put my should on and just cry and get everything Out-I miss you so much...................................

Post for Shams

Hey Shams,

I know this is kind of too overdue but this is for you.......Wow, time sure has passed and now you are gonna go to NS-Serve our Nation with Pride, dude. I am sure that these times would fly by for you as you would enjoy and have fun since you are the type of person who brings life and laughter to wherever you go!

I guess am truly pleased to have met a person like you who is so easy and out-going........Our life is shaped by the type of people we meet and meeting you has been a turning point in my life-trning for the good!

Anyway, it is not as if you are going forever.....Guess now weekends would have more value, eh?
Enjoy yourself dude and hope you have lots of fun[i'm not too sure it applies for NS]!

Would miss you-All The Best and Take Care!

Life Moves On

Despite all that there is happening, life isn't stopping and waiting. Instead, it just keeps doing its own work and keep moving on.

For some reason, I just can't forget it and move on no matter how much I want to. I guess the apparent reason being that when you see them everyday, it's difficult to do what you want and me being the the type of person I am, it is even more worse. I guess this is why she was giving me the book on loving too much?!?

But I am thankful for one thing-my MM [Mad Monkey].

It's so cool that he has been coming online. I thought even he was angry with me-reason being: that was what everybody was doing during that period.

But thankfully for me, he is truly a God's gift for me...always being there and just being who he is. Frankly, I couldn't even talk about what happened to anyone and yet with him, it just came flowing out by itself and the words he said to me....esp about her....haha, sometimes feel truly blessed that I have u in my life along with her! Thanks my Mad Monkey. Can't wait to meet you at all and the best part is that she is going with me! It's going to be one hack kind of adventure.

First time going alone and that too with her.....can't wait. I am quite hyped about the whole thing-only concern: her staying with me at my grandma's place, which is a remote village....shall see how it is and all...everything is about adapting!

Though am trying not to be too excited, I can't help it at all....I am already planning what I wanna buy and all, though have to wait until I have money to buy.....So have to save, which am doing naturally looking at my boring life as compared to last year......guess it's just fate-you can't control who comes into your life and what happens.........

It's heartbreaking to look back and am truly fearful of looking ahead........ Taking life as it comes-this is the only way!

I WANNA CHEER UP and become bubbly..............not be as downcast and solemn as now!!!
It's been so many months and why do I still naively wish for the wish?-Nothing would happen.